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camikat 03-16-2013 09:48 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by maxi (Post 440403)
D^::::::::::: nuuuuu.

Mreh. It's like I'm a pendulum that swings from I'm Walking On Sunshine to Eleanor Rigby. I guess I'm fine now.

maxi 03-16-2013 09:51 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by camikat (Post 440409)
Mreh. It's like I'm a pendulum that swings from I'm Walking On Sunshine to Eleanor Rigby. I guess I'm fine now.

*huggles* Talk to me on Forum Game. I miss talking to you. ^_^

camikat 03-16-2013 09:53 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by maxi (Post 440414)
*huggles* Talk to me on Forum Game. I miss talking to you. ^_^

'Kay. :^) I'm on.

Arin 03-16-2013 10:20 PM

.__. I got a C on an essay, but according to my teacher it's nothing to be ashamed of. Except for the fact that my dad was born and raised in Korea and has extremely high standards. When he was growing up, people at his middle school were RANKED on how well they were academically. Apparently my dad was ranked no. 2 in the school, so you can imagine his reaction when he found out I got a C... -_-

avbhabra 03-16-2013 10:41 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by camikat (Post 440401)
Thanks. :'3

Anytime. If you ever feel like ranting, I'm always here. ;)

Quote:

Originally Posted by camikat (Post 440409)
Mreh. It's like I'm a pendulum that swings from I'm Walking On Sunshine to Eleanor Rigby. I guess I'm fine now.

For a minute, I thought it said "I'm a penguin." xD

Quote:

Originally Posted by Arin (Post 440431)
.__. I got a C on an essay, but according to my teacher it's nothing to be ashamed of. Except for the fact that my dad was born and raised in Korea and has extremely high standards. When he was growing up, people at his middle school were RANKED on how well they were academically. Apparently my dad was ranked no. 2 in the school, so you can imagine his reaction when he found out I got a C... -_-

You're not alone.

My parents have extremely high standards. It' all marks, marks, marks. And I do well in school but sometimes, it just doesn't feel like enough. I mean, as long as you try hard.

My parents are exactly like yours. I tell them I got a 97% and they'll ask what happened to the other 3%. Well, sometimes. The point is, as long as you do your best and push yourself as hard as you can, you're fine. You have to feel satisfied with yourself.

I guess I'm not one to speak because even if I get 100%, I'll still look over my work to make sure I didn't make any mistakes or if the teacher made any mistakes. I guess I'll never be satisfied with yourself. xD

Just do your best. And 99.9% of the time, doing your best results in something good. Take it from me. I've had the pressure since I was young. I've always had to be the best whether it would be sports, academics, competitions. I know I sound cheesey but... it's the truth.

I have faith in everyone. ;)

LaurenM 03-16-2013 11:05 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Confuzzled (Post 440026)
No, I'm not talkin just about this thread. I only posted it in here, because hereis the only place any one would reply. It's the posts. It's making me feel depressed. 0_o

It's only this thread and the cutting thread that's depressing in my opinion.
Quote:

Originally Posted by pluzzle (Post 440164)
Exactly
Exactly
Exactly.

Hopefully today, for both of us, will be better :/ /hugs.
Quote:

Originally Posted by avbhabra (Post 440264)
It's the complete opposite for me. :p

Lucky.
Quote:

Originally Posted by camikat (Post 440335)
I don't know...I feel one-dimensional. Flat. Like I'm empty of meaning. :/

You're not. Everyone has a meaning.
Quote:

Originally Posted by Arin (Post 440431)
.__. I got a C on an essay, but according to my teacher it's nothing to be ashamed of. Except for the fact that my dad was born and raised in Korea and has extremely high standards. When he was growing up, people at his middle school were RANKED on how well they were academically. Apparently my dad was ranked no. 2 in the school, so you can imagine his reaction when he found out I got a C... -_-

At least it's just a C...I got an E in listening once xD
Don't let him get you down, though. There's more to life than grades.

avbhabra 03-16-2013 11:06 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by LaurenM (Post 440472)
It's only this thread and the cutting thread that's depressing in my opinion.

