I was suspended for a day because of the whole incident.

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don't kill yourself, remember it's not brave to be able to do it, it's almsot cowardly because you're (not as in you, you) not facing your problems.You'll get through this and even though you feel like a waste of space, your parents would be devastated if anything happened to you and we would be too.

my friend is going through verbal abuse from her mom

and I have no clue what to do

I mean I honestly thought she ditched me

but I was still the first one she called

and her mom is being a bitch for no reason

and I really want to slap her

but I'd get my friend in trouble

and ugh

just ugh

...how serious is the situation? I mean, all cases of verbal abuse are serious, but on what level is this?

i was gonna say something but then i figured i better not.
thank you.

You're welcome! I usually suck at helping people/giving advice. :)

I have all these little half-friends. People that we're pretty much friends but I can't count on them or anything. And that's great sometimes, but I really need someone to be my true friend.

Perfect Specimen please.

Ah.
I'd advise you to slap her but you probably won't take that advice though I won't either.
How is the verbal abuse? Like Carrie-level or what?

Because she accidentally broke a five-dollar phone cable that belonged to her mom, her mom screamed at her and called her stupid, retarded, an idiot, told her she would "end up on the streets", and told her she was just like her father (they divorced after she was born) and then ranted about her father. My friend says that she couldn't think of anything to do so she was just like 'okay, alright, I get it', and her mom got even madder at her. When she started crying, she called her stupid and weak.

i have all these people who i don't have crushes on, but i just really really need them to be my friends and i see every interaction they have with everyone else and im just like "this is good human. i choose u pikachu" but then i can never go up to any of them bc they're so out of my friend league it's not even funny s i g h

