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CACrools 11-26-2012 08:04 PM

Oh, I read it wrong. My bad.

lvhamsters 11-26-2012 08:08 PM

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Originally Posted by soph-soph27 (Post 368624)
XDD Everyone is interested.

lvhamsters: With Lily, me and Dragon.

CACrools: With us as well, but a little less well known?

Rockshadow: Probably around where AA is?

WHOO ^o^ ~does little dance~

Lily09 11-26-2012 08:34 PM

Yeah, most people are in the third section.

shadowtide 11-26-2012 08:50 PM

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Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 368658)
Yeah, most people are in the third section.

Out of curiosity, what would I be?

lvhamsters 11-26-2012 11:30 PM

Darnet, I have so many feelings and I just can't all type them out! It's not that simple.
Overall I'm hurt and angry.
I'm sick of being compared to those who are better than me. Everyone compares me to my best friend; even my family. I'm sick of it. I'm not like her. At all. In fact, we're pretty much complete opposite, and personally, I'm fine with that! I have my own talents and she has hers!
My dad: "Oh, you know, A must've been practicing basketball all summer long, unlike you. No wonder she's so good. You shouldn't have quit the team." Well, guess what. I quit because of everyone comparing my skills to her, not to mention I just lost interest in basketball. I make my own choices, and you forcing me to make the team ain't gonna work. But that's not what this is about. It's about being compared.
I'm also hurt because my best friend trusts complete strangers instead of me, her best friend. She's even said it plain out in front of me. Her best friends are even online, and it's not a very trustworthy website. But A, if you ever read this, just know you've hurt me more than you can think.
Whenever I try to vent to you, you cast it away and immediately go to your own feelings without as much as saying a word about me. Now I don't want to be selfish, I just want you to listen to me once and a while. Everyone tells me I should tell you what I think, but they don't see I can't do that. We've been friends for over 11 years and I don't want to ruin that. And if I tell you anything that's in any way mean I'm scared your going to cut yourself. Your very sensitive, A. But your only sensitive to yourself, not of others. Such as right now, your being kind of a jerk. Your always trying to one up me. Like I told you I'm tired of comparison just now. And then you say, "Oh, no worries. My families all like WHY CANT YOU BE MORE LIKE L."
You don't get it do you!? You're not helping me! you're making it worse!!! JUST STOP.
You've made me cry in stress and hopelessness to many times now. Please stop . . .
And P, I miss you so much. I hate how our parents both told us that we'd never see each other again and we couldn't talk over the internet, through mail, or over the phone. No contact whatsoever. I miss all of the awesome times we had, such as when we hid in the bucket of pillows at wal-mart and jumped out and scared people. That was awesome, and I know this just sounds like jibber jabber, but it's so important to me. P, I miss you so much and I love you like a sister. I really wish you were here . . . .
And I know some people think that when someone leaves you get over it eventually, though it may take lots of time. But really, that pain is always there.
I'm crying right now because I'm sick of it all. I want to get away. I wish Kidpub was an actual building, or a school or something. Everyone here is so nice and we're all friends. Yeah, we occasionally get in fights, but we all get over it. Not only that, but everyone is always there for you and supportive. And just that is an amazing thing to have in a friend. Thanks everyone <3

lvhamsters 11-26-2012 11:44 PM

Gosh darnet, A! CURSING ME OUT ISNT HELPING.

EmmaR 11-26-2012 11:47 PM

I don't like to be physically limited.

maxi 11-27-2012 12:52 AM

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TheAshWolf 11-27-2012 02:23 AM

...........Did you just put me in the same category as LST and Sandy? O_O

Um, no. Just no. No. No no no no no, no no, no, no. XD I would love that to be true, but it's just...not. o_o

Yes, at one point, my book got a somewhat unusual amount of attention. But that was a long time ago. Back when I posted a chapter nearly ever week. Back when I'd actually keep my promises of when I'd post. Back when I didn't get Writer's Block every other day. Back before my life got ten times harder, and stress nearly killed my writing ability. ._. Back when I actually got detailed feedback. Now, when I manage to post, only a few people comment. Hardly any of them have CC. I need CC. That's the only reason I've been able to grow as a writer. My readers have been driving me to write better since I joined this site. But now...there aren't many telling me what's acceptable, and what's not. I see people click on my posts. The most recent chapter I've posted has been clicked on 110 times as of this moment. And yet, only 3 people commented. Don't get me wrong--I value those three comments like each was made of solid gold. But isn't that a bid odd to you? 110 reads but only 3 comments? And none of them gave me any suggestions or told me where the weak spots are. And it's 100% impossible that that chapter was perfect and didn't need CC. I can't grow at a steady rate if I don't get more feedback. ;w; I can't make my editing deadline if I don't know WHAT to edit.

