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Originally Posted by Sandy (Post 460555)

Once again, I feel absolutely crazy.
Okay, first of all, are there any KPers who have ever experienced mania or hypomania or ANYTHING like that who might be able to help me out here?
I've been on the manic side for a good couple months now, shifting occasionally to being "normal", but I just went through this really low week or so, and now what I can only assume is mania is hitting me really hard.
I can hear myself talking in my head, amid my thoughts--I hear voices, like they're echoing in my head, whispering words but nothing totally coherent. I've been suspended in this trance of anxiety for about three days now, constantly on the verge of throwing up from being so hyper. I don't actually walk around my house anymore, I SPRINT from room to room for no good reason. The worst part is when I try to talk, I BABBLE--like not the Kidpub definition of "ramble" but legitimate babbling, desperately stringing sentences together at warp speed--and my mom has even told me that I appear to be thinking at the speed of light. I feel like I'm moving on a different frequency or something, I'm terrified yet confident and hyper yet so, so EXHAUSTED at the same time. At first it was kind of funny, but now I'm scared. I feel like I need to get out of my head. I feel like I'm on crack or something, hyper and unable to relax, desperate to be productive yet unable to sort my thoughts enough to get anything done--I'm SHAKING. I have the worst tension headache right now, too...
I'm really nauseous... I just really hope I can make it until the end of June without breaking down. Oh god... Okay, I'm done.
Any advice on how to deal with this would be greatly appreciated. I only attended half of a school day today in the hopes that it would help, but it hasn't done anything.

I'm sorry, Sandy. :( *huggles* You don't deserve to go through any of this.

In short, I think you're overstressed. Way, wayyyy overstressed. You need to sleep, Sandy. Go to bed an hour earlier tonight. Try to limit your coffee intake a little bit, maybe two or three cups less than usual. How much have you been eating, lately? If you haven't been eating much, eat more. But above all, Sandy, you need to sit back, and try to RELAX. Watch TV. Listen to music. Don't write, don't draw, don't do homework. <:^J Maybe take a nap. Even if you can't fall asleep, just lie down for a bit. Just...try to...slow....down.

You'll feel a lot less anxious once school is over, though. Don't worry. Then the bulk of your stress will be gone. Until then, just try to take care of yourself, okay? Homework comes second, your well-being comes first. *hugs again*

I don't even know what to say. I can't go through a day without contemplating suicide. Nothing is fun anymore. My dad notices and asks me what's wrong but I have no idea how to talk to him.

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Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 460575)

You're amazing.

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Originally Posted by Sandy (Post 460555)

Like Ash said, get some sleep and make it through the school year. You can do it.

Wow. Still, so many people are sad.

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Originally Posted by SeptemberLove (Post 460581)

You're amazing.

...Wait, I'M amazing? o_0 *confusion* You mean Sandy's amazing. Right? I mean, who else can be in the IB program and keep up with all these projects while writing and drawing amazingly while still remaining one of the top students in her class? ^_^ THAT'S amazing.

Also that's why she needs to get more sleep. :( *gives Sandy a blanket and a pillow* You need to recharge your batteries, girl...

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Originally Posted by SeptemberLove (Post 460579)

I don't even know what to say. I can't go through a day without contemplating suicide. Nothing is fun anymore. My dad notices and asks me what's wrong but I have no idea how to talk to him.

Don't be afraid to open up to him. I don't know your family situation, but...he's still your father, right? He's asking you what's wrong. He's showing concern, isn't he? <:^) Just tell him how you've been feeling. Vent with him.

Life is worth living, hon. Even if the present seems boring or stressful, you have plenty of memories to look back on, don't you? Plus you can still enjoy the things in life a lot of people overlook--music, the ability to read and write, food that's not only nutritious but also delicious, color, general sight and sound, etc.

Ever have one of those days when things are going good, and then something comes out of nowhere and knocks you off balance?

Yeah. Had one of those days.

Felt like this:

http://media.tumblr.com/c7230a9815dd...4hn1qz4rgp.gif

Don't worry, Ash. Things'll get better. :)

Feeling guilty at the moment because I was so wrapped up in my own self-pity that I just found out a little eight-year old at my school has been fighting cancer since she was three years old. I guess someone's always worse off than me. Time to give her a big hug and put about ten dollars in her fundraiser tomorrow, it's not much but it's something, I suppose.

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Originally Posted by pluzzle (Post 460664)

;_; Those days suck. It'll be okay.

Don't feel guilty.
Aw. Poor girl. Give her a hug for me (:

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I just feel so ignored. And I wish someone would ask me if I'm okay, because newsflash, I'm not. I wish someone would notice me.
I seems like I can't go 10 minutes without wanting to kill myself.
And to top it all off I feel like crap because everyone has it worse.
Oh, and my mum isn't home yet, but she called over an hour ago to say she was coming home. I'm really worried ;_;
I'm having a lovely day. -_-

Will do. :) Not okay. You being not okay is not okay. You must be okay and I can't do much to help, I'm sorry, but I'll tell you one thing. Stick at it because one day you will move to this great big city or a tiny farm town, and you'll know lots of people and every single one will know you like the back of their hand and know when you are upset. But more than often you won't be upset because you'll have surrounded yourself with people you adore and love. And your mum will be home soon. Parents always find their children in the end.