The Writer's Block - Your emotional venting thread. I'll explain.

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Originally Posted by Jesse (Post 374234)

I'm tired of being the quiet, shy freak in the corner.

I don't hate anybody but myself.

Shut up and lift your head high.
You're awesome.

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Originally Posted by Jesse (Post 374234)

I'm tired of being the quiet, shy freak in the corner.

I don't hate anybody but myself.

But those are the best kinds of people : ) And you shouldn't hate yourself :O You are amazing, just like Maxi said. Lift your head high ^^

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Originally Posted by maxi (Post 374236)

Shut up and lift your head high.
You're awesome.

Thanks.

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Originally Posted by lvhamsters (Post 374238)

But those are the best kinds of people : ) And you shouldn't hate yourself :O You are amazing, just like Maxi said. Lift your head high ^^

1. That's what I used to tell myself. But it's honestly unbearable.

2. Thank you.

For those who wish me to elucidate, here's whats's happening right now.

I overheard my best friend say he hates me.

I now don't have a best friend.

I embarrassed myself in front of my math and gym class.

I'm being a jerk to everyone I know. As in, making them cry.

The meat of today, the main stuff, was pretty amazing. Really. But it's the random things, the space between spaces, those short periods between each event where I'm standing by myself, and wonder, does anyone even notice I'm standing here? Or care? I mean, I cling to the cool crowd and they accept me, but they don't actually care about me. They keep me there laughs, but they don't actually care about ME, as a person. No one, in fact, of the popular crowd that I leech onto, knows the last thing about me. So I sit there wondering why I even bother. And it really is these little moments, standing alone as people shove past me, not giving me a second glance, that turns what could've been a great day around.

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Originally Posted by BlueMi (Post 374243)

um... just asking, why not just hang out with people that actually care?

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Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 374245)

um... just asking, why not just hang out with people that actually care?

Okay. Because I want to look cool for my crush, I think. Also, I do it subconsciously. And also because only like two people actually know/like me.

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Originally Posted by DragonRider (Post 374078)

My eight year old sister tried to shove me in front of cars at least twice today.
Intentionally.
And I can't do anything because no-one ever believes me.

She really is a right jerk. First she accused you of pinching her when you didn't, and now this.

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Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 374101)

I feel like I should post on the thread 'cause this isn't dark.
Today has gone fairly well and I feel kind of happyish at the moment and I'm listening to awesome (unhappy, at the moment) music. ^.^

Tis the emotional venting thread. Happiness is an emotion.
Yay!

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Originally Posted by pluzzle (Post 374109)

O.o I don't feel like she cares anymore. :c

Wait, what?

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Originally Posted by HeatherB (Post 374125)

Good for you! :'D

today i just felt really alone and neglected and idk. and then at the end of the day i was happy for a few minutes or so but then at ex-day it just reached a low point and when i got home i tried to stab myself in the palm with my sharpened nail when i was writing but it didn't work and i tried to draw blood but i couldn't even break the skin and i wanted to break the skin. i still want to break the skin and i feel like a big hypocrite because i just helped a friend to try to stop cutting and i'm bringing her candy on Monday as a reward but i'm not cutting, not really, i just want to bleed...

I used to cut just because I wanted to bleed.

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Originally Posted by HeatherB (Post 374141)

i'll try
if you try

dear god my palm hurts
but still i haven't broken the skin goddammit
BREAK

It's hard to break the skin of your palm.

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Originally Posted by HeatherB (Post 374150)

I won't scratch. I won't scratch. I won't scratch. I won't I won't I won't.

goddammit why can't i listen to music when i need it jfc

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Originally Posted by HeatherB (Post 374162)

*le thinks you should thus try, according to the agreement*

eh. no. my dad would be like "but why must you listen to muuuuuuuusic it's just another m*******ing distraaaaaaaaaaction"

But you NEED a distraction.

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Originally Posted by HeatherB (Post 374201)

Hahaha I just thought of another thing that makes this year's 8th graders so effing different from last year's...
I don't think any of them were depressed in the slightest.
Or cut.
Or scratched.
Or were emotionless robots.
Or were bitches.

WELL THEN.

I'm going to write a book. It won't have a plot, climax, or ending, and it will have run on sentences and no punctuation. The shy girl will stay shy, and the guy will never notice the girl, and the bitchy girl will stay bitchy, and everyone'll die. The end.

Our lives much?

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Originally Posted by BlueMi (Post 374243)

Well, they're life's leftovers, going along with the crowd towards the trash. You can always be one of the main characters, all you have to do is be you. Ha, that sounded pathetic and weak. Well, look at me, nerd girl even without her glasses, weirdo who writes and finishes her homework two days early. Life is tough. So learn martial arts like I did, and beat the shit out of it.

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Originally Posted by pluzzle (Post 374253)

Well I said to her (the friend) if maybe we could talk more soon. And she's all, whatever... So I said maybe we could have a sleepover soon and she said, yeah maybe.

That doesn't sound like she's cares ;-;

Perhaps she was distracted by something else, or maybe she was thinking...? I often reply vaguely to people who interrupt my thinking.