I haven't even tried to talk to them about cutting that would end so terribly, but just about being sad.

i'm so, so sorry. i made this to help...and i think that anonymous sort of applies to everyone...she's one of my best friends.

That website is so sweet. :'] Thank you. Don't be sorry for anything, Sophs.

D: I'm like the scrawniest guy in the grade. I feel like crap 'cause I'm weak. We took this test for upper arm strength and I was the only one that failed. People make fun of me and call me "skin and bones." It's true though.

I tried push-ups but that didn't work too well. ._.

;_; That was beautiful.

it's okay, that doesn't affect who you are as a person.
i am a failure as far as athletic ability but even i don't care :D

;_____________; Oh my God I'm crying.

]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GrKS4KSyej0

I cried, man. I totally cried. I haven't been bullied and I cried.

;____________________________; Same here. Oh my Gawd though see the reaction video.

I do public speaking, and I'm totally doing this as my speech.

Oh that is totally me. My gym teacher even talked to me about how I'm not SUPPOSED to be able to do anything with my arms and that it's okay that I suck at anything arm-strength related and throughout the entire conversation I'm just like: -_- yeah sure right.
Except I'm not scrawny. I'm just weak.

I wish that I was a better person.

Or a nicer person.

Or a smarter person.

Or a thinner person.


But I'm not, and I hate myself so much for it.

See, the people who hate me see me, and the people who love me don't know me. I don't lie to the people that hate me, because they never ask me if I'm okay. And, honestly, the people who like me don't care that much either now. A boy who I thought was my friend gives me a scathing look when he finds me crying behind the bookshelves in the library. My friend tells me to shut up and get over it when I feel like I'm a piece of shit. Like right now. I wonder how these people would react if I told them I almost killed myself over spring break, and that I'm not okay, regardless of what I told them. Or that I keep needles in my backpack.

I doubt they'd care.

No, don't. If there were a way to do that, I'd have tried it out to see what happened. Which would be stupid. So don't contemplate it.

No, not yet. And my music teacher has just started to take notice, so I probably can't get on later.

Nine...

Sorry, CDO. That's OCD in alphabetical order :cool:

They don't know what you're going through and might be mistaking it for something trivial.

On another note, I'm absolutely exhausted. Fuck my schoolbus.

I just realised I have a few of the symptoms of anxiety disorder. ._. Great. Just... great.

@pluzzle: lurve your signature. AmazingPhil is the best. Makes me feel happy. :3 =^_^=

And my friends aren't a great help in that. Ah well. New school at the end of this year so I should be right. :)

I totally agree! Everyone's like, "ooh, Dan is so cute! Cuter than that other guy... What's his name?"
"PHIL! HIS NAME IS PHIL AND HE IS THE AWESOMEST EVER!" Yes... he is much cuter.

He looks like a hamster...POPTARTS! I've never eaten a poptart either!
Help, I think I'm addicted to watching gore.

*hugs* You are a good person, and you're nice and smart and probably skinny, too. And you're pretty.

:/ We know you, and we love you still.
*hugs* The happiness can come back…

Feels like crap
<_<
>_>
>_<

This is really personal
 

Am I a bad person for not having a boyfriend in high school?
I'm going to be fifteen soon...

I've never been kissed, I've never even had a mutual crush.
Does this make me... a bad person?
Am I a loser?
Am I stupid?

There's so much peer pressure...

(*needs reassurance that I'm not doing something wrong*)

There's absolutely nothing wrong with that. Your friends might have boyfriends and date and all that mess, but it's okay if you aren't. If you're just not ready for it, or simply don't want to do it, shame on your peers/society for thinking otherwise.

Personally, I don't think I'll get a boyfriend/get kissed until I'm at least sixteen. :D

Nooooo you're not. I'm sixteen, turning seventeen in a few months (oh god) and I've never been kissed either.
You aren't a bad person or a loser or stupid for that.

