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mannnnnnnn, tfw ur online friend breaks up w their datemate and u gotta be there for them even tho u suicidal. #thepriceupay
nahh jks i love this friend 120000% but im so drained, and i hate being drained bc that means responding to them sounds like a robot and they came to me first because i make them laugh? so much responsibility for a smoll

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me: hey heart and hands are you gonna calm down now?
heart and hands: NO!! I DO WHAT I WANT!! YOUR FRIEND IS CALLING YOU CHARLOTTE AND REFUSING TO USE JASPER THIS IS A CAUSE OF ACUTE DISTRESS AND ANXIETY GOODBYE

spoiler alert: you are going to be ok

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Originally Posted by strawberry (Post 568844)

now im convinced that everyone hates me even the tiniest things make me doubt everything and this is actually so amusing bc it's so predictable like "ok time to feel despised by the planet" "ok time to read fanfiction and forget yourself" "ok time to sit in silence while mentally screaming at yourself to be stable for once" "ok time to watch anime" "ok time to dwell on how no one cares" "ok time to realize that 1% of caring is still caring" "ok time to bitterly think the words IT WILL NEVER BE ENOUGH over and over because you'll never be special" "ok time to forget yourself again bc screw real life" and repeat the cycle of hyper happiness and practical depression like idk about how it is clinically but if im sad then im sad and im sad for no reason and its unjustified and unfair to everyone and myself or it could just be teenage hormones screwing with my mind but whether it's normal to have drastic mood changes or not it still hurts like hell and i only try to bruise my palm because it's annoying and makes me angry and i might like pain is that also normal
sorry that was longer and more rambly than i intended and i made absolutely no sense did i
and it's not like anyone will r eply so im telling myself not to take it personally
its so hard dammit

can i please just hold you and cuddle with you and watch anime and monk and eat popcorn and laugh and make inappropriate jokes and do your hair and fall over laughing while my ribs are literally breaking from lol and attack you with hugs

wow i totally do not have a big platonic crush happening here. sorry meera, our strawberry is too lovable to not share

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Originally Posted by AlgebraAddict (Post 568948)

yes she is a tiny squishy fwof crêpenoot who sends me pictures of her bloody hands on text <3 remind her to tell you what a facenoot is as well as why she spells squeak like sqeuak AND ALSO WHAT THE ;~;) FACE AND ADZEN ARE XD SO MANY FRIEND MEMES OMG

also she's really tiny psst

its okay i have a platonic crush of equal or greater size and i think you know about it and also i kinda had a smaller one on the stwawbewwycwêpe or maybe that was just the initial awkwardness but now there is nothing awkward

that feeling when you can't remember if you slept last night or if you even slept at all this week
i checked my reflection for the first time today and i'm visibly tired and disheveled and my eyes and cheeks are more sunken in than usual to the point where my eyelids perpetually droop and i almost don't have dimples and i can see my ribcage and hipbones sticking out under my clothes and my face is covered in zits
i'm in no condition for anything now and i want to doodle stuff but i also want to read and i want to do homework and also practice and run and i just need to lie down for awhile
what did i do to myself
frickitseemslikeeverynightisonelongpanicattack

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Originally Posted by Alaska (Post 568922)

spoiler alert: you are going to be ok

amazing... too true

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Originally Posted by meerkat (Post 568878)

*performs heimlich maneuver for fear of choking*

>:U //pushes away

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Originally Posted by Frostblaze (Post 568955)

>:U //pushes away

*brings out more cookies even though i have a stomachache and an everything-ache and i shouldn't be doing anything except lying down now XD*

i'm so tired i'm legitimately crying
what is this

so i think amber is hella gay and SHE'S HELLA GAY FOR ME AND IT'S SUPER UNCOMFORTABLE. >8I like, i don't like being the center of attention and she's such a party girl and she added "your babe <3" at the end of her name in my contacts. and i'm just like, this lonely sex-repulsed ace who laughs at whatever because idk how to react. it's kind of okay because i don't see her a lot BUT THEN I ACCIDENTALLY SAID "I HAVE SOMEONE WAITING FOR ME IN CALIFORNIA" AND SHE WAS LIKE "WHAT" AND I SAID "I MEAN LIKE A FRIEND" AND THEN SHE ASKED WHO 'HE' WAS AND I HAD TO EXPLAIN THE WHOLE MEERA MY CRUSH LIVES FAR AWAY BUT SHE PROBABLY THINKS I'M GAY AND DATING NOW. UGH. NO. I'M HELLA ACE. IF ANYTHING, U JUST CONFIRMED MY ASEXUALITY, AMBER. so anyway, i'm really kind of upset about that and also i forgot to give ppl cupcakes so now i have to take them to school. and did i mention just as soon as we got home from one trip, i've gotta get packed for another? and i also have tons of school work? and i also got medication but haven't started yet for fear of nausea interrupting an already stressful day? yeah. lots of emotions going on here.