nonononno *hugs*

you are not a waste of anything except society's efforts to fuck you up okay

you are beautiful and to more people than you can imagine, you are worth everything. As long as you are the beautiful person that is you, you will always be enough. I promise.

I have to go to my supposedly claimed best friend's house tomorrow along with her friends *note I said 'her' and not 'our') kill me now
but it's her birthday and I want her to be happy

(*hugs*) i hope that means you'll get better because you deserve to feel great <3

@CT: everything said above and more you are really awesome and worth so much in this world. (*hugs*) and please don't purge it's not healthy and it's so important to healthy especially when you're as fab as you c:

hey you (*hugssss*)
if you need someone who can listen and doesn't really mind being a verbal punching bag for you i'm always here ily hope things turn out alright you're very strong so hang in there <3

thanks <333



sometimes i dont feel like trying anymore everything is so fucked up how do i stop life and get off

I'm not better and after school starts, I know things will just get worse, but at least I have something to look forward to. I feel like I know what my purpose is, or at least what my life goal is, as of right now. It won't support me through life, and I still need a lot of improvement, but it's something that brightens my day and distracts me so that makes me feel a bit happy :) I hope all of you on here find something like that that you can use as a distraction and something that excites you. I hope you all find happiness c: I know some of you are going through bad times right now but I truly mean it when I say that things will get better so just keep holding on!

I'm just confused and tired and irritable.

It seems like everything I say is either insulting or obnoxious or unnecessary.

I feel restless and bored and just like crap.

I try to be a good person, but I can't help but feeling so evil, like I'm not good enough.

Why am I so freaking pretentious and judgmental?

I'm just... Restless, I guess. My life just seems wrong. I seem wrong. I don't know.

fuck jealousy is the worst

ugh first day of school and i'm in a class away from my best friends. i only have one friend in my class and that's it: i barely know anyone else. :/

i feel SO good (:

honestly veganism, yoga, and meditation has done so much for me. i live by "nourish the body, mind, soul, and earth." and all three of the things ive mentioned have done those. i feel so much better living vegan, knowing that i've harmed the earth and animals as little as i can and it helps my body. both veganism and meditation combined have allowed me to taste fruits and veggies more deeply and really enjoy natures foods!! and yoga and meditations also make me feel so at peace and my body feels great whenever i do yoga. i get better sleep and fall asleep RIGHT AWAY after doing yoga+meditation before bed, and all my friends whove known me for a while KNOW i have a super hard time sleeping. i feel spiritually better thanks to buddhism and i just feel way closer to the earth thanks to all three things.

and on a kind of unrelated note, i'm sending positive vibes to everyone who's feeling bad today!! <3

Yesterday wasn't exactly the vest day of my life, y'know?
She kept calling me fat, ugly, and commenting on my physical appearance. I'm trying to starve myself but it never works.
The depression I told her about?
Caused by her.
Her comments?
Not helping at all.
Sure, I was the only person that actually went to her house on her birthday and we played minecraft, but I just feel like a bug that everyone hates.
I look at myself critically everyday and point things about myself.
You know what?
I'm done.

And guess what?
Listening to music at your house equals me not being able to use my phone, huh?
I was doing something really private on there and you had to snatch it.
I resist and you start 'playfully' choking me with your hands. Slapping me?
That's low. Even on your birthday.
Someone like you shouldn't have anybody go to your house.
You made me write emotional letters to you using the notebook I just made at your house. Wow. I didn't plan on writing something like that there.
You kept insulting me and calling me stupid.
I really wanted to curse just then.
But you know I never do that.
I really want to say one F-word
But I don't.

I really just want someone to tell the truth about what they feel about me. Tell me I'm pretty, at least.

you are pretty. really pretty.
you know, i saw a thing once saying that all your best traits are taped to your back, so other people can see them, but you usually can't.
(*hugs*) stay strong. you friend is a bitch.

I just really really hate her.
Choking me? Really? I almost lost all my breath there.
Thank you so much.

yeah, that was low. i can't believe someone would do that - even if it was meant as a joke, that's seriously messed up.

Books are getting too predictable. I mean, I guessed a major plot twist halfway through one book, then answered my friend's question about the book correctly, once she had already read it, and I was part-way. But they're both good books, and it's just me. I just needed to get that out.

I don't know what I can say to make you feel better, but I'm just going to give you a hug. *hugs*

You won't believe me, but you are beautiful, okay?

And I'll say it again, that friend of yours is toxic and you need to get away from her. Now. Ignore her. Straight up tell her you're done with her. You might feel like a douche but honestly she has harassed you and made you feel like crap and no one has the right to do that.

You don't have the right either, hon. I've been in your position. I've tried starving myself. It doesn't work. Just eat healthy, okay? Cut out the bad stuff. Trust me, you'll feel a lot better. Both physically and just about yourself. I know it's easy to just want to criticize and tear apart your own image, but you are better than that. Don't let yourself indulge in that. That's one of man's most guilty and popular indulgences but you need to stay strong and not succumb. I know how hard it is. I still struggle with it. Sometimes you need to just stand in front of that mirror and just tell yourself something you like about what you see. Even if it feels like a lie.

If you need to talk, email me.

