Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 436417)

*thumbs up for Lvhamsters*

Originally Posted by avbhabra (Post 436429)

It's 'Lvhamsters'??? I thought it was 'Ivhamsters'. Wow. Epic fail on my part. xD

Originally Posted by lvhamsters (Post 436449)

Yeahh.... I should've made that more clear O.o I wish I could change my username XDD

Originally Posted by maxi (Post 436524)

i didn't even know--
you told them and then you just wooshed off--
why the heck did you just leave me and never want to--
i'm not sure if i can--
this is JUST stupid--i want you back i want you back i want you back i want you back i want you back i want you back i want you back I WANT YOU BACK--
why did you just leave me
after all our experiences
after all of this
why?
whhhhyyyy?
WHY
WHAT
THE
HECK--

Originally Posted by EmmaR (Post 436527)

Aw, what's wrong, Max?
I don't want to do my math homework so I can talk if you need it.

Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 435584)

It's not even 10:00 A.M. and today is ALREADY the strangest day I've had in 2013 so far.

o____o

Originally Posted by maxi (Post 436529)

pokey.
she left kidpub.
i was her friend for three years
WHAT THE HELL

Originally Posted by pluzzle (Post 436580)

what happened?!?!

D:

Originally Posted by pluzzle (Post 436585)

pfft something did happen.

Originally Posted by maxi (Post 436566)

Originally Posted by maxi (Post 436582)

nothinnnng... >.>

Originally Posted by pluzzle (Post 436589)

yah sure

i just want to haallppp

Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 436604)

D: Maaaaaax!!! Come on, something DID happen. What is it? Is there anything we can do to help?

Originally Posted by maxi (Post 436606)

Pokey left.
She was my friend for three years.
Nobody told me that she was leaving and I just found out.
Today.
...

Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 436608)

I just found out today, too. ._.

I was never really close to her, but I still loved her writing and liked talking to her, and it killed me to see her upset. I didn't think she told anyone she was thinking about leaving. She just sorta...left. x_x

Don't worry, Max, maybe we can get her to come back. <:^J

Originally Posted by maxi (Post 436609)

And there is also something else...I think you know but I am not sure. :P She isn't going to come back, I don't think she ever will. She seemed really serious about it as...well. ._____.

Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 436612)

What is it? D:

A lot have KPers have seemed serious but then came back soon after they said they were quitting. <:^J Camille and Sandy did that, just to give a couple examples.

Originally Posted by maxi (Post 436615)

D: Someone harshly told me insults about my work...

Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 436618)

D: Whaaaaaaat? Who did?! >:| What is this nonsense?

Originally Posted by maxi (Post 436623)

Wellllll.....through email. D:

Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 436625)

Send me a note, then.

Originally Posted by maxi (Post 436627)

Ash—he said it—it insulted me and I blocked him. I'm over it.

Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 436625)

Send me a note, then.
...Wait, do you mean someone was rude to you in an email, or that you'd rather tell me about it in an email/note?

Originally Posted by EmmaR (Post 436545)

I know, me too. I'm sorry. I dunno what to do about it. Maybe she'll come back. Hopefully Heather and Soph with convince her to stay...?

Originally Posted by lvhamsters (Post 436449)

Yeahh.... I should've made that more clear O.o I wish I could change my username XDD

Originally Posted by HeatherB (Post 436837)

Sorry for disappointing you in advance.

Same. SAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAME.

Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 436871)

Sometimes I feel like I feel too okay. Not that I am okay, I'm not at all okay, there's only been maybe one time when I think I was ever actually okay, and feeling okay is part of the not being okay thing. But, despite that… sometimes I feel something like okay, just floating in a sea of apathy/numbness and when i say i'm okay that's pretty much what i mean, how much i hate myself and how much of a f***ed up empty s**t i am isn't in the forefront of my mind, i'm capable of thinking about other things for now.
But it's always there, underneath.

(and idk if I feel okay now, like half an hour ago i was tired, emotionally, and… idk)

Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 436871)

Sometimes I feel like I feel too okay. Not that I am okay, I'm not at all okay, there's only been maybe one time when I think I was ever actually okay, and feeling okay is part of the not being okay thing. But, despite that… sometimes I feel something like okay, just floating in a sea of apathy/numbness and when i say i'm okay that's pretty much what i mean, how much i hate myself and how much of a f***ed up empty s**t i am isn't in the forefront of my mind, i'm capable of thinking about other things for now.
But it's always there, underneath.

