Originally Posted by meerkat (Post 568029)

that awful tension when you know you failed a french test but the grades haven't been updated for a month so you're scared and freaking out and there's a weird tightness in your throat and you just blast stravinsky from your speakers at full volume to run away from your problems

oh who am i kidding, i couldn't have failed that bad... like 90% of the test was conjugation of regular verbs in future tense or something and that's super easy. and the part i failed was the culture and it was only one question but it was worth a lot and i might've also gotten the conjugation wrong and i don't know. tbh putting grades in isn't that hard, i used to be a teaching assistant and i could grade and enter four math classes's tests in an hour, so why is it taking so long? am i insensitive? or am i just freaking out too much and blowing things out of proportion?

whatever. i have a 94 in french, and my quiz/test grade is a 92. so i should be fine. why am i so worried? shut up meera you have work to do and auditions to practice for and you shouldn't be so tense. but i can't not be this tense. ugh this is weird i'll just turn up the volume and study.

Originally Posted by meerkat (Post 568207)

i got a 93.5 on this test btw
hmmm mildly acceptable and good enough to not get an anxiety attack, but just barely

Originally Posted by meerkat (Post 568229)

help im really scared of bugs and i can't leave my room without screaming and tonight will be one long panic attack

Originally Posted by meerkat (Post 568229)

help im really scared of bugs and i can't leave my room without screaming and tonight will be one long panic attack

Originally Posted by pluzzle (Post 568237)

honesttlyokay to everyone here if we are friends, or if we arent, i probably still lov u and i never want to hurt any one please tell me if im makin u feel bad. im feeling so very guilty right now because of something that happened with a past friend and i dont want tht friend to remember me as a horrible person becasuse that friend probably does and i. oh god.moh my god. im so sorry if ur reading this and u know who u r. im so sorry. i jsut want to say ur name and i want to send u a message and i want us to leave that in the past but i dont think we should be friends or anything, i just want you to remember me as a better person than you think of me as, because fuck knows i think of you so highly and look up to you so much

Originally Posted by AlgebraAddict (Post 568205)

Originally Posted by venika (Post 568236)

this has happened to me before (except with rats haha) and what helped me then was basically just having some comfort food and staying up talking to someone. that really helped tbh, even though they were in another country and it was just gmail chat it helped to have someone to talk to. so yeah, just try hang on in there! find a space in the room where you're sure there aren't any bugs or anything else that makes you uncomfortable, then whenever you sit there it's safe and comfortable and that helped me too so yeah. ^.^

Originally Posted by meerkat (Post 568241)

now im basically fine, but the night really was one long anxiety attack and i woke up screaming for mom. yeah.