| L.S.Trendom |
04-03-2013 05:49 PM |
okay so ugh.
on Friday my parents and I have an appointment with a therapist for me.
yay.
ugh.
I don't want to go, now that I'm not as bad as I was about a week ago… I don't feel comfortable with the thought of talking to a therapist. And I don't want to be fixed like that, I don't want to stop hating myself, I want to be a different person I can like better.
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Originally Posted by Lily09
(Post 446554)
But it's hard to work towards it when you have to bottle some parts up. The parts that are the most dangerous and lethal and the parts that are actually terrifying and the parts that cause that cause the flashbacks and the nightmares.
And I don't get how I can be happy if I can barely pass classes.
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*hugs* You don't have to bottle it up…
You'll manage it, someday.
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Originally Posted by Lily09
(Post 446894)
"Just watch. When you're older and in trouble, your friends won't be there. You'll need me."
I won't need you.
You say I never ask you for help, so I can't determine whether or not I trust you.
I don't need you.
You made cutting jokes, said I cut for attention.
You said that if someone is suicidal, they should just die.
You said I shouldn't talk too much about my beliefs because people will think of me as different. But isn't that the point? To be different and make a change?
And when I told you this, you told me, "You never care to look deeper. I'm caring and a better person than you think."
Can we take it back to summer of 2011?
Because that summer showed me you only care about yourself, you didn't care about me.
And I know people change, but with the words you say, I'm pretty sure you haven't changed.
I'm not sure if you ever cared about me.
Stop getting offended when I say I don't need you, and stop saying that my friends won't be there for me, because it's not true.
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*thumbs up of approval for you*
*hugs*
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Originally Posted by lvhamsters
(Post 446910)
I don't give a crap anymore. It bothers me and I don't want to care but I do. I'm just a forgotten person. I'm that on kid in the group who stands there awkwardly or when there's only room for two people on the sidewalk, I'm the one walking behind. I'm the one people ignore or the one who people don't care enough to become better friends with. I'm an acquaintance, only there when someone doesn't have anyone else to talk to. Nobody really cares. I'm just . . . . there. I don't mean anything to anyone. If I left it would take a couple days, even weeks, for people to start noticing. They could easily just dump me as a friend. 'Cause seriously, no one really cares about my feelings. I'm only there for people to vent to, to confide in, and then when they're done they just leave and don't talk for a while. They never ask how I'm doing, because they don't really care. I'm just not important enough. I'm a throwaway, a second choice. I grow sick of it, yet still put up with it, but it just keeps getting worse.
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You're not just a forgotten person D: And if I do ignore you, it's not on purpose… I'd like to get to know you better, you seem like a really awesome person, but you're not on KP a lot, so… :/
*hugs* you can vent with me if you want. And I do care. You are important.
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Originally Posted by pluzzle
(Post 446915)
So, here I am moping around, and I just got a new iPod.
I am an ungrateful spoilt brat.
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Noo, you aren't. Getting an iPod doesn't make your problems go away.
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Originally Posted by lvhamsters
(Post 447019)
I'm sick of it. I'm so fricking sick of it. I'm sick of my brother. He's told me to kill myself and he repeatedly says I don't have any friends. I'm so freaking sick of him. I don't know what to do. He won't stop saying it no matter what I say or what my parents say. They never even do anything about it. They're never home. They don't give a f***. I can't take it much longer.
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*punches your brother in the face for you* he's a f***ing asshole, and I'm sorry you have to deal with him. *hugs*
try to not even think about killing yourself, okay…?
You don't need him or your parents. *hugs* and you do have friends. *gestures at self and others on KP*
You can make it. |