Hopefully today, for both of us, will be better :/ /hugs.

Lucky.

You're not. Everyone has a meaning.

At least it's just a C...I got an E in listening once xD
Don't let him get you down, though. There's more to life than grades.

It doesn't mean I don't get mood swings. D:

LaurenM 03-16-2013 11:08 PM

Eh...but you're still lucky. Today I'm feeling better, though :D

Lily09 03-16-2013 11:08 PM


if you dont fucking care so much shut the fuck go the fuck away and stop fucking talking to me
dont talk to me about my grades
dont force your religion down my throat
dont try to say that you're a good father because you buy me stuff
because really, items dont make up for the yelling and the screaming and the hitting and the 'you're so worthless'
dont fucking say to me that i have absolutely nothing to worry about that all i have to do is study whycantyoujustdoyourwork, stupid?!
dont
say
that
you
guys
are
supportive
because last i checked
you guys actually aren't
you wave your religion in my face, call atheists wrong, and then call me unaccepting
mom shot down my idea of having a GSA
you want me to be friends with people that i dont want to be friends with
and these are just some of the things
go ahead and
dont fucking care
because i dont want to talk to you
i dont want to see you
i dont want to live with you
here's the thing:
i
dont
fucking
love
you
you
are
not
family
to
me
a 16 year old, 13 year olds, and 12 year olds that i have not met are my fucking family
and i find that quite sad but i also dont give a shit
i am biologically family
but i will never ever love you because this relationship is pretty much broken beyond repair, and it started breaking since I was in fourth grade.

so dont act like im required to love you or give you hugs or be a normal daughter because i cant do that
and im not sorry.

LaurenM 03-16-2013 11:11 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 440480)

if you dont fucking care so much shut the fuck go the fuck away and stop fucking talking to me
dont talk to me about my grades
dont force your religion down my throat
dont try to say that you're a good father because you buy me stuff
because really, items dont make up for the yelling and the screaming and the hitting and the 'you're so worthless'
dont fucking say to me that i have absolutely nothing to worry about that all i have to do is study whycantyoujustdoyourwork, stupid?!
dont
say
that
you
guys
are
supportive
because last i checked
you guys actually aren't
you wave your religion in my face, call atheists wrong, and then call me unaccepting
mom shot down my idea of having a GSA
you want me to be friends with people that i dont want to be friends with
and these are just some of the things
go ahead and
dont fucking care
because i dont want to talk to you
i dont want to see you
i dont want to live with you
here's the thing:
i
dont
fucking
love
you
you
are
not
family
to
me
a 16 year old, 13 year olds, and 12 year olds that i have not met are my fucking family
and i find that quite sad but i also dont give a shit
i am biologically family
but i will never ever love you because this relationship is pretty much broken beyond repair, ever since I was in fourth grade.

so dont act like im required to love you or give you hugs or be a normal daughter because i cant do that
and im not sorry.

You don't have to be sorry.

avbhabra 03-16-2013 11:13 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by LaurenM (Post 440479)
Eh...but you're still lucky. Today I'm feeling better, though :D

It doesn't mean I have don't have regrets, fears and sometimes a horrible time. Everyone's lucky. Only a few people actually realize it. :')

Quote:

Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 440480)

if you dont fucking care so much shut the fuck go the fuck away and stop fucking talking to me
dont talk to me about my grades
dont force your religion down my throat
dont try to say that you're a good father because you buy me stuff
because really, items dont make up for the yelling and the screaming and the hitting and the 'you're so worthless'
dont fucking say to me that i have absolutely nothing to worry about that all i have to do is study whycantyoujustdoyourwork, stupid?! dont say that
you
guys
are
supportive
because last i checked
you guys actually aren't
you wave your religion in my face, call atheists wrong, and then call me unaccepting
mom shot down my idea of having a GSA
you want me to be friends with people that i dont want to be friends with
and these are just some of the things
go ahead and
dont fucking care
because i dont want to talk to you
i dont want to see you
i dont want to live with you
here's the thing:
i
dont
fucking
love
you
you
are
not
family
to
me
a 16 year old, 13 year olds, and 12 year olds that i have not met are my fucking family
and i find that quite sad but i also dont give a shit
i am biologically family
but i will never ever love you because this relationship is pretty much broken beyond repair, ever since I was in fourth grade.

so dont act like im required to love you or give you hugs or be a normal daughter because i cant do that
and im not sorry.

