Originally Posted by SilverMoon (Post 593672)

I know it feels like meds don't do anything but meds do help I know this bc last week I was transitioning meds and bOY DID IT SUCK but a) are you on meds and b) are you taking them like meds don't fix anything but they do help

also hey I get where you're coming from about how it would be easier if no one cared and lmao my opinion of myself is endlessly fluctuating and generally negative

and hell, who even cares if you're pretty? We're all just bundles of matter how are some people pretty and some not. Pretty is worth a lot in this society but it sure as hell ain't everything. Studies show that kidpubbers are prettier than the societal average (selfie thread) lmao, anyway.

I get that you probably care, though.

I'm not going to say "it gets better" because I don't know that, but it WONT get better if you don't let it, and don't try to.

Not it WILL get better, but it CAN get better.

It can really be okay. Not today but one day. One day you can be better. Please try to get there.

I barely know you, and I'm not the most empathetic or friendly person, but hey don't die.

Sorry if none of this helped or I just made shit worse lmao

Originally Posted by july3girl (Post 593676)

ok so i'm nice. right? that's what everyone says. i'm "nice" and "nice and chill and innocent." but like i'm kinda annoyed how this is like my trademark?

my mom always said that you should be nice to EVERYONE and you won't necessarily be popular, but everyone will like you. apparently that works. but like...

when i borrow a pencil from a guy (without asking but it's like a running joke in our class that everyone steals from his endless supply of pencils) i don't like it how when he tells his friend, it's like "EVEN PANDA?????" (also for the record i returned the pencil after like an hour 'cause i felt guilty)

idk. i don't like the expectation, i guess? i like that i have a Thing™ but... i don't know. i just wanted to vent, i guess haha.

ALSO so this really intense thing happened with this girl in my grade and my basketball teammate sort of friend told me about it and it's like real, actual, harmful gossip. and i basically immediatly told my friend, who had also been asking to hear it. i feel horrible, even if most of the gossip was because of my friend's gross ex. and i still feel horrible for telling her, because i don't want to ruin the girl who did that gossipy thing, and now i'm afraid my friend is gonna tell her best friend and it's just going to continue until everyone knows. also our like... i guess you could call "pre-and-current-chicago-selective-enrollment-community" is so crazy about this kind of gossip which could affect her next year in high school, no matter what selective enrollment school she goes to. idk. i feel really bad.

AT THE SAME TIME i feel bad not telling my best friend because we tell each other EVERYTHING interesting that happens in our lives and in the lives of other people (we're not horrible people i swear nothing ever happens so it's usually like "oh yeah this guy likes this girl but he's not gonna do something about it") and i know i shouldn't spread rumors but... well i don't have an excuse i just really want to tell her

not expecting advice just wanted to vent again :p

Originally Posted by meerkat (Post 593678)

yeah hey i'm in the same kind of situation, i'm basically just the nice kid that everyone walks over (but hey, as long as they're happy, no one should care about me!! haha i'm insignificant!! haha i should just die so everyone can use the resources i was wasting amirite kiddos!! what a fucking pathetic loser)

but if it's that important, and you trust her? you should tell her. it's good to let things out, you'll probably regret not doing it.

Originally Posted by july3girl (Post 593676)

ok so i'm nice. right? that's what everyone says. i'm "nice" and "nice and chill and innocent." but like i'm kinda annoyed how this is like my trademark?

my mom always said that you should be nice to EVERYONE and you won't necessarily be popular, but everyone will like you. apparently that works. but like...

when i borrow a pencil from a guy (without asking but it's like a running joke in our class that everyone steals from his endless supply of pencils) i don't like it how when he tells his friend, it's like "EVEN PANDA?????" (also for the record i returned the pencil after like an hour 'cause i felt guilty)

idk. i don't like the expectation, i guess? i like that i have a Thing™ but... i don't know. i just wanted to vent, i guess haha.

ALSO so this really intense thing happened with this girl in my grade and my basketball teammate sort of friend told me about it and it's like real, actual, harmful gossip. and i basically immediatly told my friend, who had also been asking to hear it. i feel horrible, even if most of the gossip was because of my friend's gross ex. and i still feel horrible for telling her, because i don't want to ruin the girl who did that gossipy thing, and now i'm afraid my friend is gonna tell her best friend and it's just going to continue until everyone knows. also our like... i guess you could call "pre-and-current-chicago-selective-enrollment-community" is so crazy about this kind of gossip which could affect her next year in high school, no matter what selective enrollment school she goes to. idk. i feel really bad.

AT THE SAME TIME i feel bad not telling my best friend because we tell each other EVERYTHING interesting that happens in our lives and in the lives of other people (we're not horrible people i swear nothing ever happens so it's usually like "oh yeah this guy likes this girl but he's not gonna do something about it") and i know i shouldn't spread rumors but... well i don't have an excuse i just really want to tell her

not expecting advice just wanted to vent again :p

Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 593682)

the semester doesnt end until tomorrow at 4 pm but im PANICKING
i have a C in US History, A in Psych, anf A in Jr Studies. But all my core classes (English, Precalc, and Physics) are D's. Im panicking so much, my parents are going to kill me??

Colleges look more at your JUNIOR YEAR and ive already blown the first semester. I know i dont have to worry that much if my SAT and ACT scores go well, and all practice tests indicate they will! And my parents have enough money saved to cover my tuition but as for books and stuff, i need scholarships. and i cant get good scholarships without an okay grade. im FUCKED and i want to Die

Originally Posted by Swallowtail (Post 593686)

hey what's up guys I want to shoot myself

Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 593682)

the semester doesnt end until tomorrow at 4 pm but im PANICKING
i have a C in US History, A in Psych, anf A in Jr Studies. But all my core classes (English, Precalc, and Physics) are D's. Im panicking so much, my parents are going to kill me??

Colleges look more at your JUNIOR YEAR and ive already blown the first semester. I know i dont have to worry that much if my SAT and ACT scores go well, and all practice tests indicate they will! And my parents have enough money saved to cover my tuition but as for books and stuff, i need scholarships. and i cant get good scholarships without an okay grade. im FUCKED and i want to Die

Originally Posted by SilverMoon (Post 593692)

1) lmo A senior quote

2) what's up is there anything you need to vent about?