The girl cried. She cried for her broken heart, the one that had been shattered into a million tiny pieces, falling onto the ground like stained glass raining from the heavens. She cried for ruining her family's life. She knew that she was behind everything. She was behind all the yelling and all the shouting and all the abuse that spouted out of everyone's mouths. She cried for her mother, the woman who had worked so hard to have a better life in America and only received her, the ungrateful, stupid, terrible girl who she had to call her daughter. She cried for her father, the loving, generous, kind man who had to deal with her and the mess of her mother. She cried for everyone unkind word her mother had ever screamed at her. They came back in a flash. Stupid. Ungrateful. Pig. Inhuman. They all came back at once, flooding her mind and her memories so that she could remember every single harsh word, every single name that had made her feel like nothing -- no, less than nothing. She was beyond uselessness. She was invisible. She cried for the red lash on her arm, remembering the slap her mother had given her, easily the hardest slap she had ever gotten in her life. She cried for all her failures, every time she had let someone down, every time she had let herself down. She cried because nobody loved her.


~~~

i wish i hadn't ever been born. maybe my family would be a normal family without me. god can you just kill me already please i'm useless anyways god god god why fuck this

I know how hard it is (hahaha I've experienced it so many times) but you should really try to talk to him sometime??? Even just a polite smile. Or, to show off your epicness, say "Greetings, good sir of this fine establishment. How art thou on this fine day?"

Thanks! :D

I've smiled at him many times, and he always smiles back but I feel like it would be really awkward. That would however, show off epicness of epic proportions.

I counted up the months.

So now my grandpa has four months to live.

You are not a failure. You shouldn't be crying.
Talk to us if you need help

*tackles you with hugs*

you aren't useless at all i s2g. IT IS NOT YOUR FUCKING FAULT THAT YOUR FAMILY'S MESSED UP YOU ARE NOT TO FUCKING BLAME. and even if it was your fault they still shouldn't take it out for you, and you're young, you're supposed to mess up. they're adults, they're your parents and their job is to take care of you and cope, not fucking hit you and make you feel like shit. you're not to blame for the yelling, it's their fucking choice to yell.
You do make life more difficult for your parents, yes. But literally every child does, although some more than others (*raises hand meekly*). but guess what? despite that you're still wonderful and you deserve a better, kinder family.
*continues hugging you* *kicks your parents for being ughhaslkawrtl*

wow i feel u ;-;

Oh .

How is her father even related? Not that my parents have been idiots for no reason, but they're usually overreacting instead, with the slightest bit of relation.

Squishes?

SHH your parents are little shits. Not you.

Were you two really close?

am I really ugly? why don't you ever tell me I look nice? why are you always telling me i'm ugly?

FUCK YES! Only eight weeks until I'm rid of my fucking class!!!!!! THEN I'M AT A NEW SCHOOL AND I'LL BE ABLE TO SURROUND MYSELF WITH PEOPLE WHO I ACTUALLY ENJOY SPENDING TIME WITH!

Every single day, I get in the car to go home, and I'm mad at myself. I'm mad because another day has gone by without me doing something to help myself. I'm tired of having to stand awkwardly in the middle of the cafeteria until I'll pretty much take any open seat, I'm tired of watching everyone with their best friends, I'm tired of not having any friends. There's so many things I can do to help myself but I never do them because I'm a fu--ing wimp. I just want it to be over.

*hugs*

Seriously, it gets better. I didn't have any real friends last year, and then I met an amazing guy in my grade and a high school girl to spend time with. I know it feels like everyone else has a best friend but you, but that's not true and there are lots of people feeling exactly like you except you have to find them.

like a crush, but instead of wanting to be boy/girlfriends with someone, just wanting to be friends with someone.
really difficult to explain, especially when you gush about said someone on a daily basis about how amazing they are and your friends start to ship it and i'm like nO IT'S FUCKING PLATONIC
oh honey *hugs* i know that feel. especially the part that says "maybe my family would be a normal family without me." you can get through this, though. to paraphrase hank green-- "i'm not saying it will be easy. it may be the hardest thing you've ever done in your life. but your job isn't to wait for it to get better, it's to get through it so it CAN get better." or something like that.

Thanks. :)

That's called a squish. :D

Okay, so I know I just ranted earlier this morning but I don't give a damn because I need to vent. Okay? Okay good.

So I've been really depressed lately because having no friends is kind of getting to me. My mom has been really worried and is trying to stay out of it but help at the same time. At my school district, we have a gifted program. You have to take a big ass test to get in and you get special classes if you pass. I took it in 2nd grade but didn't score high enough, but my mom wants me to do it again. We've been talking to my teachers and the woman who runs the program and they all think it's a good idea. But the thing is, that I might have to switch classes if I get in. I know this sounds weird, but I've grown to love my teachers. They've figured me out. But, they could also wait until next year to put me in gifted classes which is a whole other thing. Next year (if I get in), I will have a teacher that my sister had and absolutely hated and I know for a fact is a ginormous asshole. I know this might help me, but there is so many reasons that I don't want to do it. At this point I think I'm doing it.

