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Lily09 03-30-2013 08:34 PM

My life is just an entire pile of, "Hm... I'm not sure if this is the right thing to do, but whatever, I'll do it anyway!" And I only end up regretting it later. At the time, I feel like I've done the right thing. However, whenever I look back, I realize that almost every decision I make is an unsure step. It's a step to nowhere clear, it's just a step in hopes it will make my life so much better. I can't say I regret losing you now, but maybe someday I will. And you continue to pop up in my life, so I wonder if you're meant to stay or go.
Confusion.

L.S.Trendom 03-30-2013 08:39 PM

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Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 445761)
My life is just an entire pile of, "Hm... I'm not sure if this is the right thing to do, but whatever, I'll do it anyway!" And I only end up regretting it later. At the time, I feel like I've done the right thing. However, whenever I look back, I realize that almost every decision I make is an unsure step. It's a step to nowhere clear, it's just a step in hopes it will make my life so much better. I can't say I regret losing you now, but maybe someday I will. And you continue to pop up in my life, so I wonder if you're meant to stay or go.
Confusion.

You can't always know if what you're doing is the right thing, but you tried to do what you thought was right, and that's important too. *hugs*

L.S.Trendom 03-30-2013 09:05 PM

It's kind of funny.
The thought, "I am a worthless f***ed up piece of s**t and I deserve to die," even when I mutter it for 20 minutes straight, nonstop, doesn't really worry/scare me at all, I'm incapable of feeling such emotions toward it.
But the thought that I am/might be going to therapy (unless my mom is lying again) really effing terrifies me.

MaryElizabeth 03-30-2013 09:10 PM

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Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 445774)
It's kind of funny.
The thought, "I am a worthless f***ed up piece of s**t and I deserve to die," even when I mutter it for 20 minutes straight, nonstop, doesn't really worry/scare me at all, I'm incapable of feeling such emotions toward it.
But the thought that I am/might be going to therapy (unless my mom is lying again) really effing terrifies me.

Push those thoughts away. I know things are fucked up. Things are fucked up for me, too. I have to worry about faith, family, my friends, and all of the idiotic motherfuckers around me, but it's amazing people like you who we need to survive, and be the next Gerard Way who saves a kid's life, or the next J.K. Rowling who snaps a teenager's ignorant brain into realizing that it's okay to be different, to be brave, to be gay, to be strange. If the rest of us don't make it, you need to.

lvhamsters 03-30-2013 09:16 PM

Bleh.
I'm ignored.

L.S.Trendom 03-30-2013 09:22 PM

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Originally Posted by lvhamsters (Post 445786)
Bleh.
I'm ignored.

No you aren't. *smothers you in hugs*
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Originally Posted by MaryElizabeth (Post 445780)
Push those thoughts away. I know things are fucked up. Things are fucked up for me, too. I have to worry about faith, family, my friends, and all of the idiotic motherfuckers around me, but it's amazing people like you who we need to survive, and be the next Gerard Way who saves a kid's life, or the next J.K. Rowling who snaps a teenager's ignorant brain into realizing that it's okay to be different, to be brave, to be gay, to be strange. If the rest of us don't make it, you need to.

Thanks…
I'm not amazing, though, and the world will be just fine/probably better for the most part without me.

Lily09 03-30-2013 09:24 PM

"the world will be fine without me"
aha
ahaha
ahahaha
no

lvhamsters 03-30-2013 09:27 PM

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Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 445790)
No you aren't. *smothers you in hugs*


Thanks…
I'm not amazing, though, and the world will be just fine/probably better for the most part without me.

Yersh i ish o3o

D: ~le gasps~ LST NOT AMAZING????!?!? ~mind cannot comprehend/explodes~
You are seriously, utterly the most amazing person i've talked to.
THE WORLD WILL DIE.

MaryElizabeth 03-30-2013 09:30 PM

All of this is crashing back at me. How I'm forcing myself to go through with Confirmation, and how I'm going to a Catholic school because it's got a good education only, how Anna has to deal with so much shit just because of her sexuality, and how I should keep in touch, but I don't, how I don't believe that my "friends" care about me, how all I want to do is make a difference with writing, but I can't go to a school to learn to do that because of money, how so many things are fucked up with the idiots around me, how I'm from a long line of assholes, how I'm always going to have to think about how my grandparents are passive aggressive, lazy racists, how I don't seem to be more than a biracial, arrogant, reader to people around me, how I can't manage to talk to people because of my own issues, how things aren't getting better. Things aren't getting better for anyone.

lvhamsters 03-30-2013 09:34 PM

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Originally Posted by MaryElizabeth (Post 445795)
All of this is crashing back at me. How I'm forcing myself to go through with Confirmation, and how I'm going to a Catholic school because it's got a good education only, how Anna has to deal with so much shit just because of her sexuality, and how I should keep in touch, but I don't, how I don't believe that my "friends" care about me, how all I want to do is make a difference with writing, but I can't go to a school to learn to do that because of money, how so many things are fucked up with the idiots around me, how I'm from a long line of assholes, how I'm always going to have to think about how my grandparents are passive aggressive, lazy racists, how I don't seem to be more than a biracial, arrogant, reader to people around me, how I can't manage to talk to people because of my own issues, how things aren't getting better. Things aren't getting better for anyone.

Aw :( Just go with the flow. Things will get better eventually. I know, I know, easier said than done, but in every bad situation, it eventually gets better. ^^


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