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L.S.Trendom 04-30-2014 08:51 AM

he's not gonna take a fuckin hint with this either
i mean come fucking on man every time you're like "i feel fat lol" or "i skipped a meal lol" i stop replying
isn't that pretty fuckin obvious
im sorry but i can't fuckin handle this you're so triggering

camikat 04-30-2014 06:40 PM

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Originally Posted by Lena (Post 529596)
i'm half way between being the worst friend ever and having the worst friends ever
i've felt really awful the past few days and no one in my life ever seems to notice when something is wrong and idk if that because i'm good at hiding it or because they just don't care
it's been three fucking years since i've had a best friend and i'm very upset and lonely because i'm losing most of the people i thought i was close to
most of them don't bother to text or email me back
and i feel like i'm not worthy of the ones who do bother because i'm such a shitty friend to them and even if there's a lot of shit going on in my life that's not fucking justified at all
and not to mention people always making fun of me
it's not meant to be mean but it still hurts
like i fucking know that i'm stupid and i know that i suck at practically everything
i know
i get it
i'm aware of that
but what they don't know know, or care about, is that i'm fucking dealing with serious issues
and it's my own fault anyway so why should i be this emotional about it
why should i feel like i need a friend when i push everyone away

i'm so sorry i don't have the right words for this
but you don't deserve any of this. ever. you deserve to have amazing friends that are there for you, to have someone who cares.
you are so talented. art, singing, writing, being someone who can make anyone smile and such a beautiful person.
all i can say is that you don't deserve any of the shit in your life and ily ok

JoMarch 04-30-2014 06:44 PM

@Calla
dude I'm really sorry for him and all the ppl in his life including you that is really rough
I will pray for him and keep him in my thoughts. best wishes to you and everyone affected

lvhamsters 04-30-2014 08:57 PM

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Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 529715)
he's not gonna take a fuckin hint with this either
i mean come fucking on man every time you're like "i feel fat lol" or "i skipped a meal lol" i stop replying
isn't that pretty fuckin obvious
im sorry but i can't fuckin handle this you're so triggering

I'm sorry v.v Some people just can't see past their own problems and that just sucks for everyone around them :c but stay strong >.< you should try and tell them about everything and see if they'd stop talking about it if you can. If you can't just please come on here and talk to us when you need too :c

AlgebraAddict 04-30-2014 10:58 PM

I'm really beginning to hate Kidpub now. -_-

Call me a party pooper, but this wedding shit is just stupid now. It really is. Just. Stop. It's excessive and annoying.

And also half of you guys are ignorant little newbies who don't know how to avoid triggering or immature topics

meerkat 05-01-2014 12:23 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by AlgebraAddict (Post 530158)
I'm really beginning to hate Kidpub now. -_-

Call me a party pooper, but this wedding shit is just stupid now. It really is. Just. Stop. It's excessive and annoying.

And also half of you guys are ignorant little newbies who don't know how to avoid triggering or immature topics

It might seem like I enjoy it, but I'm starting to get annoyed as well.
Seriously, shipping isn't the whole meaning of life. And most of us (including me) are still in middle school. It doesn't actually mean anything.

Lena 05-01-2014 12:43 AM

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Originally Posted by camikat (Post 529870)
i'm so sorry i don't have the right words for this
but you don't deserve any of this. ever. you deserve to have amazing friends that are there for you, to have someone who cares.
you are so talented. art, singing, writing, being someone who can make anyone smile and such a beautiful person.
all i can say is that you don't deserve any of the shit in your life and ily ok

(*hugs*) thank you, dearie. really. it means a lot
Quote:

Originally Posted by AlgebraAddict (Post 530158)
I'm really beginning to hate Kidpub now. -_-

Call me a party pooper, but this wedding shit is just stupid now. It really is. Just. Stop. It's excessive and annoying.

