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01-03-2013 06:34 PM

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Originally Posted by HeatherB (Post 398013)
Geez, Mom, I'm just trying to be honest, and you laugh at me.
how incredibly freaking NICE of you
Also I can't WAIT for the day I move out of here, don't you dare chain me to the house.

Heather, I know you're kinda upset right now, but I just wanted to tell you I saw the pic of you and Mira on Instagram and you are freaking gorgeous. O_O I don't know why you put yourself down because you are really pretty. :) I wish I looked half as pretty as you!

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Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 398038)
Wow okay.
I hate how I'm jealous of my friends for having a good-ish life... like I should be happy for them and I am but I'm also jealous. Take L, she's got a cool dad who's letting her dye her hair and get a nose ring and supports gays and is just cool, despite some of his anger issues. And she's got a sister that she shares everything with. E's family has a bit more money than other families and she has a great life, despite her bad past.
And then there's me. I've got a bad childhood and I can't really remember any good times. The most I can recall is my dad hitting me and shoving me around and I guess you could say beating. And I used to have a great relationship with my brother, but now I'm just disconnected from my family. I hate myself every single day. It's 90% my fault when things go wrong.
I'm kind of jealous of how nice their lives seem.
And not just jealous, but I feel alone. L gets her electronics taken away every day at 6 pm, sometimes a lot earlier. So I don't ever get to tell her how I feel because all of these feelings come after 6. And not just that, she's such a happy person that I don't want to rain on her parade. With E, I don't know... I don't want to remind her of her own bad childhood that she used to have, since she has a good one right now.
A few weeks ago, L found one of my posts on here. When she pestered me about it I said, "I can't tell you." and she said, "Oh, so you can't tell me, but you can tell a bunch of people online? You shouldn't tell online people how you feel and your secrets."
But then, I'd have no one else to talk to.
I don't know.

Story of my life right thurr. I feel so bad for being jealous, too. Like my friend M has a modeling contract and is really skinny. My friend T can get any guy with the snap of her fingers. My friends J and D are AMAZING hip hop dancers, and I always dream about being half as good as them. And my friend H has the wardrobe of my dreams. It's sometimes hard NOT to get jealous. Just know that we're here for you and that a lot of us have been through what you have. :/

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Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 398194)
I don't understand this hostility bandwagon so many KPers are getting on nowadays. O_O Someone says ONE thing, and then ten other people have to come and participate in correcting the person or telling them they're wrong or just belittling them for the sake of doing so. That, or no one can handle not having the last word in an argument/debate/discussion, and things just go 'round and 'round until everyone ends up feeling horrible.

This may sound dramatic, but I've seen this happen on here several times in the last few months. Never in my two years (three, technically) of being on KP have I seen such a strange string of occurrences. o_e

Yeah...I noticed that, too. There was a clogging post and like four people commented and asked the author to delete it, and then like twenty more people commented. Okay, that was a bit dramatic, but a lot more people commented than needed.

cheezemziez 01-03-2013 07:08 PM

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Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 398038)
Wow okay.
I hate how I'm jealous of my friends for having a good-ish life... like I should be happy for them and I am but I'm also jealous. Take L, she's got a cool dad who's letting her dye her hair and get a nose ring and supports gays and is just cool, despite some of his anger issues. And she's got a sister that she shares everything with. E's family has a bit more money than other families and she has a great life, despite her bad past.
And then there's me. I've got a bad childhood and I can't really remember any good times. The most I can recall is my dad hitting me and shoving me around and I guess you could say beating. And I used to have a great relationship with my brother, but now I'm just disconnected from my family. I hate myself every single day. It's 90% my fault when things go wrong.
I'm kind of jealous of how nice their lives seem.
And not just jealous, but I feel alone. L gets her electronics taken away every day at 6 pm, sometimes a lot earlier. So I don't ever get to tell her how I feel because all of these feelings come after 6. And not just that, she's such a happy person that I don't want to rain on her parade. With E, I don't know... I don't want to remind her of her own bad childhood that she used to have, since she has a good one right now.
A few weeks ago, L found one of my posts on here. When she pestered me about it I said, "I can't tell you." and she said, "Oh, so you can't tell me, but you can tell a bunch of people online? You shouldn't tell online people how you feel and your secrets."
But then, I'd have no one else to talk to.
I don't know.

