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TheAshWolf 05-22-2013 06:36 PM

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Originally Posted by Sandy (Post 460555)
Once again, I feel absolutely crazy.
Okay, first of all, are there any KPers who have ever experienced mania or hypomania or ANYTHING like that who might be able to help me out here?
I've been on the manic side for a good couple months now, shifting occasionally to being "normal", but I just went through this really low week or so, and now what I can only assume is mania is hitting me really hard.
I can hear myself talking in my head, amid my thoughts--I hear voices, like they're echoing in my head, whispering words but nothing totally coherent. I've been suspended in this trance of anxiety for about three days now, constantly on the verge of throwing up from being so hyper. I don't actually walk around my house anymore, I SPRINT from room to room for no good reason. The worst part is when I try to talk, I BABBLE--like not the Kidpub definition of "ramble" but legitimate babbling, desperately stringing sentences together at warp speed--and my mom has even told me that I appear to be thinking at the speed of light. I feel like I'm moving on a different frequency or something, I'm terrified yet confident and hyper yet so, so EXHAUSTED at the same time. At first it was kind of funny, but now I'm scared. I feel like I need to get out of my head. I feel like I'm on crack or something, hyper and unable to relax, desperate to be productive yet unable to sort my thoughts enough to get anything done--I'm SHAKING. I have the worst tension headache right now, too...
I'm really nauseous... I just really hope I can make it until the end of June without breaking down. Oh god... Okay, I'm done.
Any advice on how to deal with this would be greatly appreciated. I only attended half of a school day today in the hopes that it would help, but it hasn't done anything.

I'm sorry, Sandy. :( *huggles* You don't deserve to go through any of this.

In short, I think you're overstressed. Way, wayyyy overstressed. You need to sleep, Sandy. Go to bed an hour earlier tonight. Try to limit your coffee intake a little bit, maybe two or three cups less than usual. How much have you been eating, lately? If you haven't been eating much, eat more. But above all, Sandy, you need to sit back, and try to RELAX. Watch TV. Listen to music. Don't write, don't draw, don't do homework. <:^J Maybe take a nap. Even if you can't fall asleep, just lie down for a bit. Just...try to...slow....down.

You'll feel a lot less anxious once school is over, though. Don't worry. Then the bulk of your stress will be gone. Until then, just try to take care of yourself, okay? Homework comes second, your well-being comes first. *hugs again*

SeptemberLove 05-22-2013 07:17 PM

I don't even know what to say. I can't go through a day without contemplating suicide. Nothing is fun anymore. My dad notices and asks me what's wrong but I have no idea how to talk to him.

SeptemberLove 05-22-2013 07:19 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 460575)
I'm sorry, Sandy. :( *huggles* You don't deserve to go through any of this.

In short, I think you're overstressed. Way, wayyyy overstressed. You need to sleep, Sandy. Go to bed an hour earlier tonight. Try to limit your coffee intake a little bit, maybe two or three cups less than usual. How much have you been eating, lately? If you haven't been eating much, eat more. But above all, Sandy, you need to sit back, and try to RELAX. Watch TV. Listen to music. Don't write, don't draw, don't do homework. <:^J Maybe take a nap. Even if you can't fall asleep, just lie down for a bit. Just...try to...slow....down.

You'll feel a lot less anxious once school is over, though. Don't worry. Then the bulk of your stress will be gone. Until then, just try to take care of yourself, okay? Homework comes second, your well-being comes first. *hugs again*

You're amazing.