And also half of you guys are ignorant little newbies who don't know how to avoid triggering or immature topics

maybe it is excessive and maybe it is annoying but you can't expect everyone to be a grown up right away
kidpub/the internet in general has a way of getting to people and aging them up pretty quickly, but let them enjoy childhood as long as they can
and if you don't like something, why don't you walk away from it? if people here are annoying you, there is absolutely nothing stopping you from shutting off the computer and doing something else, because complaining about it is just going to make you seem immature as well.
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Originally Posted by meerkat (Post 530217)
It might seem like I enjoy it, but I'm starting to get annoyed as well.
Seriously, shipping isn't the whole meaning of life. And most of us (including me) are still in middle school. It doesn't actually mean anything.

it may not mean anything, but as long as people are having fun, let them enjoy it. like i said before, if you don't like something here, nothing at all is tying you.

from what i've observed in general, people on KP want to teach "newbies" how to act and who to become and it makes me really sad, guys. these kids came to write and to make friends, not to be targeted by people who think they're better than them because they act more maturely. i, personally, feel like a fish out of water around most new members, so i get it, but there's no need to be judgmental.

i'm sorry if any of that came off as offensive, but i see a lot of this irl and i'm sick of being too shy to say anything about it. if you want to complain, do it in a place where people you're complaining about can't see, because it hurts to be talked about publicly. if you're frustrated with something here, take a break, because your personal feelings are not anyone's fault.

L.S.Trendom 05-01-2014 12:47 AM

i love sam so much
and i'm so fuckin afraid that we'll fall apart too, it'll go the way of my other friendships
and i don't know if i could handle that
she said she'd be my anchor but…i don't know. promises are a broken so often like fuck how can i be sure of anything

and people say you always have your family but
i don't get the fuckin obligation to love your family. i care about them, but i don't feel any love for them. there's no emotional connection between us. and they might think they love me (my parents, at least, i dont even know if my brothers are capable of caring oh my god) but they don't know me.
so if i lose all my friends, i have nothing. i have no family to fall back on. i have no one.

hell tbh i'm probably gonna die alone and i'm so fucking afraid of that

and also p sure i still hate the fUCK out of myself.
just it's a shitton easier to not think about it with antidepressants

idk it was kinda a really bad night and i wanted to cut and i just wanted to start crying??
but then i drove around with sam and she made me feel a shitton better but
idk

AlgebraAddict 05-01-2014 12:49 AM

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Originally Posted by Lena (Post 530225)
(*hugs*) thank you, dearie. really. it means a lot

maybe it is excessive and maybe it is annoying but you can't expect everyone to be a grown up right away
kidpub/the internet in general has a way of getting to people and aging them up pretty quickly, but let them enjoy childhood as long as they can
and if you don't like something, why don't you walk away from it? if people here are annoying you, there is absolutely nothing stopping you from shutting off the computer and doing something else, because complaining about it is just going to make you seem immature as well.

it may not mean anything, but as long as people are having fun, let them enjoy it. like i said before, if you don't like something here, nothing at all is tying you.

from what i've observed in general, people on KP want to teach "newbies" how to act and who to become and it makes me really sad, guys. these kids came to write and to make friends, not to be targeted by people who think they're better than them because they act more maturely. i, personally, feel like a fish out of water around most new members, so i get it, but there's no need to be judgmental.

i'm sorry if any of that came off as offensive, but i see a lot of this irl and i'm sick of being too shy to say anything about it. if you want to complain, do it in a place where people you're complaining about can't see, because it hurts to be talked about publicly. if you're frustrated with something here, take a break, because your personal feelings are not anyone's fault.



It's just frustrating because Kidpub has been a really great supportive community in the past and now idk

Lena 05-01-2014 12:56 AM

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Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 530227)
i love sam so much
and i'm so fuckin afraid that we'll fall apart too, it'll go the way of my other friendships
and i don't know if i could handle that
she said she'd be my anchor but…i don't know. promises are a broken so often like fuck how can i be sure of anything

and people say you always have your family but
i don't get the fuckin obligation to love your family. i care about them, but i don't feel any love for them. there's no emotional connection between us. and they might think they love me (my parents, at least, i dont even know if my brothers are capable of caring oh my god) but they don't know me.
so if i lose all my friends, i have nothing. i have no family to fall back on. i have no one.

idk it was kinda a really bad night and i wanted to cut and i just wanted to start crying??
but then i drove around with sam and she made me feel a shitton better but
idk

hey
(*hugs*)
you always have someone, whether that be sam or your parents or your other friends, or, hell, even me. you have people that care, and i'm sure that you always will.
i can't make a guarantee that everything will work out with sam or your other friends, but i can say that if they walks out of your life, chances are they weren't meant to be there. and i don't think that's the case, from what i've heard. it's hard and sometimes we get hurt, but if someone says they're going to be there for you, you have to do your best to trust them.
and about your family, i'm sorry. but love isn't formed by blood, it's formed by connections between people. and if you ever really need it, i'm sure someone in your family would care enough to form those connections. and if not, screw them.