*hugs* It'll be better, IT WILL. I find that if you believe in God, everything gets better. And I'm not stupid. I'm just stating the truth. Ask God. Pray to Him. Believe in Him. Just once. For me. Try it. It'll help. I guarantee. God always help, Lily, He always does. That's who I turn to when I feel like poop.

Lily09 03-16-2013 11:14 PM

stop it, i already have one person bugging me about religion i dont need two
sorry if thats rude but i already tried once it didnt work too well

L.S.Trendom 03-16-2013 11:15 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 440480)

if you dont fucking care so much shut the fuck go the fuck away and stop fucking talking to me
dont talk to me about my grades
dont force your religion down my throat
dont try to say that you're a good father because you buy me stuff
because really, items dont make up for the yelling and the screaming and the hitting and the 'you're so worthless'
dont fucking say to me that i have absolutely nothing to worry about that all i have to do is study whycantyoujustdoyourwork, stupid?!
dont
say
that
you
guys
are
supportive
because last i checked
you guys actually aren't
you wave your religion in my face, call atheists wrong, and then call me unaccepting
mom shot down my idea of having a GSA
you want me to be friends with people that i dont want to be friends with
and these are just some of the things
go ahead and
dont fucking care
because i dont want to talk to you
i dont want to see you
i dont want to live with you
here's the thing:
i
dont
fucking
love
you
you
are
not
family
to
me
a 16 year old, 13 year olds, and 12 year olds that i have not met are my fucking family
and i find that quite sad but i also dont give a shit
i am biologically family
but i will never ever love you because this relationship is pretty much broken beyond repair, and it started breaking since I was in fourth grade.

so dont act like im required to love you or give you hugs or be a normal daughter because i cant do that
and im not sorry.

You shouldn't be sorry.
It sucks that they're assholes and that you're not really family. But you know what? It's okay, and it's okay that we're your family, and you're going to be okay. *hugs*

avbhabra 03-16-2013 11:16 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 440488)
stop it, i already have one person bugging me about religion i dont need two
sorry if thats rude but i already tried once it didnt work too well

Suit yourself. I'll stop if if you want. I'm just saying that He helps.

And you're not being rude, you're being blunt. And unfortunately for the world, not many people are. :/

Arin 03-16-2013 11:32 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by avbhabra (Post 440450)
Anytime. If you ever feel like ranting, I'm always here. ;)



For a minute, I thought it said "I'm a penguin." xD



You're not alone.

My parents have extremely high standards. It' all marks, marks, marks. And I do well in school but sometimes, it just doesn't feel like enough. I mean, as long as you try hard.

My parents are exactly like yours. I tell them I got a 97% and they'll ask what happened to the other 3%. Well, sometimes. The point is, as long as you do your best and push yourself as hard as you can, you're fine. You have to feel satisfied with yourself.

I guess I'm not one to speak because even if I get 100%, I'll still look over my work to make sure I didn't make any mistakes or if the teacher made any mistakes. I guess I'll never be satisfied with yourself. xD

Just do your best. And 99.9% of the time, doing your best results in something good. Take it from me. I've had the pressure since I was young. I've always had to be the best whether it would be sports, academics, competitions. I know I sound cheesey but... it's the truth.

I have faith in everyone. ;)

:D I'm really glad to know I'm not alone.

LaurenM 03-16-2013 11:33 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by avbhabra (Post 440493)
Suit yourself. I'll stop if if you want. I'm just saying that He helps.

And you're not being rude, you're being blunt. And unfortunately for the world, not many people are. :/

Yes, but half of her rant is about her parents forcing her to be religious and I don't think you're helping by asking her to pray.

L.S.Trendom 03-16-2013 11:33 PM

i have trust issues it seems
and i hate myself for it
but honestly i think i hope i'm—right i guess the best word is?
i'm so confused and lost right now
and i'd sort of been having a good day, kinda
and now i have no idea how i should feel
and ugh
can i go to sleep and wake up and today have been a dream

avbhabra 03-16-2013 11:36 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Arin (Post 440527)
:D I'm really glad to know I'm not alone.

You most definitely aren't xD

Quote:

Originally Posted by LaurenM (Post 440529)
Yes, but half of her rant is about her parents forcing her to be religious and I don't think you're helping by asking her to pray.

It was only a suggestion. It's entirely her choice.

Quote:

Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 440530)
i have trust issues it seems
and i hate myself for it
but honestly i think i hope i'móright i guess the best word is?
i'm so confused and lost right now
and i'd sort of been having a good day, kinda
and now i have no idea how i should feel
and ugh
can i go to sleep and wake up and today have been a dream

You're an amazing person, LST, you can pull through. ^_^ *hugs* You. Are. Awesome. And I forbid you to deny it. xD

Lily09 03-16-2013 11:36 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 440530)
i have trust issues it seems
and i hate myself for it
but honestly i think i hope i'móright i guess the best word is?
i'm so confused and lost right now
and i'd sort of been having a good day, kinda
and now i have no idea how i should feel
and ugh
can i go to sleep and wake up and today have been a dream

/hugs
i hope you feel better soon. you shouldn't hate yourself for it.
/hands a happy

Lily 03-16-2013 11:41 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 440530)
i have trust issues it seems
and i hate myself for it
but honestly i think i hope i'móright i guess the best word is?
i'm so confused and lost right now
and i'd sort of been having a good day, kinda
and now i have no idea how i should feel
and ugh
can i go to sleep and wake up and today have been a dream

Quote:

Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 440535)
/hugs
i hope you feel better soon. you shouldn't hate yourself for it.
/hands a happy

Don't hate yourself, LST... D:

And this is sort of totally unrelated, but Lily, can I have your Skype?

Lily09 03-16-2013 11:44 PM

blinkingflare.

AlgebraAddict 03-17-2013 01:42 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by pluzzle (Post 440576)
can i not just be left alone


today we drove over some train tracks to get over and i couldn't help but think if i was the only one in the car and i was driving i'd just stop in the middle and i

ugh
it's always sunday's, it's so weird. like i always feel.. suicidal on sunday's. i don't get it





And I'm sick, so my dad has to bring me home Bleenie for Cheesefare. D:

AlgebraAddict 03-17-2013 02:48 AM

don't ask. XD and I haven't even told you about the kissing thing, either.

AlgebraAddict 03-17-2013 01:45 PM

But I'm a little sick, so my mom decided to keep me home from the Cheesefare service so I wouldn't infect everyone else. XD

TheAshWolf 03-17-2013 04:08 PM

Music.

I love you so much, music.

You suddenly make writing possible for me again.

How do you do that, music?


*finally feels motivated again* :'D

AlgebraAddict 03-17-2013 04:15 PM

Thanks, Mom. You're sure helping me cope with my sh*tty day.

Not.

So I guess I'll turn up Sisters of Mercy and get into a place where you can't see me. I probably shouldn't have thought you would have helped me. I should be used to coping with my own pain by now.

Lily09 03-17-2013 11:41 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 441124)
I go to a lame school and I care an unhealthy amount about my grades/am a perfectionist.
But you know what? It's completely effing fine if you can't do that. What's important is that you're surviving (and staying awesome).


But it's not enough, it's not fine if i can't do that. It's not enough to just survive.
Everyone is telling me that I'm not trying hard enough.
My parents are.
Litzy is.
E is.
all my friends are.

but i am trying. it takes a lot of effort to get up, to go to school, to pretend like i'm fine. it takes a whole lot of effort to not put the sharpener blade against my wrist. it takes a lot of effort to get out my homework and do as much as i can even though i know i'll be getting a c or a d or an f yet everyone still seems to think i don't care or that i'm not trying but i am trying. i'm trying to stay on top of math and french and english while trying not to be completely suicidal at the same time but it's hard to do pass all those classes when i can barely even fucking eat or speak to anyone.

