Originally Posted by Sandy (Post 340435)

For the mile run (here we call it the 1600m) my best time was 7:12, but that was last year and from there I've done a lot of training... dunno what this year's results will bring about. ._. My best for the beep test was 61, and at the end of both the beep test and the 1600 I was gagging, about to vomit everywhere. *_* I push myself pretty hard when I want to... My body is not naturally structured for running, though, and it took YEARS of training and frustration to even get that far. My shoulders are much wider than my hips and I naturally maintain upper body strength whereas, if I sit around, my legs will widdle down into nothings, so a) it's not easy on my diaphragm b) it's not easy on my knees, which are already weak in my genetics and c) eventually I'm going to have to stop and never pick up running again simply because of my bone:muscle ratio constantly pounding on my feet and knees. x_x It's quite complicated... I usually start with four miles at a set speed (I use the treadmill, so I go at 6 miles per hour, my top speed is 8 when I'm sprinting, 7 when I have a lot of energy, and 3 when I take a walking break) and just change the incline (my highest is 10 when I'm walking, 2-3 when I'm running and I'll reduce it to 0 if I'm tired or if it's the final fifteen minutes. :P)
Are you in elementary, middle, or high school? :P I\m in high school but I'm too terrified to join the running/track and field teams... ._. (*hides under a rock*)

Originally Posted by GabiDi (Post 340462)

@Pokey: I know, no one is forcing me to be friends with them... but here's something I didn't say...
MK and A used to be two of my BEST friends. We told each other everything. And they were both so shy! I mean, MK wouldn't even talk to a guy without blushing at the beginning of seventh grade. It's like... everything's changed. And I literally TOLD them that they were acting like... a bad word that I was annoyed enough to use, and they didn't even care... which is why I avoided them both for around 3 hours...still. :/
@Sandy: I know. MK has a super-big crush on this one guy, and one day she was dressed up for our middle school orientation, and her and Amanda saw the guy there... and he was like, "Amanda, where did you find her, on some Vegas street corner?" Because she really did look like it, she had this chunky metal necklace and short shorts and a neon lacy cropped shirt and dark makeup and stuff like that.
She just feels like she's prettier that way...but I have never even see a guy look more than a little confused at how she wasn't getting dress-coded. :I
Oh! Oh! And that one guy plays on the football team, and her and A dared all the football players to run through the sprinklers and he didn't want to, so she told him that if he did she would run through it in her bikini... he did... then she did... it's like, how far are you willing to go with this?!

Anyway.
/end-rant

Originally Posted by CACrools (Post 340326)

No you don't fail! For Petes sakes Calla you are one of the better writers on KP, and I love all of your stories!

Now feeling used, I can understand. If it's one person, maybe try to avoid them. If it's a group, also try to avoid them. Tell an adult about this, and hopefully it will help.

Can't make friends? Its okay, I only have three other friends, and I may not be going to the same high school as them. Trust me, it's going to be really tough to make friends (if you are shy that is, if you aren't, well, find someone who has some of the same interests as you).

Hope you feel better Calla, and know. YOU AREN'T A FAILURE. :D

Originally Posted by MaryElizabeth (Post 340332)

I just have this awful fear of death (and ironically, my favorite books of all time are the Harry Potter series.

I have the Catholic belief that I will go to heaven, but I still wonder--am I wrong? Is it just darkness when we die? Will I be staring at the inside of my eyelids for all eternity, thoughtless but conscious?

What about if I do go to heaven? What if there is some universe-shattering thing that dooms all of us, on Earth and off?

I just can't take it. I shouldn't be afraid, but I'm utterly paralyzed with fear.

Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 340486)

... Did I read what I thought I just read? #_#

Yes, it appears I did.

. . .

8^I *quietly takes a break from the venting thread*

Originally Posted by GabiDi (Post 340714)

I have a feeling that was inspired by my post... :I
I'll go delete it, actually.