SeptemberLove 05-22-2013 07:20 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Sandy (Post 460555)
Once again, I feel absolutely crazy.
Okay, first of all, are there any KPers who have ever experienced mania or hypomania or ANYTHING like that who might be able to help me out here?
I've been on the manic side for a good couple months now, shifting occasionally to being "normal", but I just went through this really low week or so, and now what I can only assume is mania is hitting me really hard.
I can hear myself talking in my head, amid my thoughts--I hear voices, like they're echoing in my head, whispering words but nothing totally coherent. I've been suspended in this trance of anxiety for about three days now, constantly on the verge of throwing up from being so hyper. I don't actually walk around my house anymore, I SPRINT from room to room for no good reason. The worst part is when I try to talk, I BABBLE--like not the Kidpub definition of "ramble" but legitimate babbling, desperately stringing sentences together at warp speed--and my mom has even told me that I appear to be thinking at the speed of light. I feel like I'm moving on a different frequency or something, I'm terrified yet confident and hyper yet so, so EXHAUSTED at the same time. At first it was kind of funny, but now I'm scared. I feel like I need to get out of my head. I feel like I'm on crack or something, hyper and unable to relax, desperate to be productive yet unable to sort my thoughts enough to get anything done--I'm SHAKING. I have the worst tension headache right now, too...
I'm really nauseous... I just really hope I can make it until the end of June without breaking down. Oh god... Okay, I'm done.
Any advice on how to deal with this would be greatly appreciated. I only attended half of a school day today in the hopes that it would help, but it hasn't done anything.

Like Ash said, get some sleep and make it through the school year. You can do it.

Confuzzled 05-22-2013 08:57 PM

Wow. Still, so many people are sad.

TheAshWolf 05-23-2013 02:57 AM

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Originally Posted by SeptemberLove (Post 460581)
You're amazing.

...Wait, I'M amazing? o_0 *confusion* You mean Sandy's amazing. Right? I mean, who else can be in the IB program and keep up with all these projects while writing and drawing amazingly while still remaining one of the top students in her class? ^_^ THAT'S amazing.

Also that's why she needs to get more sleep. :( *gives Sandy a blanket and a pillow* You need to recharge your batteries, girl...

TheAshWolf 05-23-2013 03:02 AM

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Originally Posted by SeptemberLove (Post 460579)
I don't even know what to say. I can't go through a day without contemplating suicide. Nothing is fun anymore. My dad notices and asks me what's wrong but I have no idea how to talk to him.

Don't be afraid to open up to him. I don't know your family situation, but...he's still your father, right? He's asking you what's wrong. He's showing concern, isn't he? <:^) Just tell him how you've been feeling. Vent with him.

Life is worth living, hon. Even if the present seems boring or stressful, you have plenty of memories to look back on, don't you? Plus you can still enjoy the things in life a lot of people overlook--music, the ability to read and write, food that's not only nutritious but also delicious, color, general sight and sound, etc.

TheAshWolf 05-23-2013 03:36 AM

Ever have one of those days when things are going good, and then something comes out of nowhere and knocks you off balance?

Yeah. Had one of those days.

Felt like this:

http://media.tumblr.com/c7230a9815dd...4hn1qz4rgp.gif

evasong 05-23-2013 05:13 AM

Don't worry, Ash. Things'll get better. :)

Feeling guilty at the moment because I was so wrapped up in my own self-pity that I just found out a little eight-year old at my school has been fighting cancer since she was three years old. I guess someone's always worse off than me. Time to give her a big hug and put about ten dollars in her fundraiser tomorrow, it's not much but it's something, I suppose.

evasong 05-23-2013 05:39 AM

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Originally Posted by pluzzle (Post 460664)
;_; Those days suck. It'll be okay.

Don't feel guilty.
Aw. Poor girl. Give her a hug for me (:


-

I just feel so ignored. And I wish someone would ask me if I'm okay, because newsflash, I'm not. I wish someone would notice me.
I seems like I can't go 10 minutes without wanting to kill myself.
And to top it all off I feel like crap because everyone has it worse.
Oh, and my mum isn't home yet, but she called over an hour ago to say she was coming home. I'm really worried ;_;
I'm having a lovely day. -_-

Will do. :) Not okay. You being not okay is not okay. You must be okay and I can't do much to help, I'm sorry, but I'll tell you one thing. Stick at it because one day you will move to this great big city or a tiny farm town, and you'll know lots of people and every single one will know you like the back of their hand and know when you are upset. But more than often you won't be upset because you'll have surrounded yourself with people you adore and love. And your mum will be home soon. Parents always find their children in the end.