I would ask what kind of jealousy you feel, but from that post it's pretty clear that you wouldn't want your friends not to have a good life. There's nothing wrong with wanting something good for yourself. You care about your friends and they care about you. You can make your life better for yourself, even when you are still living with your family. L might be upset that you're not going to her for advice as often, but she's not trying to stop you and she's probably pleased that you are getting support and help when she can't help you. You don't have to be guilty about your jealousy, so long as it doesn't consume you and ruin your friendships.

01-03-2013 07:21 PM

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Originally Posted by pluzzle (Post 398774)
im annoyed at max right now, not sure why, so I will post his tumblr nd Instagram
maxxy-meldrum.tumblr.com
boomitsmax

Knock yourselves out with that info

Was he dating Sarah when he was sending you <3's and calling you baby? O_O Just checked his Instagram.

01-03-2013 07:30 PM

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Originally Posted by pluzzle (Post 398804)
I don't know... I met someone on minecraft called Sarah who knew Max in real life... She was a b***h... Unrelated, sorry. But honestly I have no idea - wouldnt be surprised if he was since one of his friends has three girlfriends. Not even kidding.

I don't think you should talk to this "Max" anymore. He seems to be trouble and he doesn't seem worth talking to, anyway. I'm sorry he was mean to you. :( Some people are like that.

01-03-2013 07:39 PM

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Originally Posted by pluzzle (Post 398819)
YEAH SO I THINK MAX HAS SEEN THESE FORUMS SO MAX IF YOU SEE THIS YOU ARE MEAN AHAHAHAH


no I'm kidding but you were kind of rude when I said something you like got annoyed and were quite curt with your language like seriously why

Oh, I didn't see that. xD *facepalm* Good for you for not talking to him anymore! Btw, if you don't mind me asking, what did he do to you besides being rude?

GabiDi 01-03-2013 07:54 PM

canIsendhimanonhate
JOKING
but not really

What a jerk.

GabiDi 01-03-2013 07:55 PM

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Originally Posted by pluzzle (Post 398855)
wat


I'm confused ;-;

I mean on Tumblr. xD

Lily09 01-03-2013 07:55 PM

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Originally Posted by GabiDi (Post 398853)
canIsendhimanonhate
JOKING
but not really

What a jerk.

ABSOLUTELY NOT
Anon hate is not okay.
Not even in situations like this.
Nope
Meh

GabiDi 01-03-2013 07:56 PM

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Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 398860)
ABSOLUTELY NOT
Anon hate is not okay.
Not even in situations like this.
Nope
Meh

I KNOW BUT STILL
IT WOULDN'T BE THAT BAD
STILL
I get really protective of people.

01-03-2013 07:57 PM

What is Anon hate? O_O

GabiDi 01-03-2013 07:57 PM

On Tumblr, you can ask people things, and go on Anonymous if you want so they don't know, but some people abuse that and send Anon hate (like "go kill yourself"). It can be really horrible.
I was joking, but still.

Lily09 01-03-2013 07:58 PM

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Originally Posted by Caleigh (Post 398863)
What is Anon hate? O_O

When you use the anonymous option on tumblr to send hate to people.

EmmaR 01-03-2013 08:39 PM

It physically hurts to know that I missed a production of Spring Awakening last spring (haha, it was done in spring). Physically hurts. Like, I am hurting on the inside.

01-03-2013 08:57 PM

This is the first time in a LONG time I have been genuinely happy. Knock on wood. XD
*squeals and jumps around room throwing confetti*

CACrools 01-03-2013 08:59 PM

What happened Caleigh?

HeatherB 01-03-2013 09:11 PM

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Originally Posted by Caleigh (Post 398730)
Heather, I know you're kinda upset right now, but I just wanted to tell you I saw the pic of you and Mira on Instagram and you are freaking gorgeous. O_O I don't know why you put yourself down because you are really pretty. :) I wish I looked half as pretty as you!

OMG, honey, I saw you on Mira's Instagram today 'cause I was at her house, and you're beautiful! Seriously, I was going to tell you even before I saw this post... I don't know why YOU put yourself down when you have a face like that. :P :')
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Originally Posted by Caleigh (Post 398925)
This is the first time in a LONG time I have been genuinely happy. Knock on wood. XD
*squeals and jumps around room throwing confetti*

Yay! What about?

