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Lily09 03-03-2013 03:22 AM

I won't tonight, but...
I hate everything about me. I hate my name. I hate my personality and how I think and how I act. I hate that I'm a hypocrite and that I'm a bitch and that I'm an idiot and that I'm just stupid. I hate my face, my body, my teeth, my glasses, my braces, my smile, my voice, my weight. I don't even know why I bother looking in the mirror anymore. I hate my writing, I hate how I can rarely write anything original anymore, and that Sastiel fic? No. I can't draw, I can't write, I can't get good grades, I don't want to eat and I fuck things up. I hate who I am and I can understand why others do too.

maxi 03-03-2013 03:28 AM

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Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 432816)
I won't tonight, but...
I hate everything about me. I hate my name. I hate my personality and how I think and how I act. I hate that I'm a hypocrite and that I'm a bitch and that I'm an idiot and that I'm just stupid. I hate my face, my body, my teeth, my glasses, my braces, my smile, my voice, my weight. I don't even know why I bother looking in the mirror anymore. I hate my writing, I hate how I can rarely write anything original anymore, and that Sastiel fic? No. I can't draw, I can't write, I can't get good grades, I don't want to eat and I fuck things up. I hate who I am and I can understand why others do too.

I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you.
Shut up...shut up!
You are amazing. That Sastiel fic is freaking amazing. You are amazing. I love you and I don't want to lose you. You get awesome grades. I love your personality and I love how you are you and whatever you are you just make it seems like you don't give a rap about what you say and that is amazing and that is amazing and like you are amazing because I love your amazingness and I don't want you to ever stop talking to me or to stop living or to stop writing or to stop doing anything because whatever you do I love and whatever you do I look up to and I love you and I need you in my life or I will die from nothingness because the everything is you... I would ask you out to be my friend one day but that would be taken because everyone loves you. We all here love you and support you and ship your crush and ship you+you. so. Just love yourself and I love you.

L.S.Trendom 03-03-2013 03:30 AM

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Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 432816)
I won't tonight, but...
I hate everything about me. I hate my name. I hate my personality and how I think and how I act. I hate that I'm a hypocrite and that I'm a bitch and that I'm an idiot and that I'm just stupid. I hate my face, my body, my teeth, my glasses, my braces, my smile, my voice, my weight. I don't even know why I bother looking in the mirror anymore. I hate my writing, I hate how I can rarely write anything original anymore, and that Sastiel fic? No. I can't draw, I can't write, I can't get good grades, I don't want to eat and I fuck things up. I hate who I am and I can understand why others do too.

Don't, ever.
I like your name and your personality. You're a cool, funny, kind person. You're not a bitch, and you're not stupid—and you're certainly not stupid because you have some bad grades. You look just fine and you sound just fine, you're wrong to hate yourself for all of those things. You're a great writer. And, if you can convince yourself of nothing else, you're much better at writing (and much smarter and a much better person) than a vast majority of the internet.
I'm going to list absolutely everything I hate/dislike about you:
You're depressed.
That's all.
And I hate that because it hurts you, not because I don't want to have to try helping you. I just wish you were happy, like you deserve.

Lily09 03-03-2013 03:53 AM

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Originally Posted by maxi (Post 432817)
I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you.
Shut up...shut up!
You are amazing. That Sastiel fic is freaking amazing. You are amazing. I love you and I don't want to lose you. You get awesome grades. I love your personality and I love how you are you and whatever you are you just make it seems like you don't give a rap about what you say and that is amazing and that is amazing and like you are amazing because I love your amazingness and I don't want you to ever stop talking to me or to stop living or to stop writing or to stop doing anything because whatever you do I love and whatever you do I look up to and I love you and I need you in my life or I will die from nothingness because the everything is you... I would ask you out to be my friend one day but that would be taken because everyone loves you. We all here love you and support you and ship your crush and ship you+you. so. Just love yourself and I love you.

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Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 432819)
Don't, ever.
I like your name and your personality. You're a cool, funny, kind person. You're not a bitch, and you're not stupid—and you're certainly not stupid because you have some bad grades. You look just fine and you sound just fine, you're wrong to hate yourself for all of those things. You're a great writer. And, if you can convince yourself of nothing else, you're much better at writing (and much smarter and a much better person) than a vast majority of the internet.
I'm going to list absolutely everything I hate/dislike about you:
You're depressed.
That's all.
And I hate that because it hurts you, not because I don't want to have to try helping you. I just wish you were happy, like you deserve.

But—
*flails*
I wish I could believe you guys.
Thank you.

maxi 03-03-2013 03:54 AM

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Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 432823)
But—
*flails*
I wish I could believe you guys.
Thank you.

Believe us. e___e
I am scared that you will do this tonight.

maxi 03-03-2013 03:55 AM

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Lily09 03-03-2013 04:01 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by maxi (Post 432825)
Believe us. e___e
I am scared that you will do this tonight.

I won't. I won't do it tonight.
*hugs*

L.S.Trendom 03-03-2013 04:01 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 432823)
But—
*flails*
I wish I could believe you guys.
Thank you.

I wish you could, too… :/

cheezemziez 03-03-2013 05:29 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 432776)
I hate feeling like I'm on the verge of breaking. One minute, I'm not okay, but not suicidal, and the next, I'm feeling like I could just take my razor blade and run the bath with hot water. And thinking about who would be in my suicide note, if anyone would miss me, or who my belongings would go to. And I don't know how much longer I can go through this. I just want someone that will listen to me and be there for me in real life instead of telling me, "Just stop thinking like that." or "Oh." or "Wow, you're kind of crazy."
Every single day, it's just... tiring. Waiting for the next breakdown, on edge every hour. I hate it.
I hate myself.

You are going to get through this. Everything is going to get better. No matter how long it takes, we'll be here for you, even if we can't be there physically. We love you. You can do this.
You are too epyk to hate.

LaurenM 03-03-2013 05:32 AM

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Originally Posted by MaryElizabeth (Post 432735)
I dream too much.

My dad's not letting me dream. I want to fall into a daydream and just go through a day without planning.

Quote:

Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 432776)
I hate feeling like I'm on the verge of breaking. One minute, I'm not okay, but not suicidal, and the next, I'm feeling like I could just take my razor blade and run the bath with hot water. And thinking about who would be in my suicide note, if anyone would miss me, or who my belongings would go to. And I don't know how much longer I can go through this. I just want someone that will listen to me and be there for me in real life instead of telling me, "Just stop thinking like that." or "Oh." or "Wow, you're kind of crazy."
Every single day, it's just... tiring. Waiting for the next breakdown, on edge every hour. I hate it.
I hate myself.


Quote:

Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 432816)
I won't tonight, but...
I hate everything about me. I hate my name. I hate my personality and how I think and how I act. I hate that I'm a hypocrite and that I'm a bitch and that I'm an idiot and that I'm just stupid. I hate my face, my body, my teeth, my glasses, my braces, my smile, my voice, my weight. I don't even know why I bother looking in the mirror anymore. I hate my writing, I hate how I can rarely write anything original anymore, and that Sastiel fic? No. I can't draw, I can't write, I can't get good grades, I don't want to eat and I fuck things up. I hate who I am and I can understand why others do too.

I don't hate you and you shouldn't either. However you don't like stuff about you, embrace them, embrace yourself. Write ten things you like about yourself.


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