Go to somewhere you can be alone as soon as you can. Crank up some music and let yourself cry. If you can't cry, just bury your head in your arms. Then concentrate on something you like to do with the music still on.

@Pluzzle and Ash: ;_; *hugs*
*about all I can manage in reply to EVT at the moment*

*hugs again*
can you ask like a school counsellor to refer you to it?
please try your hardest to get help.

*hands ice cream and chocolate and Doctor Who to cheer you up* c:

I try :/ /hugs.
Well, at least you're brave enough to admit that. I don't think most people would like to admit they need help and get what's better for them.

A month? o_o
Oh, wait, it's summer in Australia, right? So, it's your summer holiday?

How do sad songs just FIND ME when I'm feeling sad? XD XD DX DX
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oI3KwdrUqGI

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B0En7JZ0KQc
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w3zcypsjO8o
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oMZ-Mok0vBQ

I stood up for a girl who was insulting my "friends" but my friends were insulting her back worse, and then I got hate from both sides in return. My best online friend...Reyna...she never truly cared about me, and I guess that's what hurts the most. For someone you loved (as a friend) to not care about you in the end...but I should have foreseen that. Whenever someone hurts me that I care about, I close my heart, in a sense. I become cold and a shadow, more bitter and afraid to love. Then i let my guard down and this happens.

i should really stop trusting so many people.

Online...and thanks. :)

but it could help you and that's what's important. eff whatever anyone thinks if they're not supportive—"those who matter don't mind, and those who mind don't matter."

Charlieissocoollike quote? (Or did someone say that before he did? XD)

It's from Doctor Seuss xD

I missed all the debate about schools...I hate my school. The people freak me out, when I just want to be left alone. My best friend might be leaving. The only other person I could rely on is a borderline sociopath. We can't afford any private schools, unlike my friend who will be attending some girls school after she leaves. I just cannot go through exams. I hate thinking about the future, because it makes me feel helpless. I just want to get out, but it's a good school, I'm enjoying some lessons, such as drama (and I don't want to quit drama), and so far they have been supportive - except when they put me in isolation and I have more fun than I do normally. Think about it, idiots! I have Asperger's, therefore I dislike people, therefore I enjoy isolation.

I wish there was a school better for me that we could afford, but there isn't.

I did that once...when I was five years old, about six years before diagnosis, whilst I was still a nice sociable child (which kind of died when I turned out to be such an odd creature)...

I was...I used to join in, but people realised I was a bit odd and I became abandoned. I gave up with people a long time ago.

Wait, what?

Is that why people do the white writing thing.

:( I know how you feel, but don't think about suicide or self harm. There's lots of things that will be better in the future :) Just think about it. I know, it sounds like bull, and I'm not exactly the right person to say this, but . . . . It's quite true.

Ah. Never knew that until now!

Who You Are! /points at your sig.
I don't get why people think clever is bad. People point that out at my school in a somewhat taunting way because I can be somewhat tedious when I correct someone's grammar during their own PowerPoint presentations, but they don't bully me.

Clever is amazingly awesome because...it is.

Indeed. Explanation unneeded.

There is no explanation. It just is.

Hey, does anyone want to apply to Interlochen's summer creative writing class with me??? :D It would be awesome if we could go together :):)

I just realized.

Interlochen, for boarding students, is $70,000.

Per year.

? I thought it was like 40,000-something....

I'm really proud of myself. :) One of my New Years Resolutions was to lose weight. I pretty much want a flat stomach, though. I've already lost four inches off my waist. I've been exercising daily, too, doing crunches and sit ups and a bunch of other stuff. ^_^ I mean, I don't want to be a stick or anything. xD My goal weight is 120 pounds...so I have fourteen pounds to lose. :/ I'm doing weekly weigh ins to make myself really try hard to lose the weight. :D

Still wanna do the exercise thing with me? :D I did flying trapeze today, which is a work out haha. But we could write up like five things to do daily, and every couple days we can post a pic and tag each other to check in. :P

I blogged a lot today! My fingers are sore now. xD
I know what it's like to want to be alone. My parents could never, ever understand just WHY I'm so addicted to the computer and the Internet--it's the only place where I feel safe, and am allowed to be me. I've gone mute a few times, and it's actually kind of nice. You don't have to talk to anyone, you don't even have to be noticed... Sometimes, when I don't like being me, I'll pretend I'm five years old, and rediscovering the world again. I'll pretend I'm someone else entirely. That's why I like acting. You don't have to be yourself, and you don't even have to live in this f---ed up world. And writing, you can create your own worlds, where it's safe, and okay. So that's what I can advise you to do. Write, or even if you're not writing, just imagine the world you'd like to be in, the world you'd like to see. Imagine the corniest, most cliche things--it doesn't matter if they're unicorns pooping rainbows or a haven behind a waterfall, whatever makes you feel safe is okay. Make a little world of your own and give it a name, and anytime someone says or does something to you or the world gives you yet another burden to carry on your back, think of the name of your world. That's what I do sometimes, when things get really rough. Just make yourself a safe place in you and you can go there anytime you want. Stay strong, hon. :')

@LST: *hugs*

My eyes bugged out at the price XDDDD

i can't explain why, don't really understand the feeling, but it feels terrible.... I feel like a load of crap.

Wednesday, Wednesday, Wednesday...how I hate thee. x_x *sits down in a corner* *curls up into a ball* I just want to disappear on Wednesdays...

I used to hate Wednesdays too. I still kind of do. Mondays and Wednesdays.

.....wow, #reallywantstoescape

What would we post a pic of, though? XD

What's wrong? DX

Thanks for replying.... first thing to say because no one ever does XD Just story stuff is making me terrible, and this website. i think I really need a break because it's tearing me apart. It's like I am running into the pit where I get torna nd then come back sobbing but then run back in again, not really knowing why.....*le rant*

Uhmmm... your sweaty self? (hahahaha ew)
I dunno. :P

o3o No problem.
Hm.... story stuff? What do you mean by that? D: ~confusion~

me and a friend, I felt like our story was going to end... we were on a rollar coaster for months and then it suddenly died, now its back plotting some more, but things arent the same. I am not quite sure if she even wants to do it or not. I ask her and she never eally answers and exact yes or no... which proabaly means no but she can't face telling me...... that is just a deep deep terrible thought that occured and I want to shake off.

Ohhh.... hm.... maybe you can talk to her about it, like you said you have, but ask her if she sincerely means it and to not be afraid to tell the truth. Or maybe she just needs a little break from the book. It's hard to tell without their opinion :3