I AM SO FREAKING MAD. so I'm at reading camp right and we're discussing this short story we read, written in 1892 about this woman who was sort of relieved when she thought her husband had died because now she would be free and you got the sense that one way or another he had been a bit controlling, whether purposely or no. anyway so we're discussing her being happy about it and whether she's insane or not and of course my friends and I are saying that her husband pretty much OWNED her and made all of her decisions and it made some sense that she would be happy if she could be free again. then there's this kid. so, earlier in the week this kid said that they went by she/her/hers and that she was trans, but today, well, so the kid was pretty much one of the only people opposing my friends and I, along with a boy a couple years younger who didn't understand some other parts of the text. the first kid points out that the ones sympathizing with the woman and saying that the husband abused her (which we didn't say) were all girls and the ones saying that she was insane for being relieved that her husband was dead were both boys.

ok, so first of all I'm confused, because this kid said that they were a girl and trans specifically and not like non binary or anything, which of course it totally ok, except now the kid is a boy and he's ridiculing us by saying we're assuming and not taking from the text, which is untrue. at this point I was fuming over this kid, who has decided he's a boy, and he's targeting me because I'm very openly passionate about this topic of oppression in these earlier times.

so discussion is dismissed and the kid is still prodding me, trying to continue our debate. I declare I'm not having this stupid discussion with him because he's an ignorant little butt. (well I didn't say he was an ignorant little butt but I wanted to) so then he starts talking about how feminism contradicts itself, because if you let the woman take the check, you're taking advantage of her, and if you take the check, your oppressing her. my friends and I are scoffing and rolling our eyes and it just kept on bothering me throughout the day because I've never had a conversation like that in real life. I always thought that people like that were just trolls her lived under bridges.

the end.

SOMEONE PLEASE HELP ME

How do you show your crush that you want to be more than friends with them?

haha so last night I was supposed to have a sleepover with a friend and then I couldn't find my phone/my mom refused to talk to me about it so when I finally texted her it was late. She hadn't texted anything but I was kinda freaking out and I asked if it was too late and apologized. She told me it was fine, that it wouldn't work out that night but today would be fine. So I apologized again and we made plans to go get soup with another friend today. So today we are all eating soup and the other friend was taking about the sleepover the two of them had last night, about how it was so much fun and they were up really late. The friend I was supposed to have a sleepover with kept trying to change the subject and wouldn't look at me. And the two of them do this kind of thing to me all the time. I was crying last night because I was so scared my friend would hate me but I guess whatever I do doesn't matter to her

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My fish died, fyi. it was so sad. :(:(:(

well all my friends hate me and i'm home alone again :)

come to my house we can cuddle and I'll make you watch downton abbey even though you'll probably get sick of it really fast
also what kind of chips do u like I'm partial to cheddar/sour cream ruffles but idk about u


oh yeah and ur friends proba don't hate you (but if they do, you're too good for them. :cool:)

so idk whats up with my bffl i haven't seen her in over a week cause i was away at camp and she's not responding to my snapchats unless they're 'streaks' and she said no both times i asked if she wanted to do anything and i miss her so much and i don't understand why she's avoiding. i'm getting worried because in the six years we've been best friends she's never ignored me like this and idk what i did wrong. i understand she's interning at school but she could still answer me when i ask why is that so much to ask?

and now i'm home alone all week with nothing to do because she can't do anything even when her internship is over and i'm too awkward to ask any of my other friends and i don't know whats up and i love her so much and she's not answering and god god god i'm freaking out over nothing but what if i lose her and never know why crap crap crap i need help god what do i do?

thank you so much Esther, this was rlly great and helpful <3

So apparently like everyone I know and thought cared about me (except for my best friend, she was probably invited but was busy) is at a party rn that I never heard about and normally I would shrug it off and I wouldn't be offended but idk I've been home for the past week literally bored to tears and I'm just kind of feeling down rn and they're all snapchatting the crap out of it and my crush is there and I haven't seen him all summer and I'm just kind of really sad actually and I'm sorry this is dumb but crap.

hey yeah I know that feel I don't really know how to comfort you about any of this bc the part I know is questioning if the people you can actually stand don't care about you as you care about them not the how to get out of that but idk I hope you feel better or like, whatever.

Update: best friend is there apparently even though I wanted to do something with her today and told her I needed to get out of the house and frick what did I do why doesn't anyone think to ask me gosh am I that much of a buzzkill I mean come on guys I told her I didn't have any plans I mean someone could have asked me it's literally everyone I know I thought we were all good friends apparently not though.
And it's awesome that they're snapchatting everything I love watching your freaking stories while I'm drilling holes into my skull out of boredom and loneliness thanks guys

Thank you! Yeah it sucks but I'm sure I'll get over it idk but thanks for responding.

ALMAAAAAAAAAaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAaAAAAAAAAAAaAAAAAAAAAAA
send help it late but i screm
alma and yuu and allen.
and all my bbs agh iwpefvsfghsyr

i literally have way too many feelings he,p
my baby son

Hey hey no don't feel like this love you are not a disappointment
Maybe you did make a mistake but guess what That's Ok literally everyone makes mistakes i make mistakes literally constantly i only don't make mistakes when i'm asleep and even then it's a toss up but it's ok! You are still such a good person with so much love and potential and mistakes are probably the biggest part of life because that's how we learn. But even if you make the same mistake twice that's OK too you can redeem yourself again. And again! Maybe you aren't where you want to be right now but that is also ok trust me. Life is for growth and you are going to grow and you're growing right now and the person you are now is also great and ok and exceptional and you are going to just get even better and that's so cool! And you aren't letting anyone down hon because I've found people can be very forgiving because they make mistakes too and so mostly they understand. Some may not but that's ok too because we're all just trying to be better. Forgive yourself, all is well, sorry for this really long response that was probably a mistake but I hope you feel better and learn to forgive yourself even if that isn't just a one step process. Yikes this is long but please feel better. Get some sleep and take care of yourself and don't punish yourself use that energy to do something productive that can help others and yourself. Have a lovely day!

