...So. The Addams Family Musical is coming to my state, aaaaaand guess who doesn't have anyone to take them?

._.

*le sigh* WELL...at least this isn't as much of a letdown as when I missed the 2NE1 concert because I had no one to take me to L.A.

TUMBLRRRR COME ONNNN.
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Awww. :(
Maybe someone can take you last minute? Your dad? Your sister? Sister in law?

Sorry. D:

But sorry I have a friend who's obsessed with KPOP and 2NE1 among other bands and she wanted to go too and oma you'd be BFFs. ;_; Okay sorry. XD

Nope. No one. ._.

You do? 8D Awesome. Tell her you have more than one Blackjack friend, then. ^_^ Too bad she didn't get to go. ;w;

I don't.

"I can feel emotion so strongly that it can make me sick."
i was so f***ing jealous when i read this quote.
i'm sick of this apathy and i want to fall into self-destructive spirals because i feel kind of like it'll get me out of this.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z06LXZQwkrc
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wE0-_2n1Vh8
and when i said i think i'm getting a bit better? i've realised that i'm just walking in f***ing circles but because of my crappy memory i don't really realise it.

On page, like, 4 of Imagine Your OTP (I'm lurking, I don't have a tumblr or really understand it) and almost crying because my OTP is really depressing.

CELEBRATION!
FINALLY EFFING YES.
Pretty much everything but the tags are working on tumblr!
:D :D :D :D
YAYYYYYY!

Come on. Really? I had to read THIS: Imagine your OTP after Person A has had to go in for a dangerous surgery that could have killed them. When they finally come to, they automatically reach out, and Person B immediately takes their hand, smiling through their tears in utter relief, and says “Welcome back.”

Come on. It's like this website knows me personally. OH GOD I WISHED THAT HAD HAPPENED SO MUCH! It's like they just saw through my computer screen and were like, "Hey, this person's OTP is Finny and Gene, let's write something totally related to A Separate Peace and almost make her bawl her eyes out again!"

I experienced apathy yesterday and I hate it. I know how you feel.

FUCK PARENTS FUCK PARENTS FUCK PARENTS.
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My friend is turning towards me to vent but I don't have any good advice. She really ought to go on KP, on this thread, even on my account, but I don't know how to tell it to her.

I'm not sure which one I'd prefer--bursting into tears for no reason at all or the apathy.

Well, I would prefer crying. It helps amazingly. It gets out the emotions XD

Yes, but I don't even know why. And that's in front of my parents.

Wow, my "friend" is the biggest bast*rd ever. He gets bullied himself, but then he bullies others. -_-

Is he bullying you?

Yeah.

He's a f*cking bast*rd, I hate him so much.

Ignore the white part - that's just me venting. >_>

*hugs*

*epik and *awesome
You're not useless, no matter what. And I don't see you as even close to useless.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NzC9TS3iqPc

What would my *friends* think if they knew the me that lives inside my head?

i knew i was right.
you said this friendship was not going to fail and that i should stop comparing it to my past friendships.
you said it would work out.
you said we would be friends for a lot longer than two years.

hey look it's only four months in and this friendship is starting to have its cracks. and it's all my fault.

that one moment when you wish you didn't think, i told you so. i knew i was right.

Since this rage has come again, I thought I should refresh this and try and sound more eloquent.

To those bitches and dumb-asses, b******s and mother-f***ers: I'm a f***ing genius and you can grovel at my feet in Hell!

I hope that sounds better. I would like to shout it next Friday, when it will be my last chance to say it. 8D

I love this post.
I must say... this is excellent.
Seriously.
This post pretty much made my night... :>

You're awesome, MaryElizabeth. :D

I wonder what my friends would think if they knew what music I listen to.

OH MY GOD, I can relate to this so much. o_o

DANGIT PEOPLE IN INDIA AND THE UKRAINE STOP SPAMMING MY BOOK'S WEBSITE. e___o Mrehhhhhhhhhh.

My friends know my music tastes already:
1) "Oh my god, Lily, you're turning emo!"
2) "Oh my god, Lily, you're turning scene!"
3) "Lily, you need to stop, they're a bad influence!" (excuse me, shut the f**k up, they saved my life.)
4) "Oh cool, YES LET US FANGIRL!" (only one of them.)

I'm in a seriously weird mood tonight...
 

I don't even know how I found this song...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aWERYqWs5xY


I'm sick of everyone underestimating me.


These last few months have brought out the best, and the worst in me. Mainly the worst. And if this nightmare doesn't end soon, I'm going to go insane.

I once used MCR (a link to Boy Division) to spite a Directioner who was getting very defensive about Harry Styles, but to my shock and horror as well as delight, she liked it.
The others think Gerard is creepy--(well, so is your Edward Cullen, Rachael) and my new classmate, Chan Oi, thinks Na Na Na is fine. My other secondary school classmates think my music's way too loud because they could hear it even when I was listening to it through earbuds.

Finals start today! x_x Aaaaaaaaaaaaagggghhhhhh!!!!!! My gosh, I'm not prepared, not prepared in the slightest! I don't seem to have enough time--I feel like I'm stuck in this state of eternally being late for an appointment and failing to do what I promised to do. Now I know how the White Rabbit feels. ;w;

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NuvbFHWfHbo

.....Aaaaand keeping the above post in mind, why do I find K-Pop ten times more interesting when I'm RIGHT IN THE MIDDLE of my LAC Final? XD XD DX DX

Help me. ;w; *flails*

My friends wouldn't care too much, but 'emo' comments would fly.

i hate how all my friends and family think im not trying hard enough for my grade. they dont know how hard it is to feel hopeless and try to do work at the same time. im trying as hard as i can, but its hard to keep my head above the water. yesterday, i relapsed. only three cuts, but still. im trying as hard as i can to keep my head above the water and get good grades at the same time.

As long as you're happy that you've done your best, then screw them. They shouldn't be able to put you down if they don't understand what you're going through.

I'm glad that I was able to do that. :D
:D Thank you very much, miss.

Well... I'm certainly not underestimating you, if it matters that some random on the internet says it. I expect great things from you... because I know you're going to achieve them.
I know how you feel, though, about being in a weird mood.
I searched for half an hour, trying to find a song to respond with but I ended up almost crying so I had to change it. :^I
In short, I'm a failure of everything I expect myself to be. Beyond not good enough in both terms of appearance, mind, and heart. And on top of it all, I can't stop thinking about how pointless I am, how little I am going to achieve, how futile I am. I thought it had gone away when I started high school, and for a moment, it had... the enriched and accelerated curriculum kept my brain fed for this entire term... and I can't believe it but now it's somehow no longer enough.
Ugh... me, me, me... the sad/happy part is, there is a rational part of me that is still conscious during all of this... (*facepalms*)
Ignore me. -______- I'm silly.

=_= Random question for Sandy: How old are you? (*because thinks you are 16*)