Lily09 03-17-2013 11:44 PM

its still not good enough though.

L.S.Trendom 03-17-2013 11:56 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 441130)
But it's not enough, it's not fine if i can't do that. It's not enough to just survive.
Everyone is telling me that I'm not trying hard enough.
My parents are.
Litzy is.
E is.
all my friends are.

but i am trying. it takes a lot of effort to get up, to go to school, to pretend like i'm fine. it takes a whole lot of effort to not put the sharpener blade against my wrist. it takes a lot of effort to get out my homework and do as much as i can even though i know i'll be getting a c or a d or an f yet everyone still seems to think i don't care or that i'm not trying but i am trying. i'm trying to stay on top of math and french and english while trying not to be completely suicidal at the same time but it's hard to do pass all those classes when i can barely even fucking eat or speak to anyone.

It is fucking enough. You need to survive, that's the most important thing. Grades. Do. Not. Judge. You. As. A. Person. You are fucking awesome, and you are smart, it doesn't matter what kinds of grades you get.
They're wrong. You are trying, you're trying so hard, and you're doing good enough.

I'm so, so glad that you're trying. *hugs*
Surviving, eating, not cutting, and feeling better, they're all so much more important than grades.

AlgebraAddict 03-18-2013 12:06 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 441133)
its still not good enough though.


What LST said. Grades are only numbers and letters. They won't matter in a few years. Surviving... well, will.

Confuzzled 03-18-2013 09:28 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by pluzzle (Post 441189)
Well then.
This 'Seriously, guys?' thread made in the Kidpub News category.
I shall stop venting here then. Well, mostly.
Bai.

Yeah.. same with me. :D Even if I did vent, no one really answered, but I don't really care.

BearWithAStrawberry 03-18-2013 12:58 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by pluzzle (Post 441189)
Well then.
This 'Seriously, guys?' thread made in the Kidpub News category.
I shall stop venting here then. Well, mostly.
Bai.

Pluzzle, I want you to know that we're still here for you, okay?
If you really have a serious issue,i think it would be okay to talk to us here.
Alright?

Read_Write 03-18-2013 07:40 PM

Don't even pay attention to me...
 
This is my first time posting on this... I think... I have thought about it for a while...

I don't know what to say; how to say it. You probably don't even care or want to pay attention. I don't really freaking care. Nobody pays very much attention to me anyway.
My life sucks. Well. I only have two people I really feel like is a good friend- and one of them is actually on here. The other I don't get to see very often.
My other so-called friend has gotten annoying and arrogant and know-it-all-ish and it's making me want to brag and show her I'm better, but I'm trying not to be that way. I already have too many flaws.
I will never cut or commit suicide, though. I'm kinda scared of blood and KidPub and my other friend and my parents are worth living for. My sister is only a kind-of. I should take that back, though, It's wrong. My sister's good moods are worth living for, right? I hope so.
I'm smart and I want to show it, but I don't want to be mean. People only sort-of know my name, and people really only acknowledge my level of intelligence. I have no power and nobody cares about me at school. Hopefully next year in middle school will be better.
And I'm not a perfect angel like I let my parents think. I've done so many bad things, things they don't know. They don't realize how many cuss words I hear every day; they don't know how gross and inappropriate people at school are. They don't know how close I am to start cussing; although it's my goal to never ever say a cuss. {In case anyone really cares, I'm succeeding so far.}
Life's just terrible. This rant has gotten kinda long, and, if anyone really made it this far, well, welcome to my life. It might or might not suck to you, but this is all I feel like writing.
You don't even have to reply; nobody will have made it this far or even care enough to reply.
Now let me go write a poem to vent some more.

Do you hate your life? I do. >.<

BearWithAStrawberry 03-18-2013 07:49 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Read_Write (Post 441287)
This is my first time posting on this... I think... I have thought about it for a while...