and also for any of you PerfectSpecimenxCamille shippers, I think he may just be in the gifted class. I'm not sure though so don't freak out.

I really hate the fact that this is pretty much ruining me. I feel depressed, unlikable, frustrated, and just generally shitty.

On a happy note, today, my gym teacher pulled my aside and asked me some questions about if I enjoy gym class and a whole bunch of crap, and then she told me I have a really pretty smile and that I should use it more. That really made my day shitty day. :)

Thanks. :)
I think I'm going to do it.

i know i was explaining it to lauren :3

Oh, okay. Sorry. :D

it's fine



(((on a slightly related note...... why can't misunderstandings be resolved like this on tumblr? wHY?????)))

It's happening again...

The same girl who started to steal my best friend three years ago is trying to steal another friend now. See, I'm taking French this year. Let's call one of my friends Ruby and the friend-stealer Monique.

Ruby and I planned our schedules so we would have the max. amount of classes possible together (although since I'm taking 3 honors classes, and she's not, it's only a few classes) However, in French class, we didn't get to pick where we sit.

In the first couple months, Ruby sat by this boy...let's call him Xavier. Then we switched seats, and now Ruby is sitting by Monique.

The other day, for a group thing, we got to pick groups for a game/competition thing. I sat with Ruby, and then Xavier and Monique sat down with us. Ruby barely said anything to me, and instead started talking to Xavier and Monique. She kept calling them her "French buddies" and leaving me out-- talk about how awkward I felt..

Anyways, today, for a speaking activity, we had to ask any person in the room 5 questions in French, and they had to answer appropriately in French. I immediately looked over at Ruby, and mouthed "partners?"

...and she said no, and pointed back to Monique.

To make matters worse, I had no partner. Joy. Finally the teacher had to pair me with the last person left who didn't have a partner.

Monique is pissing me off. She needs to BACK OFF and stop stealing my f'ing friends.

(I apologize for the language. I'm a teensy bit angry, if you couldn't tell.)

So... we are doing a Secret Santa thing but it's like Secret Friend, which is like you do nice things for that person, leave stuff on their desk like a note or lollies. Anyway, I got a girl I'm really good friends with. The first and only thing she said to me today was that she had a really lazy Secret Santa who wasn't doing it right, when I was about to put something on her desk. I almost kept it for myself.

I found my uncle's fb. That might sound creepy. Ugh. He commented on my cousin's picture e.o Anyways, long story short, I'm not allowed to see him anymore. He was my favorite uncle. He changed after going to Iraq, having ptsd, and almost strangled my aunt. Needless to say, they got divorced.
But I was scrolling down and I saw a picture of my dad and him in their military uniforms. I can't believe how much I miss him. I haven't seen him for 7 years. I spent some time watching some of the videos my family has when me and my brother were babies, before he went to Iraq. My uncle was there and holding us and blehhh. Just broke down crying. Some people may say, oh, he was just an uncle, no biggie. He was like my second dad. I spent most of my childhood with him and the rest of that family. I spent every day terrified he was going to die in Iraq and when he came home I wasn't even able to see him anymore.
That ends my speech. *wanders off*

Oh my goodness, I know exactly what you mean.

Monique might be kind of malicious, but a lot of the time, especially if you've known Ruby for a while, what she's doing is trying to be friends with both of you. However, she feels that she needs to pay more attention to Monique because Monique might ditch her if she's ignored, whereas she'll keep you no matter what. I'm not sure if it makes sense, but that's what my best friend continuously does to me. Once she explained it and apologized, but she's doing it again. :| The thing is to just find one other person you can be with in each class that you guys share with Monique. I started hanging out with a boy that I really didn't notice until now, although it turns out he's an awesome guy.


wait you don't have to tell me but why can't you see him anymore

Because of what he did to my aunt .-.

.... start rant.
if you've ever been on tumblr you've probably noticed that people get really overemotional a lot. for feelings like excitement and happiness, that's perfectly fine. for feelings like sadness and the like, well, everyone needs to let it out once and a while.
