^^ Exactly what Pluzzle said. If you don't reach out for help, things won't get better. People are there to help you, it's their job, it's what they do. yeah it
s not going to be easy, but I promise it will be worth it. if anything call an anonymous hotline maybe?

they all want me dead lol
listen i literally can trust 0 people

why did you stop? because it is destructive and awful for you. this pain you are feeling inside is real. you don't need to make any more for yourself. never for a second blame yourself, all right? i understand, it gives you temporary relief, but that kind of relief is not good for you.

does cutting help you? no. does it take away your problems? no. is it good for you? no. i'm going to ask again: does - it - help - you? no. you should not be doing things that won't help you, because you will only get worse, and you will never beat this the way you're going about it.

stormy, i can only help you so much, so it's up to you to help yourself. find relief and release in another way. get some sleep. rest. don't ever be hard on yourself.

why is that

This is for Graystorm and Meerkat

https://www.imalive.org/

It's like a suicide hotline, but through text. It's anonymous. You won't be risking anything if you try it.

I can't believe you're still here. I can't believe you're still trying to help. I'm sitting in the cafe at my school as everyone arrives from bus cause I get here early. Everyone is being greeted by their friends and I'm just sitting here scrunched up into my hoodie wanting to die. I hate life. I hate that my mom hated life. I hate myself.

Well you know what those people ignoring you kinda seem like assholes. Yeah, sometimes people suck and sometimes life sucks but there are also good things. There's hot tea and honey and foggy mornings and doodles. These things might not be enough to counter all the bad things, but they are a start. Also you're such a great person Stormy, you shouldn't hate yourself. Yeah, I know it sounds stupid, but I mean it 100%

I feel dull and tired and grey. At school it isn't bad but the second I get home my skin dampens and hardens into cardboard. Grey.

When I went to public school I would get headaches practically everyday...I know how you feel. Just relax before doing your homework; take a nap, watch TV etc until you feel ok again.
(Idk if this is what you mean.)

and i can't believe you'd think i'd be anywhere else. kid, i'm always going to be here. i'm always going to try to help. i'm going to do whatever i can, which isn't much, but if it means a lot to you, that's all that matters.

hey, it's okay not to have frens sometimes. it's the worst feeling in the world, but it's all right. if i was in that cafe, i'd rip your hoodie down and mess up your hair and hold your hands and get foods with you and make you laugh and talk to you about twenty one pilots and make you feel better. it actually physically hurts that i can't do that because i wish i could. is it all right if i pray for someone to do that for me?

sometimes i hate myself too. sometimes i can't stand to look in the mirror. i know what that's like. sometimes i feel ashamed that anyone's ever looked at me or talked to me or seen what i'm like. sometimes i can't bear to be in this town, to be with these people, to think "wow, this is how my teen years are going to be spent"... you're not alone. you won't always feel like that. i promise. someday you will wake up and realize you have everything you need and feel loved and alive and you will want to do everything. someday you will smile at the beautiful, adorable, perfect girl in the mirror. someday you will feel good about yourself, or at least like yourself a little bit.