Lena 05-01-2014 12:59 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by AlgebraAddict (Post 530228)
It's just frustrating because Kidpub has been a really great supportive community in the past and now idk

it is. i agree. but acting out and making snide comments isn't going to help. if anything, it'll only raise tension and get people hurt. all you can do is try to lead them in the right direction and hope that it works.

L.S.Trendom 05-01-2014 01:20 AM

o
oops
am i becoming suicidal again
FUCK
ok im gonna like idk go to bed and then talk to sam tomorrow i guess

pluzzle 05-01-2014 03:01 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by AlgebraAddict (Post 530158)
I'm really beginning to hate Kidpub now. -_-

Call me a party pooper, but this wedding shit is just stupid now. It really is. Just. Stop. It's excessive and annoying.

And also half of you guys are ignorant little newbies who don't know how to avoid triggering or immature topics

tbh i agree with you this wedding stuff is like okaaay wat

i agree 100 you aren't alone ( i mean i kind of am an ignorant newbie... it's been two years )

Elizabeth 05-01-2014 03:15 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by AlgebraAddict (Post 530158)
I'm really beginning to hate Kidpub now. -_-

Call me a party pooper, but this wedding shit is just stupid now. It really is. Just. Stop. It's excessive and annoying.

And also half of you guys are ignorant little newbies who don't know how to avoid triggering or immature topics

I can really see what you mean. It was fun and all, but now they're making random wedding threads. And then they talk about shipping on every thread they get on. I was thinking like, "Can't we talk about other things?"
You're just going to have to ignore them and talk to the people you know and are friends with. But I can understand what you're saying.

TheAshWolf 05-01-2014 04:00 AM

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Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 530233)
o
oops
am i becoming suicidal again
FUCK
ok im gonna like idk go to bed and then talk to sam tomorrow i guess

Oh my gosh, what happened?! D: Talk to me, buddy!! (*glomps*) Hopefully you'll feel better in the morning. But, seriously, what's wrong? O_O

SilverMoon 05-01-2014 08:16 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by AlgebraAddict (Post 530158)
I'm really beginning to hate Kidpub now. -_-

Call me a party pooper, but this wedding shit is just stupid now. It really is. Just. Stop. It's excessive and annoying.

And also half of you guys are ignorant little newbies who don't know how to avoid triggering or immature topics

Indeed. Although I do ship, I do not involve weddings, and it is either
A) to tease people or
B) not actually about people that exist in real life
But A is only with people not over the Internet
I don't even ship Lyori that was just for equivalent exchange

Puckbrina159 05-01-2014 08:27 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by AlgebraAddict (Post 530158)
I'm really beginning to hate Kidpub now. -_-

Call me a party pooper, but this wedding shit is just stupid now. It really is. Just. Stop. It's excessive and annoying.

And also half of you guys are ignorant little newbies who don't know how to avoid triggering or immature topics

I kind of have to...half... agree with you.
I always kind of thought the whole shipping two KPers was kind of cute, and the thing about weddings is that if you want nothing to do with them, don't have anything to do with them. It's your choice whether or not you want to click on a thread and read or take part in it.
I do agree with Lena in that you can't tell people to grow up and expect them to change, but I also agree with you. If they're triggering some of you guys, it really needs to stop. ...I hope I'm not someone you're talking about that does that... if I am, please tell me. I will do my best to stop doing it if I am doing it.
I would definitely not say I hate KP, I'm just getting a bit annoyed with it at times.

L.S.Trendom 05-01-2014 09:29 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Lena (Post 530230)
hey
(*hugs*)
you always have someone, whether that be sam or your parents or your other friends, or, hell, even me. you have people that care, and i'm sure that you always will.
i can't make a guarantee that everything will work out with sam or your other friends, but i can say that if they walks out of your life, chances are they weren't meant to be there. and i don't think that's the case, from what i've heard. it's hard and sometimes we get hurt, but if someone says they're going to be there for you, you have to do your best to trust them.
and about your family, i'm sorry. but love isn't formed by blood, it's formed by connections between people. and if you ever really need it, i'm sure someone in your family would care enough to form those connections. and if not, screw them.

*hugs* thanks. just… idk i'm really scared of that. (mreh and it's especially possible considering i'm gonna travel a lot sooo)
the thing is, tbh, i don't even really want to form those connections. maybe with a few people—like my uncle or my cousin—but fuck i don't even know what family is supposed to be like
Quote:

Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 530243)
Oh my gosh, what happened?! D: Talk to me, buddy!! (*glomps*) Hopefully you'll feel better in the morning. But, seriously, what's wrong? O_O

i don't even know, last night was just a really really bad emotional relapse.
mreh yeah i'm mostly feeling better now. But I feel like if I start thinking about anything again I'm gonna fall back down that whole.

HannahChen2009 05-01-2014 11:00 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by AlgebraAddict (Post 530158)
I'm really beginning to hate Kidpub now. -_-

Call me a party pooper, but this wedding shit is just stupid now. It really is. Just. Stop. It's excessive and annoying.

And also half of you guys are ignorant little newbies who don't know how to avoid triggering or immature topics

Hey okay. Remember me?
Anyways, I agree with Lena. I guess I should apologize because I'm the one who kind of started up the whole Salice thing (although the wedding wasn't my idea) but they're just kids trying to have a bit of fun. It's playful, and the people involved think it's fun as well. We're not stepping over the line.

Quote:

Originally Posted by Lena (Post 530225)
(*hugs*) thank you, dearie. really. it means a lot

maybe it is excessive and maybe it is annoying but you can't expect everyone to be a grown up right away
kidpub/the internet in general has a way of getting to people and aging them up pretty quickly, but let them enjoy childhood as long as they can
and if you don't like something, why don't you walk away from it? if people here are annoying you, there is absolutely nothing stopping you from shutting off the computer and doing something else, because complaining about it is just going to make you seem immature as well.

it may not mean anything, but as long as people are having fun, let them enjoy it. like i said before, if you don't like something here, nothing at all is tying you.

from what i've observed in general, people on KP want to teach "newbies" how to act and who to become and it makes me really sad, guys. these kids came to write and to make friends, not to be targeted by people who think they're better than them because they act more maturely. i, personally, feel like a fish out of water around most new members, so i get it, but there's no need to be judgmental.

i'm sorry if any of that came off as offensive, but i see a lot of this irl and i'm sick of being too shy to say anything about it. if you want to complain, do it in a place where people you're complaining about can't see, because it hurts to be talked about publicly. if you're frustrated with something here, take a break, because your personal feelings are not anyone's fault.

Whoa. Lena, well phrased. Really well phrased.

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Originally Posted by AlgebraAddict (Post 530228)
It's just frustrating because Kidpub has been a really great supportive community in the past and now idk

I know there are a lot of newbies. I thought about leaving KP after a wave of newbies suddenly joined in January too, and like Lena said, I felt like a fish out of the water around them.
But hey I talked to one of my friends about it, and she said if I really love something then I shouldn't give it up. Don't give up on a rose because of its thorns.
Hey kidpub is still a beautiful place like a rose and the newbies or certain topics will seem like thorns to you but you know don't give up on us. Go to the ecc forum, actually. Maybe you'll feel better there. And talk to Rebecca. /nods/

HannahChen2009 05-01-2014 11:02 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by pluzzle (Post 530237)
tbh i agree with you this wedding stuff is like okaaay wat

i agree 100 you aren't alone ( i mean i kind of am an ignorant newbie... it's been two years )

I guess. Let them have their fun. It'll fade in a week or so. The wedding probably won't even happen. c: That's what usually happens in my experience.

Quote:

Originally Posted by Elizabeth (Post 530238)
I can really see what you mean. It was fun and all, but now they're making random wedding threads. And then they talk about shipping on every thread they get on. I was thinking like, "Can't we talk about other things?"
You're just going to have to ignore them and talk to the people you know and are friends with. But I can understand what you're saying.