01-03-2013 10:33 PM

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Originally Posted by CACrools (Post 398930)
What happened Caleigh?

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Originally Posted by HeatherB (Post 398933)
OMG, honey, I saw you on Mira's Instagram today 'cause I was at her house, and you're beautiful! Seriously, I was going to tell you even before I saw this post... I don't know why YOU put yourself down when you have a face like that. :P :')

Yay! What about?

@Heather: Awww...thank you! It's mostly my teeth I hate because they are so...imperfect and bleh. But once I get braces it should be a lot better so I'm DYING for them. xD You looked nothing like I imagined you to be. For some reason I was thinking long blond hair, hazel eyes, with freckles. xD But thank you. I didn't think tonight could get any better, but you totally just made my day. :')
@Both: WELLLL...today was the first day back from Winter break, and to be honest, I was kinda thinking it would suck butt. :P But today was amazing. Everyone laughed when I told a joke, no homework, I met a new girl named Tessa who happens to have an adorable older brother ;), and then now I get to go to my best friend's house tomorrow night after a highschool basketball game. It's been a LOOOONG time since I've had a day that has made me come home smiling. I don't want it to ennnnd! XD

TheAshWolf 01-03-2013 11:16 PM

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Originally Posted by Caleigh (Post 398730)
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Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 398194)
I don't understand this hostility bandwagon so many KPers are getting on nowadays. O_O Someone says ONE thing, and then ten other people have to come and participate in correcting the person or telling them they're wrong or just belittling them for the sake of doing so. That, or no one can handle not having the last word in an argument/debate/discussion, and things just go 'round and 'round until everyone ends up feeling horrible.

This may sound dramatic, but I've seen this happen on here several times in the last few months. Never in my two years (three, technically) of being on KP have I seen such a strange string of occurrences. o_e

Yeah...I noticed that, too. There was a clogging post and like four people commented and asked the author to delete it, and then like twenty more people commented. Okay, that was a bit dramatic, but a lot more people commented than needed.

EXACTLY. O_e It's like everyone suddenly wants to outdo each other in ranting.

Bex 01-04-2013 02:37 AM

I have no plan.
I did, it was all planned out. I'm only 13 and I've started a university fund, chosen my university, my course, my part time job and the apartment. I knew my job I wanted. I had it all planned out. And then my mother says she wont let me do it because its impratical. Wanted to be a writer. You said it was impractical. Made other plans. Still impractical.
Thankyou for crushing my dreams.

Lily09 01-04-2013 02:54 AM

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Originally Posted by Bex (Post 399082)
I have no plan.
I did, it was all planned out. I'm only 13 and I've started a university fund, chosen my university, my course, my part time job and the apartment. I knew my job I wanted. I had it all planned out. And then my mother says she wont let me do it because its impratical. Wanted to be a writer. You said it was impractical. Made other plans. Still impractical.
Thankyou for crushing my dreams.

Wow I really suck at giving advice, because my advice would be to do it anyway.

lvhamsters 01-04-2013 05:06 AM

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Originally Posted by Bex (Post 399082)
I have no plan.
I did, it was all planned out. I'm only 13 and I've started a university fund, chosen my university, my course, my part time job and the apartment. I knew my job I wanted. I had it all planned out. And then my mother says she wont let me do it because its impratical. Wanted to be a writer. You said it was impractical. Made other plans. Still impractical.
Thankyou for crushing my dreams.

Parents seem to have a knack at crushing dreams :\ It's just something that seems to come with life. But I agree with the other two, it's your dream and your future; it's all yours. don't let anyone else control it but you :)

Lily09 01-04-2013 05:09 AM

Yup, take their words into thought, but always follow your dreams.