oh my gosh thank you so much this is so nice????
i just tend to feel really guilty about things (that are probably irrelevant but im no.1 at overthinking aha) and also im the most indecisive person ever so that tends to send me spiraling but im not as depressed about it as before!!
tbh i wasn't expecting such a nice response thank you for this you're so sweet <3
it is now 3:20am so i shall take your advice and sleep hahah (i have to wake up in 4 hours why o_o)
thank you again!

i feel like everyone is against me lmao

oh buddy I know the feeling all too well
just hold your head up high and hope that it gets better and it def will

do you ever miss someone so much that it makes something physically tug in your stomach and you can feel it in your throat and you just want to be with them
because
me too

not anymore. I'm glad I got away from everyone

I've reached that point where i'm going numb and don't really want to do anything. I don't mind it much, but i'm worried that i'm back at the top of the spiral and i'm going to end up self harming again because that's what always happens. It's been a while since this happened, and I was doing so well, I've been trying so hard to quit for good and I don't want to go back to that.
Oh well, maybe this time i'll be able to pull through without the usual >_^
I'm open to any suggestions if you guys have any :)
Here's to optimism?

yoooo i am here for you my friend
i understand the feeling numb and unmotivated on a spiritual level; the most important thing, ive found, to keep from going down that road is to not think too much, about it or anything that could be potentially triggering. distractions are key, and i know finding an effective one can be difficult when nothing is interesting anymore, but as long as it's something that keeps you occupied it can help ^u^ also, sharing your thoughts/feelings instead of keeping them inside where they can intensify- if you don't have anyone you can talk to, or even if you do, my contact tab is always open (:
for optimism: happy songs, playing with pets, going outside (i don't usually do that but i know for a fact that it's helpful haha), cheesy movies, books, yummy food, happy safe thoughts in general
idk how much of this is actually helpful but regardless i hope you get out of ur funk and that ur mood improves, stay safe!! <3

i started high school and i don't know what to think. i'm not sure if it's gonna suck or not.

I hate chain posts so fucking much

1. High school sucks
2. Middle school sucks way, way more
3. If u survived middle school you've got this easy peesy

yeah mom nothing cheers me up more than being told I "have problems" because eye contact makes me uncomfortable, really improves my self-esteem, you know? thanks so much

oH i feel u on the mom thing

just try to explain to her politely that she's not helping and if that doesn't work then just write angry rants on the evt about it.

middle school is where all the teen drama u see in dumb teen movies happens lmfao
in high school nobody gives a damn tbh at least in my experience

in my experience tho there's also a lot more work but that could b the fact that I've taken almost all IB/honors/AP (takin reg chem this year tho bc they dont have honors 4 it and I think one AP is enough 4 m ths yr)

She also calls panic attacks "pathetic excuses" for me being unable to do things. and when I try to explain things to her she usually slaps me, interrupts me, or just sniffs and walks away.

did u tell her that it's science. it's not "fake". you can look it up. its science. or consult a doctor. it's science :/
sounds rough

i know everyone here has felt this way but jesus christ i just wish my writing was better. and i know i have to write more for it to actually improve but its so frustrating because nothing i write is ever good enough for me. ugh ok end rant

yeah i know the feel, we all know the feel, literally every writer knows the feel and its a perfectly valid feel
all the greats felt the same way, i just read a moveable feast for summer reading for school and ernest hemingway felt that way too but damn look what he wrote, scott fitzgerald had lots of his own struggles but his writing is great too
you are your own worst critic, and honestly i dont know how to get out of the cycle of never feeling good enough but

i feel like i'm really emotionally unstable right at this second and if I read or heard or watched something that was even a little bit emotional, it would just break something in me and i would bust into tears. I feel like a pimple that is about to be popped.

yo same. not to say that it isn't valid, but damn, being a teenager is a hormone-y and emotional period of life and hell, even if it has nothing to do with a teenager, this ain't forever dude. You'll figure it out.

as for how to help u in the moment, dude idk. But breathing techniques, progressive muscle relaxation, and using imagery like "going to your happy place" are things I've been taught that might help idk

Stressed because I'm just starting to get into a relationship but I'm too scared to tell my parents but I feel bad lying and saying I'm hanging out with friends when I'm not

oh jeez that's the worst
i hope it works out but i totally get it D:

I think it's cause I'm just starting high school and literally everything is suddenly different and I just want to go back to when things were simpler.

agh yeah I know th feel. good luck

dGM HALLOW???????!!!! !!!!!!!!!!! ?????? !!!!!
 

like oh boy i know it just fiction but like

my baby sons ????????????? gay af ot3????? (dont judge me lmfao im already in too deep)

im crying they all suffer???? so much im screm pain?????

no one deserved this oh god alma tho like???? im pain

ow my cold dead heart is feeling a lot of thins rn???????????????

sos (saVE OuR SONS)

ugh apart from my writing not being good enough i also feel like kp is just so . ugh ok i come on and i see five posts a day, not even five stories, just five POSTS. like two stories and three announcements. and i try to comment but its so hard when it's so disheartening to see barely any writing.

and also i feel like i barely have any friends here left. there's so many new people but i barely know anyone. and if im being honest, i only really talk to the poetry crew and the queer kids - but its not even like we're really friends we just comment on each others posts and its so . hard. to make friends here.

i know i sound like ur typical cranky old kidpubbian but ugh