I didn't expect them to make a wedding thread. I really didn't. o.o

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Originally Posted by SilverMoon (Post 530247)
Indeed. Although I do ship, I do not involve weddings, and it is either
A) to tease people or
B) not actually about people that exist in real life
But A is only with people not over the Internet
I don't even ship Lyori that was just for equivalent exchange

OH WAIT YOU REMEMBER LYORI AHAHA
so do i actually
and lydia and I ended up shipping Jydia anyways. xD

pluzzle 05-01-2014 05:29 PM

im actually rly fuckin done with this website

i have everyone's contacts that i need to (except bwas. regret) or tumblrs or whatever

i had fun once, so thanks for that guys

JoMarch 05-01-2014 06:11 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by pluzzle (Post 530368)
im actually rly fuckin done with this website

i have everyone's contacts that i need to (except bwas. regret) or tumblrs or whatever

i had fun once, so thanks for that guys

nooo you're so cool and I like just met you
but I respect that everybody grows out of kp so
good luck with everything you do and I really hope everything works out for you and you're happy (*hugs*)
i'll miss you. bye hon c:

Athenabrain1 05-01-2014 06:20 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by pluzzle (Post 530368)
im actually rly fuckin done with this website

i have everyone's contacts that i need to (except bwas. regret) or tumblrs or whatever

i had fun once, so thanks for that guys

Aww...
What's wrong?
Bye, I guess.
I'll really miss you.

Bridie 05-01-2014 08:56 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by pluzzle (Post 530368)
im actually rly fuckin done with this website

i have everyone's contacts that i need to (except bwas. regret) or tumblrs or whatever

i had fun once, so thanks for that guys

what's wrong? We'll miss you, if you do go

TheAshWolf 05-02-2014 02:38 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 530266)
*hugs* thanks. just… idk i'm really scared of that. (mreh and it's especially possible considering i'm gonna travel a lot sooo)
the thing is, tbh, i don't even really want to form those connections. maybe with a few people—like my uncle or my cousin—but fuck i don't even know what family is supposed to be like


i don't even know, last night was just a really really bad emotional relapse.
mreh yeah i'm mostly feeling better now. But I feel like if I start thinking about anything again I'm gonna fall back down that whole.

(*hugs*) I'm sorry, man. <:^/ I hope that doesn't happen to you again. I'm really really glad you're feeling better, though! <:^3 Just try not to think about stuff like that, okay? Keep your mind occupied. Everything's alright, regardless of how everything seems.

Kiwara 05-02-2014 04:20 PM

LST if you ever need anyone to vent at and you catch me on Skype, I don't mind lending an ear. I went through similar stuff(and still fighting it at times) so I'm here for you too. I'm sorry I don't talk much on there. I fail miserably at conversations.

AlgebraAddict 05-02-2014 08:26 PM

I understand all of this, but it was an emotional vent. I don't really care if you do it or not, it just gets on my nerves how much Kidpub has changed *shrugs*. I'm still getting used to it.

On a better (or possibly worse) note, imma teenager as of today so yeah :3

JoMarch 05-02-2014 08:43 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by AlgebraAddict (Post 530603)
I understand all of this, but it was an emotional vent. I don't really care if you do it or not, it just gets on my nerves how much Kidpub has changed *shrugs*. I'm still getting used to it.

On a better (or possibly worse) note, imma teenager as of today so yeah :3

o whoa hold the phone- is it your birthday?
if so, congraaatttssss and happy birthday dear!
aha I think being a teenager is one of the best and worst times of one's life

meerkat 05-02-2014 11:01 PM

Dear Grandmother,
Seriously. I'm sick of this. For the millionth time, don't force feed me just because there's leftover food and my darling angel of a sissypoop won't eat it because she's too high and holy. I'm not cattle for you to fatten up and then dissect later or something like that. I'm a person (GASP), and I know when I'm hungry and when I'm not. You claim to know my body better than I do, and you've even said so yourself. But you've never seen through my eyes and listened through my almost-deaf ears, have you? If you did, you'd be appalled at what I have to go through because of you. And is that mushy conglomerate of vegetables, which I call "pig slop" for the stink, your sorry excuse for food? No wonder I hate eating so much, if that's what I've been reared on for fourteen torturous years. Maybe if you fed me something else, and not just as "leftovers," I might enjoy that awful act I call "eating". Also, stop controlling my religion and making me pray each morning. You're denying me one of my most basic freedoms. You may hate it that American schools are teaching us this "nonsense," but I'm entitled to my own life, separate from yours. I hate eating. I hate your food. I hate religion. I hate not being entitled to my rights as an American citizen, no matter how small the infractions. And I know I'm supposed to respect my elders, but I sometimes can't stand you either. No, make that all the time. After a conversation with you, I go from loving the world to hating everything, including myself. And especially you. Basically we can never get along, so just leave me alone and let me enjoy my basic freedoms.
Yours truly,
the most disrespectful, annoying, and contemptuous granddaughter in the world.

