do you ever find yourself thinking about how unfair it is that you apologize for everything, but then you realize almost everything awful is your fault.

it doesn't sound like things are even mostly your fault, from what i've heard from you.

it feels a lot like it

To say this... don't worry about your future, you're not there yet XD Where are you..? *looks around*
THE PREZENT, NO?? So focus on now, today will pass. We all have bad days, I have too, and it all seems like the world is going to explode into a million little peices because nothing is right. I will tell you now, it isn't. You have a lot on your plate, I understand, but the world is not going to rupture anytime soon. The thoughts get to you and you worry what will happen. Did I saw will?
Yes.
Fix what you can now, you will fix the problems about tommorow tommorow, eh? There is happiness in this world, its full of it. But sometimes life doesn't want you to believe it's there. Sometimes it wants you to look at your problems in black in white and ONLY focus on black. There is good in this world Calla, and it's worth fighting for, and ya I got that from LOTR, but that is besides the point. Celebrate life and it's goodness, don't mope on what concerns you.... some things we do need to fix and that is all responsibility but that doesn't mean we can't enjoy our blessings XD

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I am extremely arrogant and manipulative. I lose my temper at the drop of a hat and can't control my anger.
Anyone else deal with these problems?

Well, my New Year's resolution is to be less high-and-mighty, but I haven't made much progress. But, I used to get angry much more than I do now, but how I changed it was reminding myself to save fury for important occasions. Like if someone makes an ignorant and offensive comment, instead of yelling at them for not understanding a simple metaphor.

Yeah. I shouldn't fucking have to apologize for the music I like and the clothes I wear and the way I live my fucking life

I've finally realized why I'm so rude to people. Finally. If I keep myself from caring about people's reactions or feelings, I won't care about their opinions about me either. They won't be able to manipulate my actions and behavior like they used to. I NEED arrogance. I NEED to be rude to people. That's how I survive.

ANXIETY ANXIETY ANXIETY

D:

*squeezes eyes shut*