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That's just the problem. I'm unhappy and I don't know why.
I have this amazing life with a family that means the world to me, I have friends, I go to an awesome school district, but yet some how I find a way to turn everything around and make it something that makes me feel sad. It's a vicious cycle. I'm depressed because I'm depressed and I don't know why. |
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That is exactly what I feel, sometimes. :( |
have you ever been so fucked up about something that it's been two or three months and you still hurt over it even though all is supposed to be forgiven and shit?
add a shitty day and social anxiety to that equation and you get sobbing on the bathroom floor for like two hours and drawing butterflies on your hands to keep from hurting yourself i have a headache and need a hug but now i'm crying again and ugh i need another butterfly |
i forgot how much it hurts knowing im going to die alone
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see, though visual representation of the butterfly may help you to not harm yourself, i hope what i'm about to tell you now will help even more. you don't need the butterflies, lena. you are the butterfly. you're beautiful and still growing and learning and changing and evolving like every other creature on this earth, and it's going to hurt. but you need to let yourself feel. you need to let the emotion flood your brain until you feel ready to explode. because if you don't feel, you become void of emotion, and that leads to cutting more easily than anything else. you're the butterfly. you may want to harm yourself but you shouldn't, okay? you're important and you're lovely inside and out. i hope you're doing better today. you deserve it, as all butterflies do *hugs tightly* Quote:
i'm here. you have friends. online and otherwise. it doesn't matter. you are not alone. *hugs* |
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I moved away, but I still cannot forget the look of disgust my old best friend gave me, and she was emailing me like crazy and stuff. Forget about the bad things. Do more happy stuff in your life. Draw more butterflies if you want. Draw and color things on paper. I'll always be on your side. *Huggles* |
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you don't know that they're /all/ going to leave you. and how do you know you won't keep in touch with them or have any close friends post college? you'll still have a life. my parents don't have very many friends, and even less close ones, and their besties live way far away from them. but they still fly out and see each other once and awhile, and have long talks via phone, and hey: communication gets faster and faster every day. even if your friends are far away you can still text/email/message/skype/whatever them often enough. and you will have friends, close or far. distance doesn't matter physically. emotionally--well, you already have a bunch of close friends, and if the weak get weeded out along the way, then it just strengthens your bonds with the others. maybe you can't always talk to them about what's going on, but that's okay. you're a good person, isaac, and people should recognize and love that about you. you won't ever be alone. trust me. |
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Where do I begin?
On a skype chat, we discovered that someone posted a picture of the notzi sign from WWII. This disturbed many people. Two of my bests friends and Jewish and both believe very strongly in their religion. One of them was trying to hold in tears. One was turning so red and so angry. I hate to see them this way. They are amazing people. Smart, kind, considerate, funny. That's when I find out who posted this image. A black girl. (I know that sounds racist but bear with me.) she obviously didn't know what it meant. She found the picture on the internet and asked someone who was fully aware of what it was what it was. They responded with, "A cool ninja star." I don't know who this someone is but I'm planning to find out. |
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my plan for after college is to settle down for just a couple of years, build a name for myself as a programmer or something, and then start travelling the world. like constantly. and how many people would be willing to go through that with me? plus, if i'm travelling constantly, i'm not really gonna have a chance to make friends. Quote:
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oh god i cant believe this im so fucking stupid please just let me die please just let me die i fucked it all up i thought i wouldnt but of course i failed im a failure i cant do anything right i need to kill myself i need to im not good for anything i need to die
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Your life is what matters, It's what makes you go back and change. Don't think that way, Keep living. Once in a while, everyone will stumble across rocks, hills, even mountains! They never give up. And guess what? They reach the light. |
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you have helped me so damn much, you can do things right, you've made my life 459834905x better than what it was before, i love you please don't go through with it okay?? read what you wrote to me. please. i don't think i can do this without you. please be okay |
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i'm fine i was just being stupid because i got ANOTHER bad grade in math which means ipod confiscation which means stress but it's fine it doesn't matter i'm over it actually yesterday was really really good sorry for worrying people i'm sorry i'm alive i'm here |
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I get bad grades all the time in math, but I study and get over it. Tests are just to check your ability. If you study and remember it forever, you don't have anything to worry about. :) |
why are twenty year old men i don't know liking my tumblr selfies??
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im so done with everything right now
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everyone has bad days and everyone has flaws but that's because we're human and it doesn't mean that we're any less perfect, even if we don't feel like it at the moment (*hugs*) |
Hai c: Sorry for what your about to read. If you don't want to, please don't. It's most likely going to be annoying and boring and I'm probably gonna sound really self conceited. But...erm....I just need to let it all out. I tried keeping a journal but I'm terrified someone's going to find it and read it. That wouldn't end well. Anyways....sorry again. If I don't let it out I might explode. Anyways.....so lately I've been really angry and really sad and it's getting difficult to hide. I went through a period of multiple days where people kept asking me what was wrong but I didn't reply. It was one of those things where they ask what's wrong just as a courtesy, not because they really care. And then there's the friend I'm closest with. She was one of the one's who asked me what's wrong. Then a couple days later she saw my scars. Big mistake on my part .-. She asked me what they were and how I got them. I wasn't expecting it so my....lying.. wasn't as great as normal. Usually I can just make an excuse super quickly, but I stuttered and eventually replied with 'i don't know'. She didn't really press on the subject and hasn't brought it up again. I guess I should've told her. I've been wanting someone to find out, truthfully. I don't want to tell them directly, but I do want them to know. I need someone to talk to. I know I have you guys but you won't always be here v.v I just. Bleh. She hasn't been a good friend lately. She hurt my other friend by leading him on and then telling him to go away and I still haven't forgiven her for that yet. aS:DFJAS:DF. WHY DOES THIS HAVE TO BE DIFFICULT. Narrowing this down because I'm tired of typing.....I hate life. I hate myself. I'm letting out my anger and sadness on my friends and family. I need to find new friends or just push everyone away and be on my own, which I might be fine with because I've been hating people lately, and I'm sick of everything. Sorry that was so annoying and drama filled and long .-. If none of you respond I don't mind, just as long as I get it out and just as long as someone at least see's it. I don't know why that's a comfort. eh. So how's everyone?
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Second of all, venting is nothing to be hidden. Third of all, love yourself. Your scars, hide them all you want. You hate life? Start doing things you like. I just suck at comforting people, so I'll just stop now. |
I'm so excitedddd and feeling weird.
I saw these planes in Manhattan, and they were spelling out, "(Name I missed) will you marry me?" |
The emotional trauma of finishing the last season for a TV series.
And then figuring out that the next season comes out in 2 years. Yay. http://media.giphy.com/media/roTdvSE7hIyI/giphy.gif |
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[quote=avbhabra;532670]The emotional trauma of finishing the last season for a TV series.
And then figuring out that the next season comes out in 2 years. Yay. http://media.giphy.com/media/roTdvSE7hIyI/giphy.gif[/QUOTE Oh my gosh, don't remind me. *cries* *hands you fan art and gifs* this will keep you alive until back up comes. *huddles in pillow fort with Sherlolly headcanons.* the game is on. |
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Haha, I totally ship Sherlolly too. >8D Please tell me some of your headcannons...XD Never mind, this is usually a sad thread... |
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And it's true that this thread is generally sad, but this is emotional venting thread and feeling happy or excited is an emotion. So I think we should be able to post about that because we feel something and we want to express it. And right now, Sherlolly. http://31.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lz...yhxco1_500.gif |
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And Sherlock is certainly emotional. *waves fist into the sky* MOFFAT! |
i'm tired and don't feel good and in need of a hug
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