maxi 05-23-2013 06:17 AM

Ugh.
I want to be in a hole forever.

evasong 05-23-2013 06:27 AM

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Originally Posted by maxi (Post 460668)
Ugh.
I want to be in a hole forever.

https://encrypted-tbn2.gstatic.com/i...uNR1PHuBXVbYrq

maxi 05-23-2013 06:31 AM

Yes.
Yes.
YES...

bookworm1999 05-23-2013 06:54 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 460651)
Ever have one of those days when things are going good, and then something comes out of nowhere and knocks you off balance?

Yeah. Had one of those days.

Felt like this:

http://media.tumblr.com/c7230a9815dd...4hn1qz4rgp.gif

*Pats back and hands taco*

But you survived... because you're strong and too unable to destroy ;) Know why? You're too untouchable and awesome XD

bookworm1999 05-23-2013 06:54 AM

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Originally Posted by maxi (Post 460670)
Yes.
Yes.
YES...

*eyes twitch*

*straps down and ties up*

Nope. You stay here.

evasong 05-23-2013 07:12 AM

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Originally Posted by bookworm1999 (Post 460673)
*eyes twitch*

*straps down and ties up*

Nope. You stay here.

http://img.pandawhale.com/29574-Cat-...e-gif-uSc2.gif

Thank you.

Max, you can never trap yourself in a hole. Know why? 'Cause we'll be here to lend a hand, every. Single. Time.

bookworm1999 05-23-2013 07:48 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by evasong (Post 460675)
http://img.pandawhale.com/29574-Cat-...e-gif-uSc2.gif

Thank you.

Max, you can never trap yourself in a hole. Know why? 'Cause we'll be here to lend a hand, every. Single. Time.

*bows*

Any day.

Sandy 05-23-2013 07:51 AM

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Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 460639)
...Wait, I'M amazing? o_0 *confusion* You mean Sandy's amazing. Right? I mean, who else can be in the IB program and keep up with all these projects while writing and drawing amazingly while still remaining one of the top students in her class? ^_^ THAT'S amazing.

Also that's why she needs to get more sleep. :( *gives Sandy a blanket and a pillow* You need to recharge your batteries, girl...

Oh man. Blkjasdljlkdsa. (*has lost ability to communicate*) (*begins burbling random gibberish about my science teacher openly admitting that we're not even SUPPOSED to be studying quantum physics, yet he wanted us to give the class some kind of "introduction" to it and NO ONE EVEN KNOWS WHAT THE WORD "QUANTUM" IS, they think it's some kind of weird religion or something... *sobs* TEACHERS Y U SO SADISTIC*) (*vomits from anxiety*) I barely even know what I'm anxious about... ;___; aksjdhklasdhsjka
I don't even know how my marks work, honestly. I could've sworn I was failing Geography, and I don't even understand how I got 96 in Science last semester, like, WE DON'T EVEN HAND ANYTHING IN!! (*screams*) (*saws face off*)

Sorry. Okay. Self... STOP.
Time to rehearse my project.

bookworm1999 05-23-2013 10:38 AM

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Originally Posted by Sandy (Post 460677)
Oh man. Blkjasdljlkdsa. (*has lost ability to communicate*) (*begins burbling random gibberish about my science teacher openly admitting that we're not even SUPPOSED to be studying quantum physics, yet he wanted us to give the class some kind of "introduction" to it and NO ONE EVEN KNOWS WHAT THE WORD "QUANTUM" IS, they think it's some kind of weird religion or something... *sobs* TEACHERS Y U SO SADISTIC*) (*vomits from anxiety*) I barely even know what I'm anxious about... ;___; aksjdhklasdhsjka
I don't even know how my marks work, honestly. I could've sworn I was failing Geography, and I don't even understand how I got 96 in Science last semester, like, WE DON'T EVEN HAND ANYTHING IN!! (*screams*) (*saws face off*)

Sorry. Okay. Self... STOP.
Time to rehearse my project.