(and idk if I feel okay now, like half an hour ago i was tired, emotionally, and… idk)

Originally Posted by cheezemziez (Post 436892)

I'm not exactly sure what you mean. But you are definitely not a f***ed up empty s**t. You are amazing and awesome and epyk and a million other positive things. You shouldn't hate all that. Everyone has flaws. At least being ignorant of them isn't one of yours. You are going to be okay. It will take time, but one day you'll have dealt with these flaws. It is possible. We're here for you, if you ever need us.

Originally Posted by avbhabra (Post 436895)

Dude. You are the probably the most awesome person I've ever met on WB. xD Maybe you should just rest a bit, you know, it might make you feel a bit better. Play a sport or write something. You're strong; you'll be fine. xD *hugs*

Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 436904)

About the feeling okay part? Like… I feel sort of okay, even though I'm not okay. Like you could have a leg amputated, but have a lot of anaesthesia and feel just fine.
I am a f***ed up empty s**t. The f***ed up part isn't really debatable, it's a fact to me
hopefully…
thanks

ahaha nope. Resting wouldn't help, it never really goes away. And, no, I'm not strong. But thanks.

Originally Posted by soph-soph27 (Post 436866)

Heather and Soph are kind of out of business. *laughs bitterly*

Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 436871)

Sometimes I feel like I feel too okay. Not that I am okay, I'm not at all okay, there's only been maybe one time when I think I was ever actually okay, and feeling okay is part of the not being okay thing. But, despite that… sometimes I feel something like okay, just floating in a sea of apathy/numbness and when i say i'm okay that's pretty much what i mean, how much i hate myself and how much of a f***ed up empty s**t i am isn't in the forefront of my mind, i'm capable of thinking about other things for now.
But it's always there, underneath.

(and idk if I feel okay now, like half an hour ago i was tired, emotionally, and… idk)

Originally Posted by HeatherB (Post 436907)

Oh, yes. *joins in the bitter laughing*

I don't get that feeling often, or if I do, I wouldn't describe it as 'too okay,' but, the 'capable of thinking about other things for now' part, yeah, I know. And I also know, 'it's always there, underneath.' It's kind of like, your life moves on and all, but the consistently jarring thing about it is the irony that even though you're doing this and you're really all right, the depression's always there like an ocean or some metaphorical shit that I can't think of right now, but like, endless and flowing and not always demanding your attention but when it wants your attention it GETS IT and the waves crash on your head and pull you under and your boat sinks for a little but it persists and you float for long periods of time. And yet the ocean's always underneath you. Correct me if I'm wrong, I'm just trying to get this to... like... I don't even know, but yeah.

Originally Posted by BearWithAStrawberry (Post 436930)

hahahahahahahahaha
die
die
die
die
watch me
die

Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 436904)

About the feeling okay part? Like… I feel sort of okay, even though I'm not okay. Like you could have a leg amputated, but have a lot of anaesthesia and feel just fine.
I am a f***ed up empty s**t. The f***ed up part isn't really debatable, it's a fact to me
hopefully…
thanks

Originally Posted by avbhabra (Post 436942)

My...throat...hurts...so...much... D:

Originally Posted by HeatherB (Post 436907)

Oh, yes. *joins in the bitter laughing*

I don't get that feeling often, or if I do, I wouldn't describe it as 'too okay,' but, the 'capable of thinking about other things for now' part, yeah, I know. And I also know, 'it's always there, underneath.' It's kind of like, your life moves on and all, but the consistently jarring thing about it is the irony that even though you're doing this and you're really all right, the depression's always there like an ocean or some metaphorical shit that I can't think of right now, but like, endless and flowing and not always demanding your attention but when it wants your attention it GETS IT and the waves crash on your head and pull you under and your boat sinks for a little but it persists and you float for long periods of time. And yet the ocean's always underneath you. Correct me if I'm wrong, I'm just trying to get this to... like... I don't even know, but yeah.

Originally Posted by cheezemziez (Post 436941)

icic
Well, that's a start. Even if you are f***ed up (you're not) it can be overcome. You don't have to be forever.
Definitely. I believe in you.