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... Words cannot explain...
I don't know... I don't see my emotions as anything near as freaking awesomely creative as that... usually they're too quick/powerful for me to bother creating a scene for them, although I've made attempts. I used to imagine this greenish glass coke bottle with a bunch of glowing blubs of gaseous matter in it and those were my bad feelings, and although I was perfectly conscious that it was going to bite me in the end, whenever I would get angry at myself (I was a really self loathing kid... o_o I was constantly drawing and naturally I despised every single thing I ever created, so... one thing led to another and I was constantly in a bitter rage with myself) or my mom I would imagine myself stuffing it into the bottle. It helped so much, but it made me sad too... because I know that it was better to release them, not trap them... -_-
... YOUR TRAVELING LIFE...
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Um, I'm really sorry to say this but if your mother is one of the people who makes those trips possible, I must say that your hatred of her is unjustified... as it is for most people, but...
Whoa... Hong Kong... O_O Wait, what country/continent do you live on?
Um... although I may be the only one to say this, and I'm sorry if it's offensive but the quantities of GIFs you're using are really quite distracting... O_O XD
Oh, computers, you so inconvenient. On my dA journal a couple weeks ago I vented about this big mess I got into with iTunes... it wasn't fully downloading my songs/albums and they were all skipping horribly. Turns out, it happened to everyone who updated their iTunes/got the new update... all I had to do was redownload what I purchased, which was no problem, as long as iTunes didn't charge me AGAIN... (it did in a couple cases, which freaked me out... I had to check my mom's email every five minutes for the receipt so I could be the one to delete it AND YES IJUSTADMITTEDTOTHAT.)
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Sorry... X'D I couldn't resist...
(Oh lord... here comes a rant... it's probably been slapped onto this thread like five times already. -___- Sorry. Feel free to ignore. I'll make it small too... maybe then it will have less chances of offending people... (*is too Canadian for own good*)
Regretfully, I must make an objection... I'm a firm believer (and plus my momma raised me this way... TT_TT I'm sorry...) in coping with low-severity mental illness like depression without constantly pumping the powder from the boys in the lab through your liver and kidneys, and by using the chemical imbalance excuse, one begins to sound a lot like the smiling advertisements who stand before these white-coated boys. Not only are they a) horrible for your health, but they b) do more bad than good, which drug companies easily conceal, turning the flat-out suicide of volunteer human test subjects into "suicidal thoughts", utter rage into "irritability", so on, and in most cases do worse than placebos, but they also c) completely halt the natural stages of grief (if one is taking anti-depressants for something that will pass, like a death... meaning if you continue the antidepressants you may never move on and enjoy your life) and in the majority of cases, d) worsen the depression or make whoever's taking them feel "numb" or "hollow".
And I mean... the advertising campaign for anti-depressants... does it not seem a little bit wrong to anyone here? "Oh, honey, look at this commercial... say, can you pick me up some Prozac on your way to the store? This stuff looks good," could be said just as easily for prescription medication as easily as it could be said for Tide with bleach! The media is no place for a medication with such serious side effects as death!
And besides... how the freak can one possibly prove the existence of these "chemical imbalances"? Can you show me a picture of my serotonin imbalance please? Personally, it's going to take a lot more to convince me that imbalances have anything to do with depression just because "more people with "imbalances" seemed depressed to our "genius" shrinks than those who didn't!" Can I have a picture of anhedonia please? Or all the other crock that's being put in the DSMs? Oh, is this a picture of my imbalance? Nope, that's just an animation that we broadcast on cheesy commercials, brought to you by Chuck Testa.
Depression is not a thing that you can hold in your hands... so how can it be made better if you treat it by physically breaking into the brain's natural defenses against random foreign chemical alterations? God, the brain is just trying to do it's thing, leave the oversized pink walnut alone and stop drugging it up! If depression is felt on an emotional level, it should be treated with help that can be felt on that level instead! Get the person to a talk therapist; having someone actually listen can really help. And trust me, if you're an angsty teen who wants to set the world on fire, set YOURSELF on fire because you're so angry... perhaps a physical outlet would be worth considering? I used to be much, much worse than I ever was on here before I started being more active, and if I don't run, I fall right back into where I was before. Kids don't need drugs to stay happy.
(*sigh*) ... I'm sorry... it's just, there's so many misdiagnoses and so much corruption in that industry that it's hard to believe what's real anymore.
... Mind you, in the space between that paragraph and the one before it, my mom came in and yelled at my for ten whole minutes about how, after me being on the computer for forty five minutes, I was "no longer a part of the family" and was "holing myself up" and "secluding myself"...
What even...? This has gotta be the eleventh time she's given me that speech... and to make it even more confusing, she told me not to give out any personal information...!? Mom, I'm not seven, I know what I can and can't say! (*headdesk*) I'm pretty sure I've done a SOMEWHAT MEDIOCRE job as of yet, seeing as I haven't been brutally attacked or murdered by an internet stalker...
You know what, never mind, I take it all back. I need drugs to deal with these people. XD XD XD
