Originally Posted by meerkat (Post 589633)

that's what everyone says and also you're just an internet person

Originally Posted by Frostblaze (Post 589628)

i have no idea why im so upset but i kind of am the thought of being around people i usually like makes me sick to my stomach i think im just really tired and wow who knew my fren's girlfriend could make me feel so bad about how i look but it's not even her fault she's so pretty she's actually really sweet and funny and she was nice to me and really friendly but she's my age and she looks like a freakin goddess whats wrong with me why am i complaining about this i dont get it i just hate myself so much i dont understand why i hate how i look i hate how i act around other people i feel like a fail of a christian i hate how i feel about other people i have no idea why i always assume everyone hates me i think im just really tired maybe thats it

Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 589645)

religion tw

im having a difficult time with religion right now. so if you have read my poetry you know im buddhist, but i dont know. i want to believe in a higher power. but i dont wanna believe in "god". i dont wanna believe in a god that doesn't approve of me being proud about being transgender or gay. i don't wanna believe in a god who is judgemental and cold and harsh and expects to be worshipped without good reason. i wanna believe in someone who is worthy of worship and someone who is accepting of everyone.

but also i feel like i'm not going about this the right way. i feel like i want to believe in a higher power because i need someone to forgive me. because i sure as hell can't forgive myself. i always strive to be better, but always for someone else, never for myself. and i feel like this is just an extension of that mindset. i feel like i'm looking for someone to deem me worthy of respect, because i can't respect myself. and i'm not so sure that's healthy.

Originally Posted by Ember (Post 589636)

I just want to let you know that I went through this phase as well and it does get better. You aren't a terrible person you aren't bad for comparing yourself to others but it is important to get out of that habit and mindset. Thats just bad for your well-being and it will put you in a very bad place.
You're going to hear this a million times and you won't listen but you are beautiful, I know that because I've seen your personality on here and how you treat people and you are radiant trust me! I know this isn't going to change anything but stay in there love. We're all here for you. Please drink some chamomille tea and get some sleep and take a good shower and just let the water run over you for a while. Sing really loudly. It'll be ok just get some sleep.
It's a long journey out of insecurity I'm still in the middle of it and there will always be times of unsurety but get in touch with your own beauty and take some time alone and write down a list of at least ten things you like about yourself and expand upon it every night even if you can't think of anything keep searching and you will find at least ten it will be ok and suddenly the list will be super long and you'll wonder when you got to be so amazing! This is incoherent I'm sorry I'm sleepy but. Start using cute words to describe things that make you smile (call spiders spooky guys, say words like lovely and brilliant and spell theatre the British way and use curse words like sploosh idk why but it's something that makes me feel cuter and more lovable). This sounds weird but sleep naked! It's a really weird concept but it works idk why and just get some clean sheets it's brilliant don't question me. Or just find your own things idk these just work for me. Banish negativity. Whenever you start thinking something mean about yourself or anything immediately change it! Don't berate yourself for thinking it but just apologize and think of a way to twist it into something pleasant. Get good smelling shampoo and soap because smelling good and clean is also a confidence boost. Get perfume and use as much as you like as long as you like it. Also eat good food like fruits and veggies even if you feel like youve eaten too much that day if you haven't had any veggies eat some even just a bit and then feel good because you just gave your body some good vitamins! Eat that cake too because cake is awesome! Buy new nail polish and slather that crap on that's some good stuff and then watch your fingers glide elegantly down the banister you're a princess! Get boots or heels and walk around and feel powerful! Wear clothes that make you feel hot even if your mom or your friends don't like em feel good! You are a goddess and a warrior and I'm really tired excuse me but really!
These suggestions were a bit superficial and obviously won't permanently change anything but just do anything that makes you feel good about yourself even if anyone else thinks that it's stupid or lame. Look in the mirror and slather on eyeliner and strike some poses wear pajama bottoms and look like a princess wear a messy bun and feel like a princess! Hydrate!
For tonight just get some good sleep and feel good and wake up and feel good ok if you can't sleep that's ok too read something enlightening and beautiful read some Virginia woolf embrace your feminism read until you feel sleepy then turn off the light. Be kind be strong do some service this is too much I'm sorry for this long vaguely incoherent post I'll stop rambling but anyways we all care about you sleep tight.

Originally Posted by Graystorm (Post 589646)

Madie, You are so pretty, so, so pretty. I may have never actually seen what you look like, but I do know that you're beautiful. I think that you're a wonderful Christian, I know I was a pretty shitty one, but you don't act like I do. You know what, I don't know how to word this any other way, but I love you so much that you don't need to worry about loving yourself. Yes, you should love yourself, but some people don't. I love you so, so much, more than I've really loved anyone.

Originally Posted by pluzzle (Post 589647)

elliot: i dont have any advice for you, and im sorry about that, because honestly im struggling with religion too. but i do hope that one day you can forgive yourself, and respect yourself, because you are so worthy of self-love, even though it's not so easy to believe it. whether or not you believe in a higher power that is accepting or you, remember that self-acceptance is very very valuable. <3

Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 589645)

religion tw

im having a difficult time with religion right now. so if you have read my poetry you know im buddhist, but i dont know. i want to believe in a higher power. but i dont wanna believe in "god". i dont wanna believe in a god that doesn't approve of me being proud about being transgender or gay. i don't wanna believe in a god who is judgemental and cold and harsh and expects to be worshipped without good reason. i wanna believe in someone who is worthy of worship and someone who is accepting of everyone.

but also i feel like i'm not going about this the right way. i feel like i want to believe in a higher power because i need someone to forgive me. because i sure as hell can't forgive myself. i always strive to be better, but always for someone else, never for myself. and i feel like this is just an extension of that mindset. i feel like i'm looking for someone to deem me worthy of respect, because i can't respect myself. and i'm not so sure that's healthy.

Originally Posted by Frostblaze (Post 589653)

im blushing like crazy and maybe tearing up a li'l bit. thank you, stormy, m'love. you're so wonderful. see, even when you're having a hard time, you find the time and energy to try to help, and that's what i absoLUTELY LOVE about you. please keep it up. and just so you know, i bet you are a beautiful princess too c: