haha no one seems to get it
i can't fucking just lose everyone and everything over and over again
I FUCKING CAN'T!

do you know why i believe it isn't true?
cause like that's literally the only option
cause if it is true i'm just gonna fuckin throw myself in front of a train
i fucking cant

Why do you think you and Sam are going to break up?

please don't. there are alternative solutions like scribbling really hard, punching a pillow, holding ice against your skin, drawing with red pen, etc. i'm sure you could find one that works for you.

i don't know much about you and sam's relationship so i can't say much there but remember that one person is not your entire world, even if you think they are sometimes (or a lot.). and whatever is going on it will pass and it will be okay.

is that about the Heaven and Hell thing? (don't throw yourself in front of a train buddy instead pet cute animals and wear warm clothes and pick dandelions and blow the fuzz off of them.).




y'all stay happy!

you can always talk to me whenever you need to. i worry about the same stuff too though bc it's like i see my friends and they're all chill and stuff and then im like "heLLO I AM UPSET" and i'll feel bad. just remember friends care about you and if they don't, they aren't friends. and if they talk bad about you stop interacting with them.

but if u ever need to contact me that's 100% ok

u go out and u do what it is u want to do u keep from losing her u can do it


that's not necessarily cowardly. just try standing up the next time the opportunity arises! that may not sound easy but it can be a very spur-of-the-moment thing. and i've been working on fighting tears too, i keep imagining im just moving the tears someplace else. it kind of works. not completely though.

also @JoMarch no problem!




you guys are loved <3

I can't really focus on anything else than reprimanding myself for being like this.
The though to disappear scares me, yet it sounds refreshing, in a way.
I'd never felt so strongly about something like this, to be honest.
I'm even considering holding my breath for to long, which I've done, but I end up breathing again because I get scared or just can't do it.

no absolutely not

contact me please i would be so upset

please i don't mean to make you feel bad but just don't we'll all be crushed we'll be blaming ourselves and you have SO MUCH to live for just please please please please do not

please remember you're worth a lot to people

please don't do this

please remember we care and we don't want you to go

please I'm about to cry just

please

no no nonononono that's a no don't think like that

I want you to not disappear

God cares

i care

we care

your body is trying to keep you alive

your body cares

care about yourself, yourself cares back

AND LAUREL THE SAME GOES FOR YOU OKAY

seriously contact me if you ever need to



i love all you guys so much please love yourselves back you're all important

I want to feel something.
I need to feel something.
The emptiness is killing me.
I can't take this.
Something, anything, would be better than nothing.
I want to scream.
But it doesn't matter anyways.
All there is is nothingness.
But somehow that's what's the most painful.

It seriously scares me, that I'd ever have thoughts like this.
Ugh.
I don't want to cry anymore.
I'm worried.

run around your house put on footie pajamas jump up and down punch pillows dump a cup of water on your head dig in the dirt open your refrigerator and take out some food you like and eat it take a freezing shower chew gum do anything to make you feel something

there's something to life there's more than nothingness

take a nap and then when you wake up do something distracting

occupy your time so you don't think about that stuff

try to get it to leave your head





it gets better <3

(*feels really really bad that a bunch of you guys are so depressed and going through so much*)

(*wants to say something encouraging*)

(*realizes I really don't know most of you very well and am thus nervous about saying something*)

(*panic*)