That's good. I thought I was the only lunatic feeling jealous and lonely. :P

^Not an insult. All writers are lunatics.

I've never considered them as angry music, 'specially not blink-182. I tend to be happier when I listen to then. You could also try Nirvana and the Used (maybe the not-so-heavy ones), those are quite nice too. Bashing rocks with a hammer rarely does release stress or anger but instigate more of it, especially when the rock you are bashing does not break. You could possibly stab an orange, though.

That awkward moment when you're wearing headphones and answering a phone call and your music is blaring through the speaker thingy.

Well, Stay Together For the Kids seems pretty angry to me...

I'm pretty sure that is the very rare one of their 'angry' songs (maybe Up All Night would count), although they do have a couple rare 'melancholy' songs like Adam's Song or I Miss You.

Yeah, same. And no worries, I didn't take it as an insult even before I read the second line. xD

Another good gif:
http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m7...lh1io1_400.gif

Comfort food:
 

http://media.tumblr.com/tumblr_mcqb9bdjuD1r6h22v.gif

Mmmmm....chocolate....*noms on a Hershey bar*

*cracking up at gif*

The thing is, I like a guy who apparently has no chance with any other girl. Am I really that unattractive and horrible that I can't be with someone who no one else likes besides me?

Sorry, not trying to make you my therapist. xD

Exactly, but she's always like, "Well we've been best friends for seven+ years." And I just want to scream, "THAT WAS THE PAST! WE AREN'T IN ELEMENTARY SCHOOL ANYMORE!!!" >.<

I know... I know... It sucks like that, but just say that... maybe a little nicer, but let her know you don't want to hang out with her. (Easier said than done, I know...)

Haha, I'm the master of changing this stuff up. :p And no, this is not real. ;)
And to make this not clogging (even though that is hard to do on WB), I will reply to these:

Well, I have a friend- no, FRIENDS- that are kind of like that, but different. One tried to kill me, another stole a lot of my stuff, yet another cheated off all of my assignments and so they were in the top class, etc.
Just ignore her. Don't talk to her. Don't let people think you are friends, and hang out with better people. That's all I can say. Don't be mean; just don't... be her friend. Do you get it?


Don't shout it out, not like in front of everybody! Just tell her alone. You don't want to embarrass her; it'll make it worse.

Great advice! I agree. :)

The captain was something like: "Obama: goes from president to bada** in two seconds". xD

Oh, I'm kind of like that. I WANT someone like that, but my hormones are all "LOL NOPE YOU LIKE THIS GUY YOU WANNA KISS HIM THAT'S AWKWARD IDC LOL LOOK YOU LIKE THIS GUY NOW YOU'RE GONNA ACT ALL STUPID AND STUTTERY AROUND HIM" and I'm like "Hormones, STFU." Except for they don't. So... I'm just trying to not think about guys at the moment. Enough crap going on in life without 'em.

No, it's all right. I don't mind being a therapist so long as I get to covet your deepest, darkest secrets.


...that was a joke.

1) One of my best friends is ignoring me and I have no clue why ;~; I want to ask him but I'm afraid too. Besides, I barely see him at school and he just doesn't come online anymore (aka appearing offline to me) So I don't know why. He was the person I was able to vent too and now he's gone. I don't know what went wrong. Whatever it was, I'm sorry.

2) Another of my best friends, my puppy dog, Buckley, has hip dysplasia and we're eventually going to have to put him down ;~; I love him so much ~huggles puppy~

3) So I liked this guy and he actually liked me back, but he doesn't text me anymore. So I keep wondering why and that leaves me wondering what's wrong. Is it because I'm ugly; not good enough? Did he find another girl; one whose better then me (aka anybody). Ah, just another reason to make me insecure.

4) My parents are freaking jerks. I mean, I don't hate them. I just don't like them; you know what I mean? They never listen and they always pin the blame on me, not my brother. Example: My brother hit me, so I hit him back then he started cussing at me. My mother comes in and starts screaming at me. No, not yelling, screaming. I just really can't take it much more. I've considered running away, but where would I go? 3 more years till I can move out; three more years . . .

5) My friend. I've said enough about her in previous posts. It remains the exact same. Her continuous one-upping is killing me from the inside out. Ugh.

6) I always try to be there for my friends, I really do. I stayed up with my best friend till around 4 am in the morning when she was upset after being bullied and was considering suicide. She said I saved her. I love that feeling but I don't know how much longer I can do it; listen to others vents while my own, and there's pile up inside of me. They're ready to just burst out. And I feel selfish for this but I can't help it. Argh. Besides, most of my vents are about my friends so I can't tell them without making them feel bad. Especially after my friend found out about one of them..... Her reply (and I quote)~ "and now im the loneliest girl ever. Most hurt. And probably beat the world record of crying but why should i say anything anymore im just seeking at attention like the attention wh*** i am," And then later she said stupid razor so I told her not to cut. So she said, "Im not running away from anything!!! I said stupid razor i didnt say i cut god just leave me alone." Me: "Well forgive me for asking. I thought friends cared about each other." So she said, "Guess I'm not a good friend then."