And if you're having a really crappy day, write. Read. Draw. Escape into a world that you can create. Just scream. Cry. Listen to music. Do whatever you need to.

(Another thing that helps me with self-image is service. It's nice to just spend a day not thinking about yourself. Maybe it isn't your thing but it helps me.)

YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL. You are human. Humans are imperfect f***-ups, and they all have more problems than anyone can count. But, guess what, THEY ARE BEAUTIFUL. Nature has imperfections, but THAT'S WHY IT'S BEAUTIFUL. Everyone, no matter how perfect they seem, have had those moments where they've messed up majorly, or they've looked in the mirror and felt like crap, or they've just wanted to cry and scream and shout.

This probably won't help but just know that it's true. KP loves you. Don't be afraid to email me.

Jealousy sucks.
But you know what? I fight for what I want. And I'm not just going to give up.

It still p*sses me off whenever one of my best friends tells me that you stare at him all period and constantly talk about how cute he is and how you answer all of the questions to try and impress. Yes, I admit, that causes a flame of jealousy to ignite inside of me. You didn't respect the fact that I liked him first, so I guess you want to start World War III.

The thing is, I would tell you off but I'm afraid. Not afraid of disappointing you, no. I'm afraid of disappointing your mom because I know her so well. I know that sounds dumb. But that's what's holding me back from texting you right now.

I just feel really awful right now and I'm crying but my parents are upstate and they can't come home since they're shopping and apparently wasting money is more important than their daughter having a bad stomachache.

why am I so dismissed and looked over
why is it blank
no responses?
where's my respect?
why am I not acknowledged
why am I never good enough for that

well, I have to do work now, so fuck emotions
ok, bye bye now

Are you kidding? This is amazing.
I just really hate her and my parents, her for not knowing how much she can hurt me, and my parents for not knowing all the physical abuse that she had done.
I almost told my mom about her choking me but I didn't. Too scared, I guess.
I don't know what my life's going to do with me. I'm not getting any skinnier with my grandma trying to force me to drink this sugar water that she says will cure my stomachache.
Ugh.
Though I feel like the music I listen to is helping. Especially when I draw with it. Then I escape to a world of imagination, where I rule.
I'm nor just ready to tell everything to my friend or my parents, but I'm sure I'll try. I just want someone who understands at my side. The only supportive friends I have are my friends back at my old school, and they can't exactly come to my school and help me.
My other friend who I actually know better is kin ld of nice, but she's not always the nicest, you know?
I think she'll understand, though.

i'm kinda nervous about the first day of school

how does one make friends
i mean i want to make new friends. older friends. i've been stuck with the people in my grade my entire life and it sucked because most of them are assholes and hate me so i want to make new friends.

aaaany ideas? ;-; i'm actually super nervous right now ahhh (*hides*)

*hugs* you will
You're amazing okay and everyone will want to be friends with you.
(I kind of want to read Shadow Realm but I'm too lazy what shall I do)

I mean does anyone even want me to write stuff anymore

On a different note...

"Don't crush your own potential before you even try."

Because when real people are unsupportive jack wagons, fictional characters are always there. Well, not for me. But their words, regardless of the fact that they aren't directed at me, are still inspiring.

Well, as inspiring as stuff gets for me.

Just find a new kid or some random kid that looks cool and go up to them and introduce yourself or friend them on Facebook and say hey and start talking to them ^_^ That's what I did, and it's actually a lot easier than you think it is.

well that would be if I had any potential
sorry to disappoint you, I don't.

dude you have tons of potential i've read some of your writing and from what i've seen you're an amazing person that has a lot of talent *hugs*

and i can relate to fictional characters being better real people suck

I need help D: xD

So. There's this guy who's number I want. Like five or six days ago I gave him mine and told him to text me but he never did. We've been talking every day on Facebook since then though, and I'm wondering if I should just outright ask for it. He doesn't have it on Facebook, and none of my friends have it either.

So, I kind of have two questions. The first question: what's a good way to word this so I can ask for his number without seeming too pushy since I already told him to text me once and he never did?

The second question is: I was thinking of sending him something like this. Can you tell me if this is a good way to ask him/does this sound too pushy?

"Hey, I was just wondering, can I have your number? I like talking to you. (: If not, that's cool too." Or how can I word this better? Please answer, cause I'm thinking of asking him tomorrow. :D

Tomorrow's day one of school and I just spent an hour listening to Mayday Parade and crying because my worst fear is being alone and having people leave me and that's exactly what's happening this year. It's been bad in the past years but this year will be the worst. Even my best friend of 13 years will be leaving. Everyone. I refuse to take this lightly as everyone says. "Everyone leaves eventually" or "its part of life". It's true but I'm sick of people saying it so lightly. It does leave emotional scars and it hurts. And everyone's leaving at once.
Being alone is the worst.

try "I need some help with ____, is there any way to talk to each other without using facebook or email or whatever?:
or "Can I have your number so I know who you are if you text/call me?"
or "idk i'm making a collection of my friends' numbers?"

you don't mess things up
I promise
you're amazing and everything you never thought you were
you deserve all the attention you desire because you're really really worth it
you don't scare people
I promise okay