I've reached that point where i'm going numb and don't really want to do anything. I don't mind it much, but i'm worried that i'm back at the top of the spiral and i'm going to end up self harming again because that's what always happens. It's been a while since this happened, and I was doing so well, I've been trying so hard to quit for good and I don't want to go back to that.
Oh well, maybe this time i'll be able to pull through without the usual >_^
I'm open to any suggestions if you guys have any :)
Here's to optimism?

yoooo i am here for you my friend
i understand the feeling numb and unmotivated on a spiritual level; the most important thing, ive found, to keep from going down that road is to not think too much, about it or anything that could be potentially triggering. distractions are key, and i know finding an effective one can be difficult when nothing is interesting anymore, but as long as it's something that keeps you occupied it can help ^u^ also, sharing your thoughts/feelings instead of keeping them inside where they can intensify- if you don't have anyone you can talk to, or even if you do, my contact tab is always open (:
for optimism: happy songs, playing with pets, going outside (i don't usually do that but i know for a fact that it's helpful haha), cheesy movies, books, yummy food, happy safe thoughts in general
idk how much of this is actually helpful but regardless i hope you get out of ur funk and that ur mood improves, stay safe!! <3

i started high school and i don't know what to think. i'm not sure if it's gonna suck or not.

I hate chain posts so fucking much

1. High school sucks
2. Middle school sucks way, way more
3. If u survived middle school you've got this easy peesy

yeah mom nothing cheers me up more than being told I "have problems" because eye contact makes me uncomfortable, really improves my self-esteem, you know? thanks so much

oH i feel u on the mom thing

just try to explain to her politely that she's not helping and if that doesn't work then just write angry rants on the evt about it.

middle school is where all the teen drama u see in dumb teen movies happens lmfao
in high school nobody gives a damn tbh at least in my experience

in my experience tho there's also a lot more work but that could b the fact that I've taken almost all IB/honors/AP (takin reg chem this year tho bc they dont have honors 4 it and I think one AP is enough 4 m ths yr)

She also calls panic attacks "pathetic excuses" for me being unable to do things. and when I try to explain things to her she usually slaps me, interrupts me, or just sniffs and walks away.

did u tell her that it's science. it's not "fake". you can look it up. its science. or consult a doctor. it's science :/
sounds rough