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stopped caring about shit but am far from passionless
either pissed or depressed or fuck I don't know/care
God damn it at least last school year I had some ability to occasionally calmly and unemotionally solve the puzzle (of life)
Now fuck it and too lazy among other things to keep typing and I need to sleep

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Originally Posted by CosmoCat (Post 543653)

I'm really starting to take an interest in the Catholic religion (i guess you could call it since I'm already Christian)

I mean, I've never met one of those super judgemental, "i hate gays", "trans people should dies", "jews are going to hell" sort of people THANK THE LORD but I find it scary how that is how most Christians are and that's exactly how other people view them. I'm not trying to shove my religion down other's throats, but the more I think about it, the scarier it seems to be a Christian.

Like, outside of mass, it seems like Catholics are really nice (and funny and so much more relaxed than most Christians) and, heck, they're churches are gorgeous. I mean, I don't think there is a right or wrong way to worship Jesus and I know that Catholics and Christians share many beliefs. So, maybe I don't want to be Catholic, but I sure as heck would like to know some Catholics. TT-TT (small town living)

I think the other thing about this is that I miss my friends who go to the Catholic School. I really like them and I see their parents a lot at my church, but not them (I did see them at the Catholic church one time when we visited for Sunday School) so I JUST REALLY WANNA GET CLOSE TO THESE KINDS OF PEOPLE AGAIN AND IT'S DRIVING ME INSANE HOW TERRIBLE SOME CHRISTIANS CONTINUE TO ACT OUTSIDE OF CHURCH.

Anyway, that was my religion rant. (NO I DON'T HATE ANYONE WHO PRACTICES A DIFFERENT RELIGION AND PRETTY MUCH EVERYONE AGREES THAT GOD IS LAUGHING ABOUT OUR DIFFERENT DENOMINATIONS. I'M JUST AFRAID OF GOING OUT AND MEETING CHRISTIANS THAT ARE SCARY AND JUDGMENTAL LIKE THIS)

i'm a catholic ayyyy
it's p much the same as being a regular christian except the rules are slightly more strict in a few different ways and there's a lot more symbolization i guess if that makes sense

the life inside my head:
*u*

reality:
-_-

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Originally Posted by MaggieMay (Post 543669)

there's rules in religion? like i know that there's always gonna be rules but RULES

eli: i get that

So...I'm having one of those oh-look-it's-past-10PM-I-need-to-reorganize-my-entire-room-and-clean-every-drawer-until-sunrise moments.

Please tell me I'm not the only person who suddenly goes through this odd cleaning routine a couple nights a year for seemingly no reason whatsoever. x__X

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Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 543673)

YES YES YES ME TOO!!!! SUDDENLY AS IM GETTING REALLY TIRED I GO OH YOU KNOW WHAT WHY NOT MOVE MY BED TO THE OTHER SIDE OF THE ROOM AND CLEAN MY CLOSET ALSO YOU NEED TO HAVE THIS DONE NOW

its so weird

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Originally Posted by pluzzle (Post 543674)

(*breath of relief*) Good, I'm not the only one!! O_O It's the urgency of it that confuses me the most. Like, why do I need to reorganize my closet and move my dresser right now?! Can't this wait until the morning? Why is my brain so...strongly compelled to do this now? What the heck triggers this, anyway? e_o

I ACCOMPLISHED ALMOST NOTHING DURING DAYLIGHT TODAY, WHY AM I DOING ALL THIS NOW THAT IT'S DARK?!?!

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Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 543673)

I DO THIS TOO DON'T WORRY!

It's usually after everyone else is in bed and I just DON'T wanna sleep because some unorganized part of my room is bothering me. TTuTT

I also have the tendency to write for hours before I clean my room like that, so sometimes I'm up really late writing and cleaning (when I shouldn't be)

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Originally Posted by pluzzle (Post 543672)

there's rules in religion? like i know that there's always gonna be rules but RULES

eli: i get that

Well they aren't like "we'll kick you out if you don't do this," but like priests can't ever marry, they always have to be male (which is p stupid in my opinion), and then there are other ones for the parishioners, like you can't eat an hour before church (which I don't always follow). And these aren't usually enforced in non-Catholic churches.

idk im just so sick of feeling empty and tired all the time i just want to be a normal teenage girl do you think i enjoy my sadness do you think i like having anxiety attacks do you think it's funny when my parents have seen me cry more times than i can count do you think i like to battle the monsters that come from within my own heart i hate this i hate this i hate this