Thanks. <:/
I'm putting my bets on when I'm in university, possibly later. I really don't want to rush, AT ALL. Normally I would be almost immune to this whole peer pressure thing, but... I don't know. In the span of two weeks, my entire friend group hooked up with itself. o_o Like, suddenly everyone is in pairs, and then there's just me, watching everyone get together and trying not to feel like I should rush into this. And the worst part is that I know perfectly well that if I DO give in, I'm going to regret it. It's like I'm being torn apart by the part of myself that is rational, logical, and knows me for who I am, and... something weaker.
(*sigh*)


Thanks, man. <:/ That means a lot. I'm just really done with being ashamed of it and, at the same time, knowing that I shouldn't be. My parents are proud of me, my friends agree with me... yet I've been in this rut for the past week, thinking that there must be something wrong with me because of it, that maybe I need to put my grades aside to get a boyfriend. Peer pressure is making me really irrational, I guess.

Thanks, camikat and LST. (*hugs*)

No.

There is absolutely nothing wrong with you not having a boyfriend. Honestly, in my personal opinion, I think the whole concept is stupid, at this age anyways. I mean, I thought dating was to find the person you want to spend the rest of your life with. Not willy nilly unneeded drama. It's ridiculous.

You are many things, Cassandra. A bad person is not one of them.
(And I know how you feel about the 15 thing....oh gosh, I keep getting asked how old I am, lately, and my brain keeps wanting to tell them I'm 13....x__x I think my brain is trying to defend itself from turning 16 or something. XD XD DX DX)

I've never been kissed, either. o_o *shrugs*

Are you stupid?
http://25.media.tumblr.com/936a417f4...jjtzo1_400.gif

Are you a loser?

http://media.tumblr.com/3c5c82b20b62...pjF1qz4rgp.gif


I know this has already been said, but...*takes deep breath*....Sandy...you're doing absolutely nothing wrong. <:^J It's not sensible to get into any kind of a romantic relationship at this point in your life. Like you said, if you did, you would regret it later. Relationships are incredibly complicated, and demand a LOT of attention. Not to mention there's a 99% chance you'll just end up hurt and feeling more lonely than ever, because EVERYONE in your grade is quite simply not ready for a relationship, which I'm sure you already know.

Nevertheless, I know what you mean. Everyone is pairing off, and you're just sort of in the background...alone. The thing is, Sandy...you're not alone. We may all be just text on a screen to you, but we've chosen not to get involved in all of that drama just like you have. There is a person behind every single line of text, here.

And each and every one of us would be lying if we said that we never feel lonely, and that peer pressure doesn't affect us at all. Most of us feel lonely a lot of the time, and we all have our weak points when it comes to how our peers influence us.

Just try not to worry about all this, okay? Just...try. I know it's hard. But you've gotten through so many things in your life that were a LOT tougher than this. And if you ever want to talk or need some reassurance again...*gestures to the EVT* we're all here, and we're all rooting for you. ^_^

Meh..... ._.

Are you alright, Kenny? D:

*glares for long moment*
*shrugs*
Meh.... ._.

Meh?

MEH?

MEEEEEHHHHH?

O____O

Why you be MEH?

Don't be meh.

Be happeh. *gives a muffin* ^_^ *fail attempt at making you grin/smile/laugh*

Did something happen? D: Is there anything I can do to help...?

*pokes HOOG thread for explanation*

Liiiiiiiiiiilllllllyyyyy!


I may be Meh today but you are not going to give up! It's hard. I understand. Just realize how strong you are.

<:^/ Lily...I'm so sorry. *hugs* You can get through this. I know you can. You're strong. Strong enough to help not only yourself, but your friends, too. Just be there for them like you want us to be there for you when you're feeling bad. You'll help them a lot just by doing that.

Just listen to some music for a while and try to keep calm, okay? Things will be alright...*hugs again*

Okay.


Listen to Ash.

For Lily:

http://fc02.deviantart.net/fs70/i/20...xs-d4xx9pw.jpg


Sorry for its hugeness. :^I

I know how that feels, Lily. I know you think I don't, but I do. It's called hopelessness. And it's one of the most dangerous, deadly things I can think of.

Things WILL get better. You just need to hold on. <:^J I know that you can hold on. Don't doubt yourself. Think of Tredom and Kendra and AA and everyone else on here. We don't doubt you. And we really do care.

Don't be afraid to cry it out. Listening to music helped me tremendously when I had my last couple breakdowns. Maybe it would help you, too?

Yeah.
XD
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