lvhamsters 05-03-2014 12:00 AM

I'm such a loner X3 it's embarassing sometimes. I get bullied for it but you know what, it's worth it. Sort of. I don't know. It's better to be alone than around people. I don't know how not to be a loner but i'm at at the point of time where it's necessary. It's physically draining to actually talk to people. Sorry for my random ranting. I have more to say but I'm currently paranoid someone will look over my shoulder. Bleh.

L.S.Trendom 05-03-2014 01:11 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 530549)
(*hugs*) I'm sorry, man. <:^/ I hope that doesn't happen to you again. I'm really really glad you're feeling better, though! <:^3 Just try not to think about stuff like that, okay? Keep your mind occupied. Everything's alright, regardless of how everything seems.

thanks *hugs back* idk i feel like it's kinda bad i can't get by without ignoring everything?? and it feels like a dishonest way to live
Quote:

Originally Posted by Kiwara (Post 530554)
LST if you ever need anyone to vent at and you catch me on Skype, I don't mind lending an ear. I went through similar stuff(and still fighting it at times) so I'm here for you too. I'm sorry I don't talk much on there. I fail miserably at conversations.

thanks man *tackle hugs*

Bridie 05-03-2014 08:04 AM

I just want to say you are all so bloody beautiful.
All of you.
You are fantastic and deserve the very best the world has to offer you.
If your friends treat you badly, leave them.
Because you are worth so much and you shouldn't waste your time on them.
If you feel upset or depressed or worried or stressed remember how amazing you are.
And I know that you can't be happy all the time but you must know this.
Everything about you is unique and excellent and wonderful.
I love you all. So much


Sorry for going on like this

Elizabeth 05-03-2014 04:52 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Bridie (Post 530703)
I just want to say you are all so bloody beautiful.
All of you.
You are fantastic and deserve the very best the world has to offer you.
If your friends treat you badly, leave them.
Because you are worth so much and you shouldn't waste your time on them.
If you feel upset or depressed or worried or stressed remember how amazing you are.
And I know that you can't be happy all the time but you must know this.
Everything about you is unique and excellent and wonderful.
I love you all. So much


Sorry for going on like this

Ohhh, you're amazing. You should have encouraging be your job.

camikat 05-03-2014 06:36 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Bridie (Post 530703)
I just want to say you are all so bloody beautiful.
All of you.
You are fantastic and deserve the very best the world has to offer you.
If your friends treat you badly, leave them.
Because you are worth so much and you shouldn't waste your time on them.
If you feel upset or depressed or worried or stressed remember how amazing you are.
And I know that you can't be happy all the time but you must know this.
Everything about you is unique and excellent and wonderful.
I love you all. So much


Sorry for going on like this

Hey. thank you so much for that.

HeatherB 05-03-2014 08:40 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 529715)
he's not gonna take a fuckin hint with this either
i mean come fucking on man every time you're like "i feel fat lol" or "i skipped a meal lol" i stop replying
isn't that pretty fuckin obvious
im sorry but i can't fuckin handle this you're so triggering

block him.
maybe you can't do that offline, but block him online at least. it's not your fault you're triggered by this and you shouldn't have to put up with it. if he asks you about it, if you feel comfortable discussing it with him, you can tell him about it. if you don't, just say that he was making some disturbing comments and that you didn't want to deal with them.
or maybe you should talk it out, if you're comfortable with that. this is all about making you more comfortable around him, so it's really your call on this.
Quote:

Originally Posted by Lena (Post 530225)
(*hugs*) thank you, dearie. really. it means a lot

maybe it is excessive and maybe it is annoying but you can't expect everyone to be a grown up right away
kidpub/the internet in general has a way of getting to people and aging them up pretty quickly, but let them enjoy childhood as long as they can
and if you don't like something, why don't you walk away from it? if people here are annoying you, there is absolutely nothing stopping you from shutting off the computer and doing something else, because complaining about it is just going to make you seem immature as well.

