The Writer's Block - Your emotional venting thread. I'll explain.

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Originally Posted by pluzzle (Post 396751)

F**k it.

I'm deleting my tumblr, Instagram, and all the other accounts I have except for Skype, email and kidpub. I have realised that if I hate people, and people hate me, why not cut ties with the world? And this will sound very strange, but have you ever wondered about being selectively mute? I have. I'm going to try it. It won't last long - I can tell - i just want t get a reaction for once.

Oh, and I am no longer "romantically linked" to this max guy. Basically, he's just going to be my friend and I am going to point it out.

When I told him about deleting my accounts, he said why. I said what I said about people,and he said what's the point of what? It was the perfect time to tell him I'd thought about suicide recently,but I didn't. He then said "having accounts?" And I said 'a little bit.i was leaning to something else but I'll tell you a different time. He said for me to tell him. I told him something subtle.. He caught on pretty quick,

So now I'm writing this in my ipad with my iPod on my stomach waiting for him to reply to what I said (a joke, to lighten my mood. Didn't work). I doubt he will ever say a word to me again... But for some strange reason that's okay.

Because I don't know if I want him to, sometimes.

F**k the world.. I want to be alone. Can't you see that, everyone? Can't you stop tormenting me into further misery for a couple of minutes while I wipe the tears away?

Stop...

Go to somewhere you can be alone as soon as you can. Crank up some music and let yourself cry. If you can't cry, just bury your head in your arms. Then concentrate on something you like to do with the music still on.

@Pluzzle and Ash: ;_; *hugs*
*about all I can manage in reply to EVT at the moment*

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Originally Posted by pluzzle (Post 396791)

http://www.health.qld.gov.au/rch/pro...nals/cymhs.asp

Revealing my state... Oh well. But that's a children mental health hospital.
please parents, notice and refer me please

i know I need help but I can't get it

*hugs again*
can you ask like a school counsellor to refer you to it?
please try your hardest to get help.

*hands ice cream and chocolate and Doctor Who to cheer you up* c:

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Originally Posted by pluzzle (Post 396765)

thanks... will do. Thanks for being there for me when I need someone, Lauren:)

I try :/ /hugs.

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Originally Posted by pluzzle (Post 396791)

Well, at least you're brave enough to admit that. I don't think most people would like to admit they need help and get what's better for them.

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Originally Posted by pluzzle (Post 396798)

I shall try in a month when school starts again c:

:) thank you :3

*hug*

A month? o_o
Oh, wait, it's summer in Australia, right? So, it's your summer holiday?

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Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 396742)

It's not that I don't get enough love, or don't have enough people who love me.
._.

It's the fact that the last person who stabbed me in the back somehow put a black hole in my heart. It sucks up and destroys most of the positive feelings I have before I can actually feel them. It seems to be a bottomless pit. I feel lonely all the time because of it.

It's not your fault I'm like this. Is it mine? I'm not sure. I hope not. But, I don't care who is to blame, really...I just want to get rid of this thing so I can stop feeling so darn lonely all the time. x_x *tries to hug my dog* *dog hates hugs and promptly starts growling* You're NOT helping. ._.

How do sad songs just FIND ME when I'm feeling sad? XD XD DX DX
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oI3KwdrUqGI

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Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 396812)

How do sad songs just FIND ME when I'm feeling sad? XD XD DX DX
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oI3KwdrUqGI

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B0En7JZ0KQc
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w3zcypsjO8o
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oMZ-Mok0vBQ

I stood up for a girl who was insulting my "friends" but my friends were insulting her back worse, and then I got hate from both sides in return. My best online friend...Reyna...she never truly cared about me, and I guess that's what hurts the most. For someone you loved (as a friend) to not care about you in the end...but I should have foreseen that. Whenever someone hurts me that I care about, I close my heart, in a sense. I become cold and a shadow, more bitter and afraid to love. Then i let my guard down and this happens.

i should really stop trusting so many people.

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Originally Posted by pluzzle (Post 396829)

D: *le not sure what to say* /hugs

Did you know Reyna, or was she purely online?

Don't worry.. We all feel hurt once in a while...okay that didn't sound right. But I think you get what I'm saying?

Once again, /hugs

You'll be okay :)

how do I give "advice" when I can't trust myself to say anything anymore

Online...and thanks. :)

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Originally Posted by pluzzle (Post 396834)

the one downside of going to that hospital would be when I went to school there would be rumours started primarily by my friends and I'd be labelled as insane and crazy (which is applicable)

but it could help you and that's what's important. eff whatever anyone thinks if they're not supportive—"those who matter don't mind, and those who mind don't matter."

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Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 396843)

but it could help you and that's what's important. eff whatever anyone thinks if they're not supportive—"those who matter don't mind, and those who mind don't matter."

Charlieissocoollike quote? (Or did someone say that before he did? XD)