I don't know what to say; how to say it. You probably don't even care or want to pay attention. I don't really freaking care. Nobody pays very much attention to me anyway.
My life sucks. Well. I only have two people I really feel like is a good friend- and one of them is actually on here. The other I don't get to see very often.
My other so-called friend has gotten annoying and arrogant and know-it-all-ish and it's making me want to brag and show her I'm better, but I'm trying not to be that way. I already have too many flaws.
I will never cut or commit suicide, though. I'm kinda scared of blood and KidPub and my other friend and my parents are worth living for. My sister is only a kind-of. I should take that back, though, It's wrong. My sister's good moods are worth living for, right? I hope so.
I'm smart and I want to show it, but I don't want to be mean. People only sort-of know my name, and people really only acknowledge my level of intelligence. I have no power and nobody cares about me at school. Hopefully next year in middle school will be better.
And I'm not a perfect angel like I let my parents think. I've done so many bad things, things they don't know. They don't realize how many cuss words I hear every day; they don't know how gross and inappropriate people at school are. They don't know how close I am to start cussing; although it's my goal to never ever say a cuss. {In case anyone really cares, I'm succeeding so far.}
Life's just terrible. This rant has gotten long, and, if anyone really made it this far, well, welcome to my life. It might or might not suck to you, but this is all I feel like writing.
You don't even have to reply; nobody will have made it this far or even care enough to reply.
Now let me go write a poem to vent some more.

Do you hate your life? I do. >.<

You have friends?
I don't.
You life doesn't suck.
It's something worth living.

CACrools 03-18-2013 07:50 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Read_Write (Post 441287)
This is my first time posting on this... I think... I have thought about it for a while...

I don't know what to say; how to say it. You probably don't even care or want to pay attention. I don't really freaking care. Nobody pays very much attention to me anyway.
My life sucks. Well. I only have two people I really feel like is a good friend- and one of them is actually on here. The other I don't get to see very often.
My other so-called friend has gotten annoying and arrogant and know-it-all-ish and it's making me want to brag and show her I'm better, but I'm trying not to be that way. I already have too many flaws.
I will never cut or commit suicide, though. I'm kinda scared of blood and KidPub and my other friend and my parents are worth living for. My sister is only a kind-of. I should take that back, though, It's wrong. My sister's good moods are worth living for, right? I hope so.
I'm smart and I want to show it, but I don't want to be mean. People only sort-of know my name, and people really only acknowledge my level of intelligence. I have no power and nobody cares about me at school. Hopefully next year in middle school will be better.
And I'm not a perfect angel like I let my parents think. I've done so many bad things, things they don't know. They don't realize how many cuss words I hear every day; they don't know how gross and inappropriate people at school are. They don't know how close I am to start cussing; although it's my goal to never ever say a cuss. {In case anyone really cares, I'm succeeding so far.}
Life's just terrible. This rant has gotten long, and, if anyone really made it this far, well, welcome to my life. It might or might not suck to you, but this is all I feel like writing.
You don't even have to reply; nobody will have made it this far or even care enough to reply.
Now let me go write a poem to vent some more.

Do you hate your life? I do. >.<

Aww Lydia. I'm sorry that life is so hard, and I'm sorry that you've got to deal with all of this bleh. Just know that I'm here for you if you need me, and you've got my email if you need to talk to me at all.

Read_Write 03-18-2013 07:51 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by BearWithAStrawberry (Post 441288)
You have friends?
I don't.
You life doesn't suck.
It's something worth living.

So-called friends. A friend. That I hardly get alone.

I think I'm gonna end up crying myself to sleep again tonight. D':
You really think it's worth living?


Quote:

Originally Posted by CACrools (Post 441289)
Aww Lydia. I'm sorry that life is so hard, and I'm sorry that you've got to deal with all of this bleh. Just know that I'm here for you if you need me, and you've got my email if you need to talk to me at all.

Okay... Thanks...

I don't know why I'm getting replies.

BearWithAStrawberry 03-18-2013 07:53 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Read_Write (Post 441290)
So-called friends. A friend. That I hardly get alone.

I think I'm gonna end up crying myself to sleep again tonight. D':

Not as bad as me.