it may not mean anything, but as long as people are having fun, let them enjoy it. like i said before, if you don't like something here, nothing at all is tying you.

from what i've observed in general, people on KP want to teach "newbies" how to act and who to become and it makes me really sad, guys. these kids came to write and to make friends, not to be targeted by people who think they're better than them because they act more maturely. i, personally, feel like a fish out of water around most new members, so i get it, but there's no need to be judgmental.

i'm sorry if any of that came off as offensive, but i see a lot of this irl and i'm sick of being too shy to say anything about it. if you want to complain, do it in a place where people you're complaining about can't see, because it hurts to be talked about publicly. if you're frustrated with something here, take a break, because your personal feelings are not anyone's fault.

you're my fav
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Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 530227)
i love sam so much
and i'm so fuckin afraid that we'll fall apart too, it'll go the way of my other friendships
and i don't know if i could handle that
she said she'd be my anchor but…i don't know. promises are a broken so often like fuck how can i be sure of anything

and people say you always have your family but
i don't get the fuckin obligation to love your family. i care about them, but i don't feel any love for them. there's no emotional connection between us. and they might think they love me (my parents, at least, i dont even know if my brothers are capable of caring oh my god) but they don't know me.
so if i lose all my friends, i have nothing. i have no family to fall back on. i have no one.

hell tbh i'm probably gonna die alone and i'm so fucking afraid of that

and also p sure i still hate the fUCK out of myself.
just it's a shitton easier to not think about it with antidepressants

idk it was kinda a really bad night and i wanted to cut and i just wanted to start crying??
but then i drove around with sam and she made me feel a shitton better but
idk

you are not alone. i am here. i will always be your friend. all of us, though we may screw up sometimes and say the wrong thing and accidentally make things worse, we will be here for you. i love you so much, and i'm glad you're feeling better. being with sam is important to you, and you need to protect what is precious. i'm really glad she happened to you, ngl. with her you get into some of the best mood i've ever seen you in, and you feeling better makes me feel better too.
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Originally Posted by pluzzle (Post 530368)
im actually rly fuckin done with this website

i have everyone's contacts that i need to (except bwas. regret) or tumblrs or whatever

i had fun once, so thanks for that guys

i'll miss you. you have my tumblr, right?
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Originally Posted by Bridie (Post 530703)
I just want to say you are all so bloody beautiful.
All of you.
You are fantastic and deserve the very best the world has to offer you.
If your friends treat you badly, leave them.
Because you are worth so much and you shouldn't waste your time on them.
If you feel upset or depressed or worried or stressed remember how amazing you are.
And I know that you can't be happy all the time but you must know this.
Everything about you is unique and excellent and wonderful.
I love you all. So much


Sorry for going on like this

don't apologize, really.
i needed that. thank you.

pluzzle 05-04-2014 12:20 AM

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Originally Posted by HeatherB (Post 531006)
block him.
maybe you can't do that offline, but block him online at least. it's not your fault you're triggered by this and you shouldn't have to put up with it. if he asks you about it, if you feel comfortable discussing it with him, you can tell him about it. if you don't, just say that he was making some disturbing comments and that you didn't want to deal with them.
or maybe you should talk it out, if you're comfortable with that. this is all about making you more comfortable around him, so it's really your call on this.

you're my fav

you are not alone. i am here. i will always be your friend. all of us, though we may screw up sometimes and say the wrong thing and accidentally make things worse, we will be here for you. i love you so much, and i'm glad you're feeling better. being with sam is important to you, and you need to protect what is precious. i'm really glad she happened to you, ngl. with her you get into some of the best mood i've ever seen you in, and you feeling better makes me feel better too.

i'll miss you. you have my tumblr, right?

don't apologize, really.
i needed that. thank you.

i doubt. but yeah, i do.
i don't think im stable enough to be here anymore, too, tbh