LaurenM 01-04-2013 05:48 AM

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Originally Posted by pluzzle (Post 398808)
OH AND IF YOU GO TO HIS TUMBLR SCROLL DOWN AND THERE WILL BE SOME QUESTION ASKED BY A GIRL HE KNOWS

like I am not even kidding right now he made my month like 10 times worse by those two profiles I mean that hoebag ahahahah

excuse my language it's not appropriate blah blah I'm sorry

uh so yeah that has made me way more depressed so thanks max thanks a lot for all the s**t you gave me >:(

kjhzshklxachjlkmxcahkeshikkjh2197-93 god damnit I turned off messages deleted his number and blocked him on Skype ahaha

Is it that l-i-g-h-t-l-y person or am I too late?

LaurenM 01-04-2013 10:10 AM

My friend and I once called my mum telling her that she had ten minutes to live. Then we'd call her again after a minute and tell her that she had nine minutes to live. And so on. It didn't work, though, because we kept laughing.

HeatherB 01-04-2013 03:35 PM

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Originally Posted by Caleigh (Post 399003)
@Heather: Awww...thank you! It's mostly my teeth I hate because they are so...imperfect and bleh. But once I get braces it should be a lot better so I'm DYING for them. xD You looked nothing like I imagined you to be. For some reason I was thinking long blond hair, hazel eyes, with freckles. xD But thank you. I didn't think tonight could get any better, but you totally just made my day. :')
@Both: WELLLL...today was the first day back from Winter break, and to be honest, I was kinda thinking it would suck butt. :P But today was amazing. Everyone laughed when I told a joke, no homework, I met a new girl named Tessa who happens to have an adorable older brother ;), and then now I get to go to my best friend's house tomorrow night after a highschool basketball game. It's been a LOOOONG time since I've had a day that has made me come home smiling. I don't want it to ennnnd! XD

Oh, you're welcome. Yay! I live for making people's days. :D

GabiDi 01-04-2013 06:07 PM

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Originally Posted by pluzzle (Post 399408)
;-; noooppeeee
Last night I was supposed to go to a birthday party of a girl whom I don't like, so my dad and I lied my way out of it. I got away with it. All of my other friends went, though, so... yeah. They're just gonna be talking about that. Well if I'm gonna feel awful all the time, why not feel even worse?

I do that a lot, actually. :I I kind of avoid social interactions even if I shouldn't because I feel all awkward doing it and then I regret it.

01-04-2013 06:42 PM

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Originally Posted by HeatherB (Post 399278)
Oh, you're welcome. Yay! I live for making people's days. :D

Well, you're gorgeous, too. And don't let anyone tell you otherwise, because they sit on the throne of lies. *le Elf reference* XD



Ohmigosh guys today was amazing. :') There's this new girl with an amazingly cute older brother who ride my bus now. AND HE TALKED TO ME TODAY. *squee* He asked this girl sitting behind me who I was and she was like, "Oh, that's Caleigh." And he had her spell it out for him and everything. I went to say something to this guy sitting behind him and he was staring at me. He was like, "What's your name?" even though the girl just told him! :D :D And the conversation went on from then! He remembered where I lived, too! He kept smiling at me and a bunch of other stuff I'm too excited to put. I'm also going to my first highschool basketball game of the season, and then going to my bestie's house afterwards. :D

HeatherB 01-04-2013 06:51 PM

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Originally Posted by Caleigh (Post 399431)
Well, you're gorgeous, too. And don't let anyone tell you otherwise, because they sit on the throne of lies. *le Elf reference* XD

Ohmigosh guys today was amazing. :') There's this new girl with an amazingly cute older brother who ride my bus now. AND HE TALKED TO ME TODAY. *squee* He asked this girl sitting behind me who I was and she was like, "Oh, that's Caleigh." And he had her spell it out for him and everything. I went to say something to this guy sitting behind him and he was staring at me. He was like, "What's your name?" even though the girl just told him! :D :D And the conversation went on from then! He remembered where I lived, too! He kept smiling at me and a bunch of other stuff I'm too excited to put. I'm also going to my first highschool basketball game of the season, and then going to my bestie's house afterwards. :D

Aw, thank you. *I got that reference :D*

Good for you! I'm glad that you're happy. :')

Jesse 01-04-2013 07:56 PM

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Originally Posted by pluzzle (Post 399494)
no offence to anyone

but I find elf kind of moronic

again just my opinion ._.

Isn't it supposed to be?

cloudwriter 01-04-2013 08:57 PM

I don't know who to trust anymore.

