YES I'M SO HAPPY FOR YOU honestly i love that your happy i love that you are getting better i'm so glad for you

It's ok, we've all been there, don't worry. Tomorrow is Saturday so there's no school, so just take the day off. Go on a long walk or a bike ride or something, find a park to chill at, maybe bring a book to read or a notebook to write/draw in and something to play music. That will give you the space you need to breathe and relax away from society. :)

That's awesome! :D

Ugh, smh, I'll never understand segregation. But again I would say just try to respect her opinion and hope she matures out of it? But if it gets to be too much maybe lowkey be like 'bro this needs to stop' and *very* gently point out that you find it offensive when she, or anybody really, does/says stuff like that.

I'm Drowning.
In French homework
In emotions
anger
sadness
fear?

It was all fucking okay. I was going to just do my homework and get it over with. But I guess it all went wrong when I put on music. It's the only way I can focus nowadays so I didn't think twice. But Guns for Hands came on.

and i remembered that it's not okay

Now I'm freaking out cause I still have so much French homework and it needs to be done by the end of the day and I really really wanna cut. I actually really wanna die. I don't want to go to school. I don't want to do any more French homework, or any homework.

I don't want to smile at everyone and laugh at their jokes like I find them funny. I don't want to tell everyone I'm okay. Because I'm not. But I'm scared of what will happen if I tell people that I'm not okay.

I'm too tired to live, to scared to tell anyone, and terrified of what I can do.

I lied on the little blue sheet that they gave me at the doctors. I cut everything in half. And I'm still depressed and have sever anxiety?

People shouldn't waist their time on me. Don't respond to this. Don't waste your time and words on me. Save them for someone who can be saved.

someone who matters

But you can be "saved" stormy. So you know what, I'm going to keep in responding to you and sending you funny things and anything I can do to make you feel better. Because yeah, homework sucks but other things are so great. Also, you'll get better at it. And eventually, you won't have anymore homework
Also, it might actually help if you told someone. You don't have to, but they might help you.

try getting some sleep. that's definitely what you need. and if certain songs are making you feel that way, maybe avoid them when you're feeling so fragile and easily triggered. listen to some classical music, something that calms you down. take a few deep breaths. drink water. eat. rest. keep studying. you can do this, and you can be saved. you're going to be okay

i have no idea why im so upset but i kind of am the thought of being around people i usually like makes me sick to my stomach i think im just really tired and wow who knew my fren's girlfriend could make me feel so bad about how i look but it's not even her fault she's so pretty she's actually really sweet and funny and she was nice to me and really friendly but she's my age and she looks like a freakin goddess whats wrong with me why am i complaining about this i dont get it i just hate myself so much i dont understand why i hate how i look i hate how i act around other people i feel like a fail of a christian i hate how i feel about other people i have no idea why i always assume everyone hates me i think im just really tired maybe thats it

that's what everyone says and also you're just an internet person

I just want to let you know that I went through this phase as well and it does get better. You aren't a terrible person you aren't bad for comparing yourself to others but it is important to get out of that habit and mindset. Thats just bad for your well-being and it will put you in a very bad place.
You're going to hear this a million times and you won't listen but you are beautiful, I know that because I've seen your personality on here and how you treat people and you are radiant trust me! I know this isn't going to change anything but stay in there love. We're all here for you. Please drink some chamomille tea and get some sleep and take a good shower and just let the water run over you for a while. Sing really loudly. It'll be ok just get some sleep.
It's a long journey out of insecurity I'm still in the middle of it and there will always be times of unsurety but get in touch with your own beauty and take some time alone and write down a list of at least ten things you like about yourself and expand upon it every night even if you can't think of anything keep searching and you will find at least ten it will be ok and suddenly the list will be super long and you'll wonder when you got to be so amazing! This is incoherent I'm sorry I'm sleepy but. Start using cute words to describe things that make you smile (call spiders spooky guys, say words like lovely and brilliant and spell theatre the British way and use curse words like sploosh idk why but it's something that makes me feel cuter and more lovable). This sounds weird but sleep naked! It's a really weird concept but it works idk why and just get some clean sheets it's brilliant don't question me. Or just find your own things idk these just work for me. Banish negativity. Whenever you start thinking something mean about yourself or anything immediately change it! Don't berate yourself for thinking it but just apologize and think of a way to twist it into something pleasant. Get good smelling shampoo and soap because smelling good and clean is also a confidence boost. Get perfume and use as much as you like as long as you like it. Also eat good food like fruits and veggies even if you feel like youve eaten too much that day if you haven't had any veggies eat some even just a bit and then feel good because you just gave your body some good vitamins! Eat that cake too because cake is awesome! Buy new nail polish and slather that crap on that's some good stuff and then watch your fingers glide elegantly down the banister you're a princess! Get boots or heels and walk around and feel powerful! Wear clothes that make you feel hot even if your mom or your friends don't like em feel good! You are a goddess and a warrior and I'm really tired excuse me but really!
These suggestions were a bit superficial and obviously won't permanently change anything but just do anything that makes you feel good about yourself even if anyone else thinks that it's stupid or lame. Look in the mirror and slather on eyeliner and strike some poses wear pajama bottoms and look like a princess wear a messy bun and feel like a princess! Hydrate!
For tonight just get some good sleep and feel good and wake up and feel good ok if you can't sleep that's ok too read something enlightening and beautiful read some Virginia woolf embrace your feminism read until you feel sleepy then turn off the light. Be kind be strong do some service this is too much I'm sorry for this long vaguely incoherent post I'll stop rambling but anyways we all care about you sleep tight.

We are just Internet people and sometimes that doesn't feel like enough but we do care and we are here for you and we really are real people who care about you. You're in this community and we all love you! I'm here for you and yes I'm really far away and it doesn't seem like enough but it's something for now and so please just be safe for us! Much love.

@read_write and Zelda : thank you loves I wasn't expecting any replies but I really appreciate it. You're both lovely and I appreciate the support. I was just feeling a bit strange it gets that way at times but I'm much better now thank you.

Also I'm realizing that I've taken up way too much of this page so this will be my last post of the night sorry ^.^