MaryElizabeth |
01-11-2013 09:20 PM |
For once, I'm going to actually type out what I'm thinking on this thread. No punctuation, no back-spacing to make it more eloquent. I think all writers need to express how unhinged they are.
I just want to be a writer and write and make something meaningful. and i know that i cant because that happens to barely a handful of people and even though im good here at my shcool and i know im a really good writer but ill get out there and go to new york and ill try and realize that i cant do it and ill settle down and get a shitty job at an office and raise a kid and tell him that they have potential and their amazing but one day theyll end up like me and itll go on for generations until armageddon. and i really hate that idea and keep driving my thoughts away from it but i know in my heart its true. i dream and dream and turn back to logic and dream again and "write from what i know" but i cant do it knowing that ill never be more than "that smart girl". i love my life right now and im not being ungrateful because I FUCKING LOVE MY SCHOOL AND FRIENDS AND WRITING but i wish that i could have more hope like others do and know that ill do what i want one day BUT I KNOW I WONT.
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