Bleh. I hate my life.
Thanks for reading this vent (if you did XD) If you didn't I don't blame you ~looks up~ It's quite stupid and long. I just needed to get it all out.

Haha, I've actually heard that he's a very funny guy in person.

Yeah, I know that feeling. My hormones: "NORMAL CONVERSATIONS HAHA NOPE JUST SAY RANDOM S***." -_- I hate it.

:D No, that was hysterical, I wasn't creeped out. xD

hallppppppp

My best friend's bi, and when she told everyone, me and her closest friends stuck with her. Sure, we were shocked, but it didn't affect how we talked to her. Just tell her. It'll be okay.

i know, my friend supports all sexualities 100% and she wont care but i'm still not confident. i might tell her after winter break.

My bi friend told me that he has a small crush on me and I am (as far as I know) straight and not bi, and it didn't make things awkward, so there's definitely hope. /shrugs
(or maybe that's me being odd but whatever hope is good.)

Lily...you're what? 12, now, according to your WB bio. You shouldn't be worrying about this. You're barely on the brink of adolescence. You don't have to tell your friend anything. You don't have to wonder what your orientation is. I don't, you don't, pretty much none of us KPers have to.

We're kids. KIDpub, people, KIDpub. Are there teens on here? Yes, clearly. There are lots of teens on here. But we're all still developing as individuals. We shouldn't think we have to decide what we are just because we see someone else is deciding, or because it's the norm, or because it's suddenly being accepted. We shouldn't think that what we say we are now is what we'll be for the rest of our lives. People change. Kids and teens change the most, but so do adults.

The point I'm getting at is...don't rush yourself. <:^J Don't worry about this. Do whatever makes you comfortable. But I think you're putting unnecessary stress on yourself.

I have a friend that is bi too. She likes... two of my other friends? Anyway, she told me because I'm calm and I don't care. You already said your friend wouldn't care.
I think you should tell her, and she proabably won't think of you as weird. If you don't feel comfortable telling her, that's fine.
Don't worry. If she's a true friend, she'll be there for you all the way.

Oh, and if you are suffering from it or are depressed, just think of the best memory in your life. Always think of that. Or just cling on to a tiny thread of hope. That's what I do; the person I like probably doesn't like me. You'll be okay. I'm sure of it.

oh hay look
a lot of f-words

i hate myself
i'm fucked up
i hate myself
fuck feeling (my version of) okay i hate it
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ud4HuAzHEUc
today—or was it yesterday—it crossed my mind to kill myself because everyone else would be better off without me
i'm not actually going to do it but

sometimes i want to burn it all down and build myself up as a new person but i don't know how and i can't find anything to burn down
and i'm so sick of this
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_iCtpuQvydk

i actually have no idea if people at school actually like me or if it's all one elaborate joke, let's humour the homeschooled kid

and my dad just asked when the last time i ate was (hahaha like you fucking care)
i said lunch
/fucking…idon'tevenknowwhat

I HATE MYSELF

Thank you guys :3 I love you all for being supportive of me.

1. no. okay no, people would not be better without you. okay, you're just pure awesomeness and pretty much everyone on KP looks up to you and i know you said you wouldn't do it, but you can't think like that, isaac, you can not.
2. i don't know, that's always the hardest part, trying to find something and recreate yourself, but hang in there okay.
3. i don't know what to say, but if it's a joke f**k them.
4. please eat please you need to.
5. don't, you're an amazing person.

Dangit, Tredom, you just...you don't get it, do you? How many times am I going to have to flock to your side when you get like this for you to notice? <:^/ You better have enough emotion left to understand and appreciate what I'm about to tell you, because, guess what? This is kind of ridiculously hard for me to tell a friend (still not 100% sure why that is, but, that's a topic for another day), but...dangit, can't you see that I love you? Can't you see that everyone on this site loves you? Everyone else WOULDN'T be better off without you!!! ;w; Please, please don't EVER consider suicide ever again. You're one of the few things about this site that seems...how do I put this...normal. Safe. Reliable. I mean--that logo in the corner will always be there. I hate the font more than I can describe, but that nice red, light blue, green, dark blue, orange, magenta-purple combination will probably always be there, and I like seeing it. If one day, it were to disappear with no explanation, I'd be upset. I'd miss it. Now, if I care about a stupid logo that freaking much, what do you think I'd do if you just stopped coming on here because you killed yourself? How do you think I--and pretty much everyone else--would feel if we never got to hear you mention The Game, or something funny your pets did, or talk about Supernatural, or make a MCR reference, or post one of your fantastic poems?! Huh? How do you think we'd react to that? Do you know that one of the only reasons I check A/N anymore is because you go on it??? As far as I'm concerned, you're one of the best things to ever happen to this site.

