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Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 452996)

im constantly stuck between 'please dont go i need you here' and 'ugh shut the fuck up lily youre a selfish bitch'

/hugs/

You're not selfish. And definitely not a bitch. Everyone wants love.

Music, tumblr, and a whole lot of shittiness.
Wonderful.

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Originally Posted by HeatherB (Post 452866)

if you can't forgive yourself, at least let it ebb away to the point where you can forget the need to forgive.
i should probably write that in better english, but i think you get the point.
*hugs*

thank you *bows*

yeah. she basically told me that i wasn't REALLY depressed and started reading the symptoms of depression out of af UCKING THERAPY BOOK to me and she's like "if you don't have these ALL THE TIME then you are not really depressed" and it's just,w ell, even if it's not all the time it's still THERE, lurking and waiting for me to fall down so it can kick me again and again and again and i still haven't told her about becca and monica and hedge ;ahgdssa;gh. apparently i still can't talk about this without wanting to rip off someone's face, but you get the point.
direct quote: "well, honey, maybe you're not depressed. maybe you're just sad."
and she goes on to say, "what are you sad about? hmmmm? i know you know." and of course, i can't tell her that i'm just depressed, because she won't fucking believe me. so i say "i'm sad because i don't know what's making me sad" at least not anymore i don't because i am apparently not fucking depressed according to her and she goes "no you do you just won't tell me *sigh*"
okay can i just punch soething now

Yes. Punch your therapist.

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Originally Posted by BearWithAStrawberry (Post 452872)

MY CATERpillars DieD TOday
(i don't draw butterflies)
DIED TODAY.
leTS Hold a FUNEral!

NO.

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Originally Posted by pluzzle (Post 453012)

okAY SO SINCE WHEN IS IT OKAY TO TELL YOUR KID TO KILL THEMSELVES

like
i'm your child seriously NO

O_o
Ignore him. He isn't worth your attention.

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Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 452996)

im constantly stuck between 'please dont go i need you here' and 'ugh shut the fuck up lily youre a selfish bitch'

*hugs* You are not at all a bitch or selfish. It's okay if you want someone to stay and talk to you.
And, next time, please tell me, okay? :/ You wouldn't annoy me at all by asking me to stay up with you.

I sometimes just wish I could pluck up the courage to find a confidant. I'm a person who loves to talk; I always need to get my opinion in. I spill people's secrets ._. talk about anything that define my exterior personality that is in some aspects the same as my internal one: writing, apathy (I'm not really apathetic, though), gore-loving, hyper, running, reading, unicorns..but if anyone asks me whether I have a goddess (yesish) I shut up like a clam. I can't bring myself to trust people IRL so I can't confide to friends I know, people think I never get offended and think it's an achievement to offend me because I never seem to take things seriously...I wish I could just open up.

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Originally Posted by pluzzle (Post 453012)

okAY SO SINCE WHEN IS IT OKAY TO TELL YOUR KID TO KILL THEMSELVES

like
i'm your child seriously NO

When did this happen?

Message to pluzzle's parents: You have mastered the art of talking with your heads shoved up your backsides. It will need surgery to remove it again. In the meantime you are bound to run out of oxygen.

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Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 452996)

im constantly stuck between 'please dont go i need you here' and 'ugh shut the fuck up lily youre a selfish bitch'

You're not a bitch. They call you that because they don't really know you. You feel closer with Isaac than most people around you, right? That's because you share the same emotions, can relate, help each other, and even sharing the same interests helps you to connect better. You can be completely honest and be who you are with no filter with people like Isaac and Emma and Garance. That's why they can see that you are an amazing person and will never deserve any of the shit you're going through. As long as those things are happening in reality, just listen to music, watch your favorite shows, and find a way to escape. It'll be okay.

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Originally Posted by pluzzle (Post 453012)

okAY SO SINCE WHEN IS IT OKAY TO TELL YOUR KID TO KILL THEMSELVES

like
i'm your child seriously NO

I'm so sorry. You don't deserve that. I just hope you know that you don't have to love your family. You can find a real family, regardless of blood relation. You don't need that kind of thing in your life. Until you can really get away, just try and pull through.

I was thinking too much last night. I couldn't calm down, and I kept thinking I was crazy, so I went downstairs, grabbed a knife, and sat on the floor of the bathroom. I had only used stupid forks before, but then I used a steak knife. I didn't feel like I could stop myself. I know I shouldn't have. I'm trying the Butterfly Project now. I have three ones on my hand, for my mom and my sisters. I think it will help. I just have to try.

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Originally Posted by MaryElizabeth (Post 453046)

*hugs* Yes, do the Butterfly Project.
Another thing you can do is make a paper chain. Each day that you don't self-harm, put a colourful chain link on the chain; when you do self-harm, those days, instead put a white chain link.
Or you could also do, like, a bead necklace. Each day you don't self-harm, add a bead. If you do self-harm, take the beads off. Or you could combine them.
*hugs again*