i'm sorry i'm just kinda freaking out
 

Soooooo one of my dog's teeth just rotted and fell out. x____x I just looked over at him and he just spit out a tooth.
He's already had to have 4 of them pulled a couple years ago and now he's probably going to need more pulled
I feel like sUCH a terrible person, even though I KNOW FOR A FACT this isn't my fault; small dogs (especially doxies like him) are prone to dental issues no matter what you do
He's also getting super old
Aaaand he's definitely losing his hearing
But he still runs around a lot and barks at everything and plays with his toys so it's not like he's dying or anything; so that's good.
But, OBVIOUSLY he's in pain from his teeth and i really really hate knowing he's in pain. But he NEVER EVER shows it. He still chews on stuff and eats his food without trouble. I just hate how animals hide how they're feeling health-wise, because that makes it SO hard to tell when they need some help. I had no idea his teeth were getting that bad.
Seriously we're gonna take him to get his teeth fixed as soon as possible. x__x

MY POOR BABY BOY! ;__; (*sobs*)

I think I'm getting more comfortable with myself and who I am and it's a nice feeling. I mean, people and friends are still an issue and I'm more than a little stressed out about school but I have a sort of peace like everything will work out.

I'm still struggling with self-image, but I'm a lot better and I'm on a healthier path than I was a few months ago. I'm still stupid, i'm still a teenager, there are always going to be things to complain about but for right now I'm going to try to be happier.

I'm sorry but sometimes I don't want a solution.
Sometimes i just want to vent.
And I know that's annoying and I know it's frustrating but it's what i need sometimes.

i've just had a really bad day okay

(*hugs and gives flowers and coffee*) hey babe if you wanna talk I'm gonna email you bc you deserve a better day tomorrow

it's going to be okay owen!! if he did find it, he'll probably want to help you but i don't know your dad of course.

you could always say it fell out of a pencil sharpener if you're really worried and he says something.

idk last time he saw my scars in like march 2013 he shouted at me for a week or something.

knowing him he would've said something immediately so idk i think i'm good??

I'm so sorry that rly sucks...

ok that's really good then :D

You'd think teachers would be like, "k it's almost fall break so let's chill." but apparently not.

I have had the most anxiety- filled week all year. I've had at least one quiz or test every day, and two essays to write, on of which was timed in class as a test grade. The subject was Biodiversity. ?? no one cares mr. bio teacher.

Anyway, on top of my grades and school work there's been all this ebola and ISIS crap and America's gone to pot and just rgihoerihgoerng

Wow I feel really bad about posting this because it in no way compares to everyone else's problems.

FUCK HE FUCKING ASKED ME WHAT IT WAS DOING THERE AND IDK I JUST SAID IT FELL OUT and then he asked me if i was self harming again and i said no. shit that was fuckigclose

DUDE IM SoS SORRY ... i want you to get help but not if it means your dad being abusive to you. *hug*

im so upset
i was just trying to help and you broke that promise
why would you do that
you know how much it stresses me out on a regular basis, but i thought you promised
why on earth would you do that

For once I thought that something would go my way, that you were different. And for a while it was great.

But now you've found someone better and you've replaced me. And I can't even begin to describe how much it hurts and how worthless I feel. I'm never good enough for anyone, and I suppose I never will be either.

Excuse me for quoting song lyrics but 'I wish I could wake up amnesia' and forget about you because at least I wouldn't have to get that stab of pain every time I think about you.

Guess what? I just got dumped with fruit juice. At a club I was hanging out with friends and my frienemy, Zach. I danced a bit and he mimicked me (teased). I meant to give him a small nudge in the stomach saying 'please stop'. He held a cup of fruit juice that spilled on him by accident. I quickly said sorry but he thought i did it on purpose (which wasn't true). So he poured the rest of the content on me :(
I said I was sorry but he hasn't said sorry :/
Now what?!

How do I talk to this person. How do I tell him I don't care. I'm over him. I am so incredibly done and over everything to do with him. He's so good and deserves a thousand and one things. But I am not going to be one of those things. And that's obviously not what he wants. But I keep thinking he's out of my life and I'm glad of it, which is so selfish, but now this. He invited me--in fact this is the second email--to his Halloween party. And I don't know how to say no. I'm going to say no of course. But I don't know how to tell him I'm just not interested. Not ever. I don't want to be his girlfriend, I don't want to be his friend. Never out of animosity. But just because I don't want him in my life always with that hanging shadow of "we almost dated. Sorta. Kind of. But if we really did we'd destroy each other and we are just not kindred spirits."

How do you even put that into words that don't hurt someone.

So I survived the first day of school, which included: kicking some grade seven-er in the shin bc he threatened to trip me for no reason, almost slapping my english teacher, and feeling shit about my weight in hpe. Nice

I just ate some nutella off a spoon and now I'm regretting my decisions.