And that's the end of me discussing ONLY the point of you thinking that "everyone" would be better off without you. O_O Give me a minute to reply to the rest of your post, please, Isaac, my friend.

tttthhhiiiissss because its true.

Seriously man... email me. :I I mean, I dunno, maybe I could help you out somehow.

This is totally random, but I did not know his name was Isaac. O.o
I have an Isaac in my reading class... but he... nevermind.

pssst you should probably delete/white out that quote 'cause of the cursing :P
thanks.
i mean… i can believe you guys love me and at times i think i can glimpse why, but i just… don't agree. i feel like i half-fall apart too much and maybe eventually i'll fully fall apart
and, just so you know, i wasn't actually considering it. it just… sort of crossed my mind.
thank you. a lot. :'3
I've been planning on it… just haven't gotten around to it yet. :/

1. my family probably would. no one to cause them hell. i mean, yeah, the grieving and shit, but…
3. i really don't think it is, i don't see why they wuold go to that effort, but sometimes i get kind of paranoid and i don't know
4. i am. a bit at least. that's part of why i hate myself. i should go on a bloody diet, haha.

and thank you all.

I deleted all the cursing from yours in case my parents see this (XD haha if you do see this mom and dad) but mine didn't really have a cursing... I think... oh well, I'll white it anyway. :P

No No No D: D: D:
LST you are amazingly awesome and epictastical!!!!! Of course all of the people from your school like you, how can they not? From your personality you are an awesome person :3
I don't know what I can say to help you, but just stay strong, keep eating, and push all of the bad thoughts to the back of your mind and keep all of the good ones at the front. I know way easier said then done, but it will help :3
~glomps you~ If you ever need help or . . . well anything, just email me :3

Okay, so... for the record, I listened to those songs. Unlike probably most of the people on here who come across a link to a song, I actually listened read the lyrics AND listened the music all the way through instead of skimming through the lyrics and moving on. You know why I did that? Because, I want to know exactly what you're trying to convey through that link. I'm putting actual effort and patience into this. Why is this so important? WELLLL, considering I think my heart rate just doubled since I read your post, and my hands are shaking, I think me sitting through and actually comprehending two songs and a quote is pretty good. XD XD DX DX ._.

Anyway.

I totally know how you feel about wanting to just kill off your current self and just make another, better you. I've actually done that many, MANY times. Sometimes I think I'm a flipping Time Lord from all the times I've died and totally completely reinvented my personality. But, the thing is, I'm still just a teen, so, I'm hardly ever satisfied with who I am, and that seems to be the trend with all teens. What you need to do is this: If you want to reinvent yourself, I say, go ahead. In fact, I want you to do that, because I can't stand to see you look at yourself like this. O_e But, when/if you accomplish that, don't be surprised if your newish self isn't 100% perfect in your eyes. The point of remaking yourself is making yourself into someone who you can at least tolerate--maybe even have some respect for, NOT to be all ZOMG-I'm-Eclipse-Silver-and-Evil-Kineval-combined-I'm-100%-awesome! *sincerely hopes you remember Vaaren Salvation enough to know who Eclipse is* <:^J You know? Just...just...jkabskjfbakjbf. Okay.

Start with your viewpoint, if you want to burn yourself down and start again. Take the Lorelai approach (*isn't expecting you to understand that reference*)! If something someone does to you that's a bit petty but still upsets you, don't get angry. Be amused. Laugh at the person! Don't let their actions govern your mood. Or, if you just want to feel again, take the time to slow down. On a non-busy day (winter break is coming up, you should have plenty), just go for a walk or something. Eat a candy bar and take ten minutes to do it. Or, if you want a different approach, do something TOTALLY DIFFERENT. Take another route to get to somewhere! Walk backwards over the course of one day! Go to a totally different library or park or whatever! Say hello to every freaking person you see and say "screw it" to anyone that thinks you're insane! Jump in a freezing pool of water! ANYTHING you've never done before, or haven't done many times. Anything to get your mind to pay attention and FEEL SOMETHING.