O_____________________O
*pats head*
Dear, dear... you are hyper.

Owen-L 05-23-2013 02:03 PM

the days seem to be getting worse and worse
i've asked for help from my school so many times but they hardly care. sure, shout at them, but they'll keep insulting me.
i don't see how i can help myself seeing as though im a weak idiot.
i got a rock thrown at me today. what the actual fuck.

bookworm1999 05-23-2013 02:57 PM

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Originally Posted by Owen-L (Post 460698)
the days seem to be getting worse and worse
i've asked for help from my school so many times but they hardly care. sure, shout at them, but they'll keep insulting me.
i don't see how i can help myself seeing as though im a weak idiot.
i got a rock thrown at me today. what the actual fuck.

Oh my gosh, Owen.

They're weak, okay? They pick on you because they don't know how else to communicate, because they feel superior when they do. They want to make themselves feel good about themselves.

I'm so sorry Owen. I want to help you. The only thing I can do is tell you I am here and I seriously hope that helps. You are strong, okay?

TheAshWolf 05-23-2013 04:40 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Sandy (Post 460677)
Oh man. Blkjasdljlkdsa. (*has lost ability to communicate*) (*begins burbling random gibberish about my science teacher openly admitting that we're not even SUPPOSED to be studying quantum physics, yet he wanted us to give the class some kind of "introduction" to it and NO ONE EVEN KNOWS WHAT THE WORD "QUANTUM" IS, they think it's some kind of weird religion or something... *sobs* TEACHERS Y U SO SADISTIC*) (*vomits from anxiety*) I barely even know what I'm anxious about... ;___; aksjdhklasdhsjka
I don't even know how my marks work, honestly. I could've sworn I was failing Geography, and I don't even understand how I got 96 in Science last semester, like, WE DON'T EVEN HAND ANYTHING IN!! (*screams*) (*saws face off*)

Sorry. Okay. Self... STOP.
Time to rehearse my project.

THAT'S WHAT I WAS WONDERING! O_e You're in, what, 8th grade?! That's NOT when people begin learning quantum physics. Even in an IB class...just....no. Way too early. *glomps* I'm so sorry, Sandy. It's not your fault they're like that. And you have every right to be anxious! How can you trust a teacher who loads you down with unnecessary work, stresses you out beyond your limit, and then ADMITS that it was all for nothing?! *headdesks* GAH.

Well...point is, you're not failing, and, in fact, you're exceeding. <:^) So try to focus on that. Even if you don't understand how your grades are so high, just be glad that they ARE high. *gives a muffin and some coffee* Have a snack, take a deep breath, and try not to overload. You'll do GREAT on the project. I know you will.

Sandy 05-23-2013 06:01 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 460718)
THAT'S WHAT I WAS WONDERING! O_e You're in, what, 8th grade?! That's NOT when people begin learning quantum physics. Even in an IB class...just....no. Way too early. *glomps* I'm so sorry, Sandy. It's not your fault they're like that. And you have every right to be anxious! How can you trust a teacher who loads you down with unnecessary work, stresses you out beyond your limit, and then ADMITS that it was all for nothing?! *headdesks* GAH.

Well...point is, you're not failing, and, in fact, you're exceeding. <:^) So try to focus on that. Even if you don't understand how your grades are so high, just be glad that they ARE high. *gives a muffin and some coffee* Have a snack, take a deep breath, and try not to overload. You'll do GREAT on the project. I know you will.

Plot twist: I did totally fine on my project, and that kid I was telling you about only asked one question, which I answered with ease. :I

Welp.

At least all the anxiety leading up to it made the week pass by at supersonic speed, and Friday is suddenly right around the corner. o_O
I'm in 9th grade, so high school. :> I believe we are in the same grade.