And it was expired oops.

i've had a really bad past two weeks and i'm so close to just losing it and breaking down again and i can feel my control slipping and i just need space to breathe - to breathe and to think. maybe cry, since we all need that sometimes.
but i don't want to lose again, i don't want to slip back into old patterns. i want to make this year good.

I need volleyball season to be over so I can move on with my life and audition for the musical and just have a lot of fun.

So I wrote a personal narrative for english about some time where I had a ton of self-image issues and struggled with undereating and we had to have peers edit it so my friend and I traded which really stressed me out because no one really knew about it and Idk I just didn't really want anyone to know but anyways she read it and at the end she wrote "I didn't know we had so much in common" and now I'm worried that she went through the same thing? Like, should we talk about it? But I really don't want to... we aren't super close and have never really had any feelings or ever confided in each other. I kind of wondered if she was having problems at the time but she's such a sweet person and she's super skinny too and beautiful so it makes me sad to ever think of her being in that position. But maybe she was talking about some other stuff I talked about in there idk.

Now you tell him what you feel, and don't be afraid to tell him. Tell him how you feel, and don't make any lies--be brutally honest and show him that what he did was rude, and what you did was by accident. If he says that he think you did it on purpose, well, he can think what he can think but you know the truth 'cause, well, you know what happened.


Done and dusted.

I hate you.
I hate you.
Oh sorry, I forgot about you, sorry, yeah I hate you too.





PEOPLE ARE MAKING FUN OF ME BECAUSE I LOVE TWILIGHT.


Um excuseeee me for liking something? You like teasing people? great good whatever well i like twilight i love the romance the action the story
the plot is umph

i love it



and you? i'm not gay just because i like ellen and twilight


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Ok. I might try that. Thanks :)

ERMAHFREAKINGGERD
I'VE GOT THIS FREAKING ADWARE ON MY COMPUTER.
What do I do?!!!!! :(:(:(:(

oh that sucks D: do you know what its called? try googling how to remove it. (i had the conduit one a while ago and my brother got astromeda i think)

I suggest downloading Malwarebytes from CNET.com . You can get the free version. It's what I use, at least. It scans and gets rid of the toughest malware/adware/etc. It doesn't protect you from it, though; it just removes the stuff after you get it. You can either scan your whole system with it or just do a quick scan to find active stuff. (I suggest using the Threat Scan, which takes longer but does scan your whole computer system so it doesn't miss anything.) I obviously can't guarantee anything, since I'm not a computer person, but, it's what I've used, and it's always worked well for me. <:^D
here: http://download.cnet.com/Malwarebyte...-10804572.html

I'm scared of downloading things, because that's pretty much what got me all this shit in the first place.

My mom had to take one of our pets-a sweet bunny-to the vet. He was too far gone, they had to put him to sleep.
My sister is really worked up, he was one of her special pets and she's had him for years.
This is the hardest pet for her to lose; she's lost quite a few pets, but I've never seen her like this before.
Maybe because most of the others died on their own. I liked him, so I'm worked up.
My sister keeps bursting into tears. I wish I knew how to comfort her.

Aw :c That's so sad. I'm sorry. Just try to be there for her and do little things for her. How old is she? Depending on how old you could like draw her a picture or write a story about the bunny. Kind of cheesy, but if she's young, she'll probably appreciate it!

She's 20, but she loves her pets, especially that bunny. And I feel really bad, because I just don't know what to do. She's lost quite a few pets, but she only cries a little and that's that, but she's been having trouble all day.

Aw :c That's so sad. I'm really sorry D':

That is so terrible. Try and comfort your sister by telling her that all her lost pets are together again. I will pray for you both, okay? Just hug her and let her cry, that's the best thing to do right now <3

I'm 98 % sure I got all the problems on my laptop figured out! :D:D:D:D I think it's working fine now

Hello biggest bout of feels in a while

I wanna escape to a world where I'm not rejected. A place where my family takes me for being me. A place where I'm not hated. Where I'm not a China vase, easily broken and overthrown by many.

I'm sorry but my parents really suck at helping me with my eating issues.
Like they don't really know about it but sometimes they say things and it's like "wow thanks great parenting guys"
Like when you have a daughter that you've suspected (because, yes, they have suspected it for a while now) has had undereating issues and you see her eating you don't say "OMG LOOK HOW MUCH YOU ATE DAUGHTER LET'S LAUGH ABOUT HOW MUCH FOOD YOU'RE EATING HAHAHA"
I mean I can't really blame them because they don't really know about the issue so I definitely am not mad it's just kind of annoying you know?
And then they get all up in your face when you're trying to eat healthy so that you can eat a good amount of food instead of eating unhealthy food and eating less of it than you need. Like, seriously? I'm trying to eat healthy foods and veggies and stuff and you guys give me crap about it? Wow fantastic parenting no really A++.

i keep going to reply to various threads on this and other websites and then remembering no one cares and everyone hates me l o l bye

...you know that isn't true.
There's always me. I mean, I may not be up to much and I might have an overly inflated opinion of myself, but I still count.