...And that concludes Part Two of mah lecture. owo Please allow me to write Part THREEEEE. *flies away*

Amber: :^| I just wanted to come on here really quick to say something. Tredom? Yeah. I think you broke Ash. XD XD DX DX She's officially stuck in caring-friend mode. If she's smothering you with advice or getting too emotional or talking too much, just know that she'll stop eventually. o_e And she doesn't mean to make you uncomfortable or bored. So...yeah. >_>

At first, they used to make me even madder when I listen to them, but it always helps nowadays and makes me feel nice. I listened to them once when I had a mood swing of sullen-ness and recovered soon.


That tumblr thing 'alternatives to cutting' or whatever it's called has stabbing an orange in it. I really considered trying it.

But I think you're really pretty...I saw your deviantID.
You aren't horrible, though that might be the first impression. Does he like you?
My friend has your exact same problem. I'm not in the same school as her any more, and my other friend in primary school is being a right bitch, she says.

Tell her why. Like how talking to people face to face is much more awkward and self-conscious than typing it out to people on the Internet who don't know you personally and can't really judge you.

I'm 100% sure that everyone at school is NOT getting together to play some sort of elaborate joke on you, Tredom. <:^J I mean, seriously. >_> Kids can barely get together and cooperate long enough to do a stupid short science experiment and glue some paper and crude drawings and charts to a piece of cardboard for a silly science fair, LET ALONE collectively decide to "humor the homeschooled kid". O_O *le fail attempt at humor/lightening up the situation* <:^D

But, seriously, now. ._. I don't see a single thing about you that would make people not like you. I'm dead freaking serious, here. Usually everyone has some kind of quirk or habit or whatever that most people don't like, but if you have one, man, you've hidden it well, 'cuz I don't see it. If you're thinking about your shyness, then, calm down. I think it's safe to say that most people would chose to hang out with a shy person compared to an overbearing person. SO. ^_^ Yeah.

And please don't get me started on the eating thing again, buddy. ;w; This is coming from the girl who practically gave teenagers the title of "bottomless pits," so, that COULD be why I can't understand how you're going so long without eating. I can't think about ANYTHING but food when I'm hungry. And, (this is just a theory, here, buddy, but), maybe part of why you feel so bad is because you physically aren't getting what you need to be happy and healthy? As corny as it sounds--healthy goes hand-in-hand with happy, even if you have depression or any number of mental issues. And, if anything, eating would at least take that one small thing off your list of things that's wrong. I know you're probably feeling to ill to eat, but at least choke down a cracker or something ever couple hours. Something is better than nothing. <:^J

And I'm sure that deep down, your father DOES care about you. But, sometimes, people are just too messed up to show it, and sometimes don't even know HOW. Just keep in mind that he hasn't abandoned your family, he at least acknowledges your existence and that yes, you are his son. Because if he REALLY didn't give a ****, he would have shown it and left a long time ago. AND he DID care enough to ask you about your eating habits, even if it was brief and didn't seem like much. <:^) This is coming from a person who HAS actually been totally abandoned by multiple family members, so, please don't try to question my credibility on this one. XD

Point is, Tredom, I care. x_x I'm sorry I went flying off the handle like that. (I'd give anything to go back to being numb like you are--because, once you get so numb that think pain and anger is better than feeling nothing at all...after you feel that relentless pain and anger for a while, you miss being numb...but it IS a bit of a springboard for happiness if you're sane enough to know what pain is acceptable and what isn't [i.e. physical harm VS facing someone who's been treating you like dirt for years]. <:^J)

Just...kjsbfjkbsfkjb. Oh gosh. x_X Where did the last hour ago?

Just feel better, okay? Don't make me go crazy like this again...XD XD DX DX

._. I wish I wasnt so shy.

Shy people are like the kind of chocolate candy with tinfoil wrappers. At a glance, they may seem dull, simple, and tasteless, but once you git rid of the wrapper (their initial shy nature), you realize their beauty and sweetness isn't skin-deep--it starts just beneath the surface and then goes all the way to their hearts. ^_^

*is now a bit insane, so don't be surprised of that blurb right there made no sense at all! 8D*

*also would prefer if no one quoted this post just in case I want to delete it later when I'm sane again... ._.*

But, Ash, I'm a different shy person and when I am shy, I never want to be around any of my friends ever again. ._. I hate how people think I am the off one out because I am the odd one out but...I hate myself for not contributing to things that I should be contributing to. >_< I hate it so much how stupid I am and how stupid I am to myself for being so immature...I'm not a sweet person; I'm not a nerd; I'm not violent...I don't know what I am...people don't know what I am, either.

Don't hate yourself. D: You're an awesome person and everyone on this site cares about you even though it's through the internet; that's how great you are!

Don't get pissed about school - it's only a short time in your life, and soon enough, you'll be out of it. :P

If your dad doesn't care about you, why care about him, or even bother to listen to what he says?

Soon enough, things'll be better. :p

Ugh. I'm no good at advice, but I hope I helped. >.<