I haven't been on Kidpub in a long time because I've been thinking about a lot of things, mostly my emotions and the world around me.
I've read some of the things on here and I can't say that I'm shocked or disturbed, because I'm not. Unfortunately, a lot of us have found common ground on rather morbid issues; depression, self harm, eating disorders, and other mental problems. Rather sad that people go through that.
I know that my words probably won't mean anything to you, but I just wanted to say that none of you are alone. None of you will ever be alone as long as I'm here. There are over seven billion people on this planet. You're never alone, for anything.
You don't need to cut yourselves or scratch yourselves, or take a flame to your skin. You don't need to, but you do it anyway because you're angry and sad but numb at the same time, and half the time you don't even know why you're doing it anyway. I don't want you to hurt yourselves anymore. I don't ever want to see a cut on anyone's arm ever again. I think you subconsciously know that physical pain doesn't make mental pain go away, but you don't know what else to do. Everyone has their own scars, and you shouldn't be ashamed of your past, but inflicting more and more wounds on yourself will just wear you down to the bone. If I could take away the hurt you're feeling, I would.
I'm watching a lot of you fall into really deep pits of depression, and I don't know what to do to pull you out. Not that my concern would matter, considering I'm an idiot on the internet, but I don't want to watch people just shut down. I've interacted with a lot of you, and I know that you're all strong people. You're all fucking strong and I want you to know that. I want you to know that you're all really brave people and that you can all make it and that if anyone tells you otherwise, you should punch them in the face and then proceed to not give a damn about their opinion. I know what it's like to be sad and empty inside and feel like you're all alone, but you don't deserve to feel that way. I want you to talk to someone and get some sort of help. Sometimes getting help is the bravest thing you can do.
I'm watching a lot of you go hungry, too. Please eat. Forget about those stupid models in the magazines, and stop comparing yourself to other girls and boys you see out in public. There is absolutely nothing wrong with not being skinny, and there's nothing wrong with being naturally slim. So what if you don't have a flat stomach? Who cares if you aren't extremely muscular? That doesn't make you ugly or less of a person. That makes you, you. I think you're an amazing person, because you fucking are. Don't change your appearance to please other people, because you'll never be satisfied (the media is bullshit: completely disregard it).
You are brave, intelligent, clever, and beautiful. Every single one of you. Every member on Kidpub is an amazing person, and none of you deserve the self-hate you are giving yourselves. Just thought I'd inform you of how fucking great you are.
|