Thank you, though, EVT--EVERYONE who responded---I really appreciate it, and it DID help a lot. :') This is why I love the EVT. I really try to stick up for this thread and the people on it when people bash about being depressed and whatnot.
You people use the word "amazing" a lot, but amazing doesn't even begin to describe. You are what people should be. So strong, yet not oblivious to your problems. Everyone is human here.

:')
(*group hug*)

Sandy 05-23-2013 06:05 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Owen-L (Post 460698)
the days seem to be getting worse and worse
i've asked for help from my school so many times but they hardly care. sure, shout at them, but they'll keep insulting me.
i don't see how i can help myself seeing as though im a weak idiot.
i got a rock thrown at me today. what the actual fuck.

It's just a part of your life, Owen. Regardless of what happens, it WILL pass.
Kids can only be kids for so long--they have to grow up eventually, and the imbecilic rock-throwing WILL stop. I know the feeling of helplessness when a school doesn't seem to care when something's going wrong, that was basically my entire experience with the Catholic school board in my city... Just try your best to push through it, even though you don't deserve to be treated like these crapwads treat you.
The reality is that they are much, MUCH weaker than you are, regardless of whether you're "weak" at all.

LaurenM 05-23-2013 06:17 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Owen-L (Post 460698)
the days seem to be getting worse and worse
i've asked for help from my school so many times but they hardly care. sure, shout at them, but they'll keep insulting me.
i don't see how i can help myself seeing as though im a weak idiot.
i got a rock thrown at me today. what the actual fuck.

You're not the one who's weak. You aren't the one who has to throw rocks at people to feel pleasure.

L.S.Trendom 05-24-2013 02:02 AM

woot. this is good.
*not at all sarcastic*
i'm still absolutely fucking terrified and i hate myself so much, though. but, hey, at least the fear at the moment isn't as bad as it could be

AlgebraAddict 05-24-2013 02:34 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 460774)
woot. this is good.
*not at all sarcastic*
i'm still absolutely fucking terrified and i hate myself so much, though. but, hey, at least the fear at the moment isn't as bad as it could be


Try not to hate yourself.

TheAshWolf 05-24-2013 02:42 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 460774)
woot. this is good.
*not at all sarcastic*
i'm still absolutely fucking terrified and i hate myself so much, though. but, hey, at least the fear at the moment isn't as bad as it could be

;_; Don't hate yourself...please.

Did something happen? *does not understand if you're actually being sarcastic or not* *is dumb*

Quote:

Originally Posted by AlgebraAddict (Post 460798)
Try not to hate yourself.

yeah i was pretty terrified when i almost. a few weeks ago.

When you almost...?

LaurenM 05-24-2013 04:17 AM

Excited
 
WHOOP DE DOOP my teacher is going to put my shape poem I did for homework in the school magazine!

L.S.Trendom 05-24-2013 02:33 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 460813)
;_; Don't hate yourself...please.

Did something happen? *does not understand if you're actually being sarcastic or not* *is dumb*



When you almost...?

not gonna happen :P

yeah… it was a while ago.
And iCK I HATE TRYING TO MAKE SURE PEOPLE KNOW YOU'RE NOT BEING SARCASTIC ON THE INTERNET BECAUSE IT SOUNDS SARCASTIC. no, that wasn't sarcastic, i was actually relieved.


*hugs AA* What almost happened?

TheAshWolf 05-24-2013 03:12 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by pluzzle (Post 460852)
guys deleting most of my posts ok XD

Who deleted your posts? O_o What posts?

L.S.Trendom 05-24-2013 04:38 PM

I think like she's deleting most of her posts, probs because she doesn't want people (maybe from irl) to see?

TheAshWolf 05-24-2013 04:43 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Sandy (Post 460726)
Plot twist: I did totally fine on my project, and that kid I was telling you about only asked one question, which I answered with ease. :I

Welp.

At least all the anxiety leading up to it made the week pass by at supersonic speed, and Friday is suddenly right around the corner. o_O
I'm in 9th grade, so high school. :> I believe we are in the same grade.


