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@elliot:
this has been me my whole life x.x it sucks so much but for the constantly-moving thing, you could try some kind of fidget toy i guess? i know you can get like putty or rings that are specifically made for fidgeting with... (tho stuff like rubber bands or blue tack works too) or if it's too obtrusive in class, you could try doodling on scrap pieces of paper...it works for me bc it's a natural instinct and it helps me focus too c:

i get what you mean abt the reading thing, it's the reason why i haven't been able to finish a book in months... if you have to read digitally, try beeline reader, it's a browser extension that basically makes things easier to read (it makes the text color a gradient) so your eyes view the words more naturally i guess?

but yeahh, try talking to your teachers, hopefully they'll be willing to let you have breaks or longer times for tests or stuff like that, or like if some teachers are really strict about doodling/fidgeting/etc, and if that helps concentration, you could talk to someone higher up to give you permission to do that stuff

so apparently a lot of people forget about my existence nowadays??? oh well. whatever. idc.

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Originally Posted by pluzzle (Post 565728)

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this is literally my adhd feels oh man!! do you think mayb u have a form of it?? like i dont wanna b That Guy but this is literally how i feel so theres a chance u might?? anyway im srry it gets so much in the way at school, do you have anyway of talking to your teachers about acomodations (sp??) e.g more time with reading tasks and tests, and breaks where you can get up? like at my school a lot of the boys have adhd and as such its mandatory that we have three breaks where we can all get up and dance or w/e - im assuming you dont do that? or even getting up to go to the bubbler, you know? you might also wanna talk to themabout reading texts aloud, if that helps, cause it does for me most of the time especially when i get myself jumbled up !! im sorry im so little help eli.

honestly i had a horrible dream last night bc im always jiggling me leg or tapping my hands on the desk and i had this dream where the teacher calledon me and some kid i didnt know in my class started saying stuff about my tapping the desk and making fun of me and everyone was laughing and i?? oh my god

idk im gonna talk to the psychiatrist abt it. but idk if my teachers will let me, some of them already dislike me because of how bad i am at focusing and staying still. :// we only have 50 min classes so it would be very disruptive to others for everyone to take a break. also whats a bubbler! also like in classes where my teachers let students move around, im usually that kid who moves around so much and goes all over the class and disrupts others because i need to keep moving. thank you !!

i hope u feel better that sounds awful im sorry :( ive had dreams that are so awful i cant shake em off too. *hugs*

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Originally Posted by venika (Post 565729)

in class i always jiggle my feet or sometimes ill swing my feet if i get really fidgety and i'm always capping and uncapping highlighters. some of my friends get really annoyed whenever i fidget so i try not to, but even when i do fidget anyway it doesnt get rid of the feeling. idk

i might be able to talk to some teachers but with others i genuinely don't think they'll care

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Originally Posted by Athenabrain1 (Post 565754)

nearly there

??? are you okay? ://

@eli: mmm same im always That Guy. a bubbler is a water fountain!! :D
yeah u should def talk to them abt it bc it could be linked to ur mental health too, though it likely isnt, and theyll help u with teachers better than i can!! (im too chicken to ask for allowances ))

i hate myself so much and all of my friends do too im just annoying and stupid and i cant concentrate im letting everyone down and its really all my fault that im this fucked up why cant i just be better im trying so hard not to cry im in the theatre bathroom fuck i hate myself

hey Hey Hey HEY hEy HEY nonononononon
its not yr fault that you are struggling!!! its just something horrible that you are going through, its not your fault at all ://

i do not know what to say but!! you have helped and bettered so many peoples lives in your fifteen years and everyone lets someone down sometimes, everyone makes mistakes (cue hannnah montana) but you can build yourself up and i know for a fact that you are going to be okay eli!! you will rise!!

look i know it's childish to write in white ink but you know what screw it

the thing is that I spend all of my free time either singing or sleeping and that's because that's all I can do when I'm so fucking depressed like this and I know I shouldn't cuss because that's gotten me into enough trouble at school when I cussed out a girl and she told the principal and now I feel like a horrible person and I do kind of want to not be alive right now because my best friend has a boyfriend and every time I try to talk to her it's oh yeah and we are so adorable he talked to me he touched me awwwww how fucking cute but honestly i need to talk to somebody my therapist is psycho and just. ugh. Don't worry it's interspersed with periods of brief hypermania where I'm bouncing off of the fucking walls and think I'm the best person in the world, but honestly I am not alright and I don't think I will be for a long time. I swore I'd never cut or make myself throw up again, and both of those things have gone down the drain, and seriously if my leg doesn't heal before march I don't know what I'm going to do because my mom has got me shorts and expects me to wear them and oh yeah I get to talk to a priest about being bisexual because I let that slip at scohol and a mother called the school about it. Two mothers, in fact. The f uny part is that I'm not even bisexual, I'm queer. There's a difference; I refuse to define myself. Well that's all. Goodbye. I'm nto even supposed to be on here because I left and candidly no one really cared, but yeah. Okay. Bye.

My nemesis is getting the better of me

why is the friendzone a bad thing like can someone explain i seriously don't get it and i think i made someone kinda angry over this whole issue
yes, there are times i hate being aromantic. there are a lot of times i hate it. in fact i hate it more than i like it. but this should be put on the gsrm thread or something. i'll shut up now