Too much has happened today. I feel as if I might explode. -_-

maxi 01-04-2013 09:02 PM

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Originally Posted by cloudwriter (Post 399548)
I don't know who to trust anymore.

Too much has happened today. I feel as if I might explode. -_-

=_=
What's wrong? You need help?

BlueMi 01-04-2013 09:02 PM

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Originally Posted by cloudwriter (Post 399548)
I don't know who to trust anymore.

Too much has happened today. I feel as if I might explode. -_-

You can email me. 3:

cloudwriter 01-04-2013 09:07 PM

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Originally Posted by BlueMi (Post 399553)
You can email me. 3:

Thanks. (: I'm getting on in a second...I posted a basic summary on the Crushes thread. I'll explain it better through email.

AlgebraAddict 01-04-2013 09:12 PM

I hate all of you.

I'll be crying in my room if anybody needs me.

CACrools 01-04-2013 09:15 PM

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Originally Posted by AlgebraAddict (Post 399575)
I hate all of you.

I'll be crying in my room if anybody needs me.

Nonononononononononononononono What happened? *hugs* I'm worried about you.

maxi 01-04-2013 09:40 PM

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Originally Posted by pluzzle (Post 399595)
In the song Little Talks, in your signature, it's Hey not hay.

i know i am just slang talking yah

Bex 01-04-2013 09:43 PM

f****ng hell
My stupid computer just had to run out of charge and delete a drawing I'd been working on for hours! I was actually proud of the goddamn drawing. It was good. And my dumb computer just had to go and delete it.
Grrrrrrrr

Stephiey 01-05-2013 01:06 AM

Dear Mom and Dad:

Shut up. Just... please. I can't take it any more. I can't take you anymore.

You guys are such selfish jerks. Dad, you're nice, but you hate me writing, even though it's my love.

Me: Hey dad! I passed the 50,000 word mark!
You: You spend too much time writing. Go practice jazz piano.

Me: *writing*
You: Stop writing.
Me: But I like it.
You: Well, you have to think about it... who's actually going to read it.

Well... not you, apparently! All you ever care about is me being your little jazz piano puppet daughter who achieves all your dreams because you're not good enough to do that.

Mom, you're just... mean. You told Justin that you love him more than me. I heard. And you always complain and beat down my writing even though you haven't even read it. Stop pretending like you know what's good writing and what's not when you can't even use your pronouns correctly because you can't freaking speak English!

Sadly,

Your daughter.

*rant over*

maxi 01-05-2013 01:22 AM

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Originally Posted by Stephiey (Post 399667)
Dear Mom and Dad:

Shut up. Just... please. I can't take it any more. I can't take you anymore.

You guys are such selfish jerks. Dad, you're nice, but you hate me writing, even though it's my love.

Me: Hey dad! I passed the 50,000 word mark!
You: You spend too much time writing. Go practice jazz piano.

Me: *writing*
You: Stop writing.
Me: But I like it.
You: Well, you have to think about it... who's actually going to read it.

Well... not you, apparently! All you ever care about is me being your little jazz piano puppet daughter who achieves all your dreams because you're not good enough to do that.

Mom, you're just... mean. You told Justin that you love him more than me. I heard. And you always complain and beat down my writing even though you haven't even read it. Stop pretending like you know what's good writing and what's not when you can't even use your pronouns correctly because you can't freaking speak English!

Sadly,

Your daughter.

*rant over*

)': A tear came out of my eye when I read the last sentence. It just had to come out; you are a writer and supposed to get to that 50,000 word mark even if they don't care. :') I bet you that anytime soon they are going to be jealous that you would've finish a novel; that you would've got past everthing in writing; that you would've been published.
Me: *writing*
You: Stop writing.
Me: But I like it.
You: Well, you have to think about it... who's actually going to read it.
I am going to read it. :^D I am going to love and give CC and adore everything you write. You write because it is your love and the reason to get you through everything, the reason to break out of family jail and write...for fun and for seriousness. Your dad and your mum need to know that writing is a thing that us KidPubbers enjoy. Heck, you are on here to write. ^_^
I love your writing, Stephanie.
All of us do.

maxi 01-05-2013 03:01 AM

Sometimes newbies on KidPub just act stupid. >___>


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