but for feelings like anger, it's not okay. people have the tendency to get really overly worked up about things-- and not one specific thing, no, ALL the things-- and take it to the point where if someone says something that can be taken in the least little offensive way, the anons come in and crowd their blog/ask with horrible hatemail. for a place that's supposed to be a "safe environment" where "everyone is friendly," tumblr sure is fucked up. people have deleted their blogs, it's gotten to that point. and still we make posts enforcing the anti-bully thing. god, people are such hypocrites. they think that just because they're anonymous they can say anything to no effect and it pisses me the fuck off. i haven't experienced hate (yet, considering one of my ships) but i've seen so much of it on my dash and i am so. fucking. sick. of. it. if you have an opinion, fine. just don't state it in such a way that it's really mean to the opposite or a differing opinion. and if it is stated that way, then people should point it out gently, not by yelling at them via askbox. and if it isn't and you disagree with the opinion, well, depending on its severity, you could either blacklist the opinion point, or unfollow the person. but the hate is NOT NECESSARY.
there's probably so much more i could add to this, but i think you get the point. people are such fragile, bitter assholes. /end rant

Guys, I'm kind of scared.
There's a teacher that's a long term sub for my world cultures teacher, and no one really likes her. Yesterday she got in trouble for apparently swearing in front of a 7th grade class, and I don't know if she'll be fired for that or not. I really dislike her, but I was curious so I looked to see if she had a Facebook. She did, and I was looking at some of her stuff and it looks like she's had a really hard and complicated life. Her current relationship status is "in a complicated relationship", she has children, she talked of a husband, a fiance, and a boyfriend at some point on her profile, and it says she was born in 1932. That would make her 81. She does not look old enough to be 81. I've heard some crazy stories about her from kids at school.
I'm kind of scared that I'm going to find her in the paper some day.

I can understand why you're concerned for her. If she has a tough life, then, well, anyone who has to deal with that must be under a lot of stress, and no one should have to deal with that.

But, why does it matter if she put up a fake age online? A lot of people do that just as a joke, or because they don't want to put that kind of sensitive information online.

What have you heard about her? Rumors and stories are just that, though--most of it is probably just kids making up stuff, regardless of what they're saying. I wouldn't take any of it seriously if I were you.

In the paper? What do you mean? O_o

This is slightly emotional I guess e.o
So. Um. This has been a weird day. Basically it had to do with a playground, my friend, a freaking crazy mother, the police, and yeah, some tears. Oh, and also the first time I've screamed liar at an adult I'd only seen a couple times e.o
Ugh.

rant...
 

So, I think it's pretty well known that the media is a lie when it comes to what beauty is and what's physically possible for women to look like.

But, seriously, now...why aren't we thinking about how the media effects MEN, too? I'm all for women's rights and whatnot, but, hey, there's a bunch of things that effect men negatively that no one wants to talk about.

According to the same magazines that show women with poreless, flawless skin and ridiculously slim waistlines ALSO show very tall men with absolutely perfect hair, lots of muscles (specifically abs, biceps/triceps), and either with a perfect tan or at just the right shade of pale (depending on the race of the guy in the picture). Let me ask you something: how many tall, super-muscular, perfectly tanned men with awesome hair do you see? How many of these guys are also always surrounded by women and are popular and also somehow have the "perfect" and most current sense of fashion? Also, WHY DO ALL THESE GUYS SUPPOSEDLY HAVE TO SMELL? Seriously. I guarantee you, if a lady's gonna like you, it's NOT gonna be because of your shampoo or deodorant or aftershave smell. In fact, something tells me you're gonna deter a lot more women than you'll attract if you pick the wrong super-expensive scent.

So, basically, we're all in the exact same boat. The media victimizes all of us, not just young girls and women. And that goes for movies and TV, too, not just ads and magazines and all that. Movie stars and fictional characters don't just influence girls in a negative way--have you SEEN Iron Man, Thor, Brad Pitt, Justin Timberlake, etc.? All these "heroes" who look great and are good at making things turn out right in the end while also being awesome and attracting lots of girls...it's just as emotionally damaging to teenage boys and men in general as it is to teenage girls and women in general. This vain sense of how someone looks that somehow correlates to their worth as a person is absolutely wrong, and gets overlooked all too often. Both boys AND girls are now telling themselves, "I'm ugly because my skin is ___, and because my hair is ___, and because I weigh ___," thanks to the media.

So, guys? A girl is beautiful no matter how skinny she is, and the same goes for you. I know this problem is a little more subtle than it is with women, but, it's still there. Just because you don't have a six pack doesn't mean you're not handsome and awesome and worth something.




tl;dr: THE MEDIA IS A LIE. Their definition of beauty--for women AND men--is incorrect and physically impossible. This is not just a problem for girls, it's also a problem for guys, too. So try to ignore the media's ideas the best you can and love the way you look regardless of your gender because you are VERY beautiful/handsome. :>