I know there is a commenting famine sweeping through KidPub. No one is immune to it, no matter how long you've been on here, how good or "popular" your writing is, or how many people you know.

I've never felt that I was "popular." I still can't believe that I have actual fans. I have readers, yes, and I love every one of them, but I can't bring myself to call them fans. I've never felt that my story was good enough for that. Good is relative. I tell my story to you guys, and some people like it. That makes me happier than you will ever know. You all honestly do not know how your nice comments have kept me sane, especially now that my personal life is more difficult that it used to be. And yet, I know there are people who do not like my book. And I'm perfectly fine with that. And I remember my classmates...how they teased me...saying I was living in a stupid, worthless, made-up world...saying that my characters were unrealistic and stupid...saying I was stupid for making them up. That hurt. I pretended to ignore them, but it still hurt. I've long since forgiven them for it, but it still hurts me to remember. At least I can always look back on those six kids...they sat with me at recess and listened to my story, back when it was nothing more than a crappy novella. I owe them so much. They gave me my first bits of CC. One of them was my first honest critic. i miss them, sometimes. I miss all of the readers who I haven't heard from in a while, actually.


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I know that was a long ramble. x_x I apologize for going off the deep end like that.

My point is...I don't belong in that high category. I never did, not in my eyes. But, if that's how someone sees me, then, okay, I'm very flattered. But that's not where I am now. <:^J I doubt I'll ever get there again...

maxi 11-27-2012 03:16 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 368852)
...........Did you just put me in the same category as LST and Sandy? O_O

Um, no. Just no. No. No no no no no, no no, no, no. XD I would love that to be true, but it's just...not. o_o

Yes, at one point, my book got a somewhat unusual amount of attention. But that was a long time ago. Back when I posted a chapter nearly ever week. Back when I'd actually keep my promises of when I'd post. Back when I didn't get Writer's Block every other day. Back before my life got ten times harder, and stress nearly killed my writing ability. ._. Back when I actually got detailed feedback. Now, when I manage to post, only a few people comment. Hardly any of them have CC. I need CC. That's the only reason I've been able to grow as a writer. My readers have been driving me to write better since I joined this site. But now...there aren't many telling me what's acceptable, and what's not. I see people click on my posts. The most recent chapter I've posted has been clicked on 110 times as of this moment. And yet, only 3 people commented. Don't get me wrong--I value those three comments like each was made of solid gold. But isn't that a bid odd to you? 110 reads but only 3 comments? And none of them gave me any suggestions or told me where the weak spots are. And it's 100% impossible that that chapter was perfect and didn't need CC. I can't grow at a steady rate if I don't get more feedback. ;w; I can't make my editing deadline if I don't know WHAT to edit.

I know there is a commenting famine sweeping through KidPub. No one is immune to it, no matter how long you've been on here, how good or "popular" your writing is, or how many people you know.

I've never felt that I was "popular." I still can't believe that I have actual fans. I have readers, yes, and I love every one of them, but I can't bring myself to call them fans. I've never felt that my story was good enough for that. Good is relative. I tell my story to you guys, and some people like it. That makes me happier than you will ever know. You all honestly do not know how your nice comments have kept me sane, especially now that my personal life is more difficult that it used to be. And yet, I know there are people who do not like my book. And I'm perfectly fine with that. And I remember my classmates...how they teased me...saying I was living in a stupid, worthless, made-up world...saying that my characters were unrealistic and stupid...saying I was stupid for making them up. That hurt. I pretended to ignore them, but it still hurt. I've long since forgiven them for it, but it still hurts me to remember. At least I can always look back on those six kids...they sat with me at recess and listened to my story, back when it was nothing more than a crappy novella. I owe them so much. They gave me my first bits of CC. One of them was my first honest critic. i miss them, sometimes. I miss all of the readers who I haven't heard from in a while, actually.


...
I know that was a long ramble. x_x I apologize for going off the deep end like that.

My point is...I don't belong in that high category. I never did, not in my eyes. But, if that's how someone sees me, then, okay, I'm very flattered. But that's not where I am now. <:^J I doubt I'll ever get there again...

Ashley, I am going to agree. <:^)

People put me in a category where I am also better than people like CT or Kiwara or Pokey...where the heck did that come from? :D Ash, this is going out of hand and people are placing us in different places...

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KP is changing. =__=


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