BearWithAStrawberry 03-18-2013 07:57 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Read_Write (Post 441287)
This is my first time posting on this... I think... I have thought about it for a while...

I don't know what to say; how to say it. You probably don't even care or want to pay attention. I don't really freaking care. Nobody pays very much attention to me anyway.
My life sucks. Well. I only have two people I really feel like is a good friend- and one of them is actually on here. The other I don't get to see very often.
My other so-called friend has gotten annoying and arrogant and know-it-all-ish and it's making me want to brag and show her I'm better, but I'm trying not to be that way. I already have too many flaws.
I will never cut or commit suicide, though. I'm kinda scared of blood and KidPub and my other friend and my parents are worth living for. My sister is only a kind-of. I should take that back, though, It's wrong. My sister's good moods are worth living for, right? I hope so.
I'm smart and I want to show it, but I don't want to be mean. People only sort-of know my name, and people really only acknowledge my level of intelligence. I have no power and nobody cares about me at school. Hopefully next year in middle school will be better.
And I'm not a perfect angel like I let my parents think. I've done so many bad things, things they don't know. They don't realize how many cuss words I hear every day; they don't know how gross and inappropriate people at school are. They don't know how close I am to start cussing; although it's my goal to never ever say a cuss. {In case anyone really cares, I'm succeeding so far.}
Life's just terrible. This rant has gotten kinda long, and, if anyone really made it this far, well, welcome to my life. It might or might not suck to you, but this is all I feel like writing.
You don't even have to reply; nobody will have made it this far or even care enough to reply.
Now let me go write a poem to vent some more.

Do you hate your life? I do. >.<

Isn't everybody's life like that, Lydia?
WE all hear cuss words at school,
We all aren't perfect (nobody will EVER EVER be)
WE all have some not-so-amazing friends.
There is no need to cry over this.
It's called life.
Life isn't fair.
It might as well be a game.
You have to get the upper hand.
Maybe even cheat a little, but in the long-run, your goal is to win the game of life. Okay?

Read_Write 03-18-2013 07:59 PM

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Originally Posted by BearWithAStrawberry (Post 441293)
Isn't everybody's life like that, Lydia?
WE all hear cuss words at school,
We all aren't perfect (nobody will EVER EVER be)
WE all have some not-so-amazing friends.
There is no need to cry over this.
It's called life.
Life isn't fair.
It might as well be a game.
You have to get the upper hand.
Maybe even cheat a little, but in the long-run, your goal is to win the game of life. Okay?

I know, but my parents don't know. That was what I meant. Never mind, anyway.

BearWithAStrawberry 03-18-2013 08:30 PM

1. I am not popular

2. I am boring

3. I wish someone would just listen

4. I recline behind a closed door with the humidifier on

5. I always have a thin silver ring on my right pointer finger

6. It won't be moved

7. You can move it when I'm dead

8. I highly doubt that you would want to touch me by then

9. A vein in my body popped

10. It caused an amout of blood equivalent to halfway up a size 4 ballet shoe

11. I love to sing

12. I love to dance

13. I love to act

14. I love to move around

15. When nobody is around

16. I'll sing all the songs in my mental CD shelf

17. I'm only human

18. I sometimes wish I were not

19. I wish I was special

20. I'm a liar

21. I'm funny

22. Just kidding

23. I am not

24. I will never be

25. I am humorously challenged

26. Some might say that I am socially challenged

27. I belive that I am not

28. I twirl my wrists

29. I am rather thin

30. I don't mean it.....

31. "That" way

32. I am my own person

33. I enjoy the feel of a brand-new book cover

34. My head hurts

35. I am claustrophobic

36. I would rather commit suicide

37. Than touch a spider

38. I have a bird

39. I had two pets who both died

40. Because of me

41. I cry alot

42. Even when there's nothing to be sad about

43. I don't dream

44. When I do, I dream of

45. Fear

46. Darkness

47. I have insomnia

48. I have one sibling

49. He is my brother

50. He is very much a dreamer

51. My head is in the clouds

52. Someday, I hope to see Lucy

53. I hope to see her in the sky

54. Possibly with diamonds

55. I am not referring to the song

56. