I'm now pondering whether I'm too hard/harsh on people :P Lots of people seem to be annoyed by me.

Depressed-ish
 

Ugh. D:

frusturation
 

URGH. I am so lazy about this... anyway, I want to publish Immortal Island book one this summer so I neeeed to edit it... but I'm SO lazy. And it's so frusturating, because I need to change basically everything because now I've developed their characters more... and they do things totally random and against their inborn characters in the first book! So I have to change those! URGH! I hate hate hate hate hate editing. Grrr.

I will guide you. ^__^ *guides Esther through magicful editing world*

Excluded, Jealous, Angry
 

For so many reasons...

Haha, riiiight... XD

Dramatic
 

Le My Chem...

Anyway... I feel oddly freaked out and angry at the world and I really have no idea. I need to stop thinking. Maybe listen to some happy music...

*le Ghost of You trance*

Nope, not gonna happen.

Upset..?
 

I'm probably an aspie. I'm too emotional, I can't look people in the eye, and I'm way too shy around strangers.
I can't make small talk either, and when I say something I think is funny no one gets it. :(
Also I hate my dad. He's a jerk without a hobby, unless you count criticizing everyone and being a hypocrite as a hobby.

I feel as if I don't belong. Like I need to leave. I hardly do anything, but I can't bring myself to leave forever. I'm hanging on to something that's on it's last thread............and I'm confused.

And nervous. And not sure who to believe anymore.

Sometimes I feel like I want there to be a hole to open up in front of me and swallow me. And I'll be safely tucked into my own little pit of darkness.
But it never happens.

Whenever I get nervous or slightly stressed over something, my limbs feel like jello and considerably weaker and tired even before I start to run.

And sometimes I feel like the world is small, empty, and horrid and I want to claw my eyes out somehow. I love it when it happens because that's the exact mood I need for writing.