Books are getting too predictable. I mean, I guessed a major plot twist halfway through one book, then answered my friend's question about the book correctly, once she had already read it, and I was part-way. But they're both good books, and it's just me. I just needed to get that out.

I don't know what I can say to make you feel better, but I'm just going to give you a hug. *hugs*

You won't believe me, but you are beautiful, okay?

And I'll say it again, that friend of yours is toxic and you need to get away from her. Now. Ignore her. Straight up tell her you're done with her. You might feel like a douche but honestly she has harassed you and made you feel like crap and no one has the right to do that.

You don't have the right either, hon. I've been in your position. I've tried starving myself. It doesn't work. Just eat healthy, okay? Cut out the bad stuff. Trust me, you'll feel a lot better. Both physically and just about yourself. I know it's easy to just want to criticize and tear apart your own image, but you are better than that. Don't let yourself indulge in that. That's one of man's most guilty and popular indulgences but you need to stay strong and not succumb. I know how hard it is. I still struggle with it. Sometimes you need to just stand in front of that mirror and just tell yourself something you like about what you see. Even if it feels like a lie.

If you need to talk, email me.

And if you're having a really crappy day, write. Read. Draw. Escape into a world that you can create. Just scream. Cry. Listen to music. Do whatever you need to.

(Another thing that helps me with self-image is service. It's nice to just spend a day not thinking about yourself. Maybe it isn't your thing but it helps me.)

YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL. You are human. Humans are imperfect f***-ups, and they all have more problems than anyone can count. But, guess what, THEY ARE BEAUTIFUL. Nature has imperfections, but THAT'S WHY IT'S BEAUTIFUL. Everyone, no matter how perfect they seem, have had those moments where they've messed up majorly, or they've looked in the mirror and felt like crap, or they've just wanted to cry and scream and shout.

This probably won't help but just know that it's true. KP loves you. Don't be afraid to email me.

Jealousy sucks.
But you know what? I fight for what I want. And I'm not just going to give up.

It still p*sses me off whenever one of my best friends tells me that you stare at him all period and constantly talk about how cute he is and how you answer all of the questions to try and impress. Yes, I admit, that causes a flame of jealousy to ignite inside of me. You didn't respect the fact that I liked him first, so I guess you want to start World War III.

The thing is, I would tell you off but I'm afraid. Not afraid of disappointing you, no. I'm afraid of disappointing your mom because I know her so well. I know that sounds dumb. But that's what's holding me back from texting you right now.

I just feel really awful right now and I'm crying but my parents are upstate and they can't come home since they're shopping and apparently wasting money is more important than their daughter having a bad stomachache.

why am I so dismissed and looked over
why is it blank
no responses?
where's my respect?
why am I not acknowledged
why am I never good enough for that

well, I have to do work now, so fuck emotions
ok, bye bye now

Are you kidding? This is amazing.
I just really hate her and my parents, her for not knowing how much she can hurt me, and my parents for not knowing all the physical abuse that she had done.
I almost told my mom about her choking me but I didn't. Too scared, I guess.
I don't know what my life's going to do with me. I'm not getting any skinnier with my grandma trying to force me to drink this sugar water that she says will cure my stomachache.
Ugh.
Though I feel like the music I listen to is helping. Especially when I draw with it. Then I escape to a world of imagination, where I rule.
I'm nor just ready to tell everything to my friend or my parents, but I'm sure I'll try. I just want someone who understands at my side. The only supportive friends I have are my friends back at my old school, and they can't exactly come to my school and help me.
My other friend who I actually know better is kin ld of nice, but she's not always the nicest, you know?
I think she'll understand, though.

i'm kinda nervous about the first day of school

how does one make friends
i mean i want to make new friends. older friends. i've been stuck with the people in my grade my entire life and it sucked because most of them are assholes and hate me so i want to make new friends.

aaaany ideas? ;-; i'm actually super nervous right now ahhh (*hides*)

*hugs* you will
You're amazing okay and everyone will want to be friends with you.
(I kind of want to read Shadow Realm but I'm too lazy what shall I do)