Thank you, though, EVT--EVERYONE who responded---I really appreciate it, and it DID help a lot. :') This is why I love the EVT. I really try to stick up for this thread and the people on it when people bash about being depressed and whatnot.
You people use the word "amazing" a lot, but amazing doesn't even begin to describe. You are what people should be. So strong, yet not oblivious to your problems. Everyone is human here.

:')
(*group hug*)

STEVE JOBS ONLY ASKED ONE QUESTION? O.O Seeeeee? :D I told you that you'd do great on the project! I'm glad you were able to answer his one question. >_>

I couldn't remember if you were in 8th or 9th. I remember now. Yup, we're in the same grade. ^_^ Sorry 'bout that. >_<

:'D You couldn't be more right, Cass. Everyone is so supportive, here. People actually seem to care. This is how people SHOULD act to their fellow humans.

*hugs back* How are you feeling today, Sandy? Any less hyperactive?

TheAshWolf 05-24-2013 04:43 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 460889)
I think like she's deleting most of her posts, probs because she doesn't want people (maybe from irl) to see?

Ohhh, I see.

LaurenM 05-24-2013 11:55 PM

My correction tape is being a bitch. Someone help me here.

maxi 05-25-2013 01:35 AM

oh gosh




did i just post a story and then discontinue it



i hate myself xD i keep on writing books and then stop them and i feel bad for everyone.

why do i have to mAKE CRAP DECISIONS

bookworm1999 05-25-2013 03:45 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by maxi (Post 461090)
oh gosh




did i just post a story and then discontinue it



i hate myself xD i keep on writing books and then stop them and i feel bad for everyone.

why do i have to mAKE CRAP DECISIONS

Okay, you tell yourself this, but do you even take it into account?

It's like a fingernail biter addict who knows they need to stop, yet never do. I understand you are dying to start a novel and finish it, but that also requires work. It isn't going to finish itself. And sometimes the writer can get bored with a story, I have several times with HOOG (I'm legit here), but that doesn't mean they quit. There are those days when I would rather scrub down a bathroom with a toothbrush then write it, in the most uptight, grumpiest of moods. But as I sit down and get into it, it gets a little better. It requires responsibility.

The heart is willing but the flesh is weak.

LaurenM 05-25-2013 03:49 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by bookworm1999 (Post 461108)
Okay, you tell yourself this, but do you even take it into account?

It's like a fingernail biter addict who knows they need to stop, yet never do. I understand you are dying to start a novel and finish it, but that also requires work. It isn't going to finish itself. And sometimes the writer can get bored with a story, I have several times with HOOG (I'm legit here), but that doesn't mean they quit. There are those days when I would rather scrub down a bathroom with a toothbrush then write it, in the most uptight, grumpiest of moods. But as I sit down and get into it, it gets a little better. It requires responsibility.

The heart is willing but the flesh is weak.

Very true.

LaurenM 05-25-2013 04:27 AM

I feel like everything's collapsing, so fucking frustrated for no reason except that my friend kept calling me 'Laurie'. Which is why I blocked her. Not a wise move, I know, but still. And my attention span needs to be stretched upon a rack.

bookworm1999 05-25-2013 04:32 AM

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Originally Posted by LaurenM (Post 461114)
I feel like everything's collapsing, so fucking frustrated for no reason except that my friend kept calling me 'Laurie'. Which is why I blocked her. Not a wise move, I know, but still. And my attention span needs to be stretched upon a rack.

i know what being stretched feels like. There is always limits in our lives, and once we approach that limit, we can't go any farther. My sister has a small, small box. She is sort of an introvert, likes to keep herself up in her room. Then we moved, out of the country, and over to Europe. THAT, was a big, big step for her. One she insisted she couldn't do. I'm not just saying it took a long time for her to heal from her stretch marks, she still is. But what it did do was allow her to stretch easier.

She felt everything was collapsing, she acted like most tear-filled nights. But it made her stronger in her own, personal way. It's how you choose to handle it.


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