Bridie 05-04-2014 03:54 AM

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Originally Posted by pluzzle (Post 531049)
i doubt. but yeah, i do.
i don't think im stable enough to be here anymore, too, tbh

i hope you decide not to leave in the end

LaurenM 05-04-2014 12:03 PM

omg i'm so late for all of this i haven't been on here in ages
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Originally Posted by lvhamsters (Post 529638)
So today I found out that one of my brother's best friends attempted suicide and is now being hospitalized for it. I don't know him that well but I've had enough conversations with him to know he's a really nice kid. We've given him a couple rides home and he's come over quite a few times. But I've also listened to the conversations him and my brother and their other friends have had. I've also heard other people talk to him. My brother and his friends were nice enough to him, occasionally giving out an insult, but that's pretty common. But other people were pretty mean to him and would always make fun of him. I don't know what for. It just really came as a shock. I guess I knew he wasn't the happiest kid. I only saw him smiling a couple times, and that's really sad. I should've gone to talk to him but I failed to do that. It's just.... so shocking. I've had to talk my best friend out of suicide before but.... it's just so different when they actually go through with it. He was so close to death. What if he had died? He had so many friends. So many people would've been affected. Hell, even I was affected and I don't know him very well. His family? I don't know much about his family. I'm fairly sure he has a good family though. I'm sorry. My thoughts are really muddled so this is going to be very muddled. I guess what I'm trying to say all connects back to what caused his depression. Fucking bullies. He's a perfectly nice kid and they push him down. They continue to add weight on his shoulders, adding more and more words, more and more insults, until he can't take it anymore and collapses. What kind of person would do that? An incompetent loser who has nothing better to do than kill people off with words. A low life, scum of the earth. I'm just so sick of bullying and bullies. Basically, think before you speak. It's so difficult to wrap my mind around. Just everything. How someone could do something so low as to push him so far, and how he was so close to death. Needless to say, I'm going with a group of friends and my brother to visit him in the hospital tomorrow. Please think about him or pray for him. Please?

<3 i really hope he survives and knows that things will get better
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Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 529715)
he's not gonna take a fuckin hint with this either
i mean come fucking on man every time you're like "i feel fat lol" or "i skipped a meal lol" i stop replying
isn't that pretty fuckin obvious
im sorry but i can't fuckin handle this you're so triggering

talk to him about him/block him

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Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 530233)
o
oops
am i becoming suicidal again
FUCK
ok im gonna like idk go to bed and then talk to sam tomorrow i guess

wait what happened don't
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Originally Posted by pluzzle (Post 530368)
im actually rly fuckin done with this website

i have everyone's contacts that i need to (except bwas. regret) or tumblrs or whatever

i had fun once, so thanks for that guys

same but meh not officially leaving. don't really see the point of doing that. yet.
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Originally Posted by AlgebraAddict (Post 530603)
I understand all of this, but it was an emotional vent. I don't really care if you do it or not, it just gets on my nerves how much Kidpub has changed *shrugs*. I'm still getting used to it.

On a better (or possibly worse) note, imma teenager as of today so yeah :3

HAOPY BELATED BIRDAY

L.S.Trendom 05-04-2014 12:18 PM

oops so i kinda relapsed again
while sam and thomas were in the back of the car
i was torn between wanting to cut a lot and get really drunk with a friend
except i didn't feel at all comfortable having an emotional breakdown around that friend
sooo thank god i ended up going to thomas's that made the night like five times better for me

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Originally Posted by HeatherB (Post 531006)
block him.
maybe you can't do that offline, but block him online at least. it's not your fault you're triggered by this and you shouldn't have to put up with it. if he asks you about it, if you feel comfortable discussing it with him, you can tell him about it. if you don't, just say that he was making some disturbing comments and that you didn't want to deal with them.
or maybe you should talk it out, if you're comfortable with that. this is all about making you more comfortable around him, so it's really your call on this.

you are not alone. i am here. i will always be your friend. all of us, though we may screw up sometimes and say the wrong thing and accidentally make things worse, we will be here for you. i love you so much, and i'm glad you're feeling better. being with sam is important to you, and you need to protect what is precious. i'm really glad she happened to you, ngl. with her you get into some of the best mood i've ever seen you in, and you feeling better makes me feel better too.

hng ignoring him seems to work kinda well, he hasn't been bringing it up as much. but yeah fuck i should talk to him about it

thank you. but… fuck i just have a hard time believing anyone will actually stay with me. at the very least you guys will probably drift away. *shrugs*
thank you

pluzzle 05-04-2014 04:21 PM

D: it's okay. you can go even longer this time I know you can!!

commenting on the otp 'story' was the worst decision of my life. 1) should i leave kp or should i leave the world in general? 2) who is imnotalamo

i hate myself i should die GOODbYE


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