why

just

for god's sake

why

buried some emotions so I think I'm a little better but still hate people lol

i'm just so exhausted

i just

i'm just so tired and done with all this bullshit and i'm so confused and i just want to sleep

and i don't know anything anymore

She seemed a lot nicer on instagram tho
Should I go to her house for her birthday
I don't want to run into her friend who hates me
Will she be nicer at school
Getting schedules this thursday/friday I'm scared

i feel that, abt the whole family thing.

i commented. stay safe <3


idk i think KP has become a toxic place for me and others

Nervous for the first day of school. My stomach is going nuts.

I just had a really emotional night and had a nightmare.
I thought about how my parents wouldn't be there for me sometime in the future. And then I started the endless crying.
Then a nightmare about my mom joining the army and us getting to watch the whole battle in the car. My dad said she could advance since all the others were in the front already. Just as she was about to go, a bad guy came out of nowhere and stabbed my brother in the chest. He ignored my mom, who was reaching out to him, and just ran away past us.

Sweet jesus that was stressful.
My math teacher didn't piss me off yet.
My German class is obnoxious.
Band is going to be better.
I'm pissed about assigned seats at lunch but whatever.
I saw the other two girls that I used to have a really good friendship with eating together which made me want to cry for selfish reasons.
My locker refuses to open at times.
All in all: ehh.