Because of this: We've known eachother for a bit of a while, and I think we;ve discussed this at least once.
I like making people happy. I've faltered once, and you helped me out there. And even when you refuse to be happy, I can stay, and pretend you are, because I will do everything in my power to make you be it. So.

yeah, no. pretending i am happy might make things better for you, but it doesn't make things better for me. glossing it over makes it worse for me, actually. so this is a selfish request, i guess, but i'm sick of overanalyzation of my posts and overdramatized replies. the things that DO help, if you want to me to know that you care, is the simpler stuff. like i don't need a paragraph of how much you love me, i just need a smiley face and a heart. make sense?

anyway if anyone ever cared about why i don't post on here as much
this is why
i can't make other people be happy
and make myself content
at the same time
it just doesn't work that way

See, but this why I'm your friend. Don't be diluded into believing that I think that you're my friend. you probably hate me. I dunno, and honestly- y'know I was going to say something else, but forget it. Sleep or not, I dunno. Good luck though.
On another note. I'm being philosophical? This is the tip of my philosophical glacier. How many times have I been talking nonstop, and then asked you to tell me to be quiet? Tons. And now you're doing it, and it makes me happy. So there.
Here's the heart and smiley you asked for, filled with genuine affection.
:) <3
Here, take an extra heart.
<3


To anyone else, if you feel uncomfortable about what's going on here: sorry. I'm being a bitch, but I can't help it. Also, I'm never angry at my friends, so that's not what's happening.

Love you all. <3 :D

Okay, so this won't be an 'overdramatized' reply. I know you don't care about my opinion, heck, you don't even know me. I just want to get it out there that I do care and I wish that Heather didn't have to go through all this. How 'bout this post isn't written directly to you, even though you will probably read this. If you're reading this, then :) <3. Idk if this comment even makes sense, but whatever.

*sigh* I've noticed that it seems a lot of KPers are depressed... and I've read somewhere that authors are way more likely to become depressed than normal people. Does anyone know why?

Oh, and Heather... :) <3

That's what I read too. I'm not sure why, but I'm also too lazy to look it up.

I think I heard it was artists in general… And I think it's the other way around, depressed people/people who tend to be depressed tend to be more artistic, too?

I think it's because us authors and artists are more inclined to examine why things are they way they are, and tend to bury our negative feelings and our problems in what we read and what we create.

Okay, you guys, so I've been working really hard on outlining my characters and my plot for a book I'm working on and I realize that, bluntly, my protagonist is depressed, and alone, and afraid. She develops anorexia and is almost completely unstable by the time she has to face the climax of the story.

I was going to show my manuscript to my sixth grade English teacher, once I finish. I'm not sure I want to.

On one hand, he might pass it off as a great story, but I don't think he will. I think that he's going to know exactly who my character is, because it's me. The entire story is, in a way, an alternate and more extreme story of my first year in middle school. He's going to know that. And then I don't know how he's going to react. As adults go, he really gets teens and preteens. More than a lot of people. And I don't want to ask for his help, but he did ask if he could read anything I write over the summer. I just really don't want to open up something so valuable about myself as my writing to anyone.

I've also been thinking about showing some other people I can trust. My friend who'll be going into high school, possibly. Maybe even my friend Adam. I don't know. I don't want to scare anyone, and I don't want to present myself as depressed or fake or burdened.

In that case, just be sure to tell whoever you show the story to that although the plot is similar to your own experiences, both the main character AND the events in the story have been exaggerated and altered for the sake of the plot. They shouldn't get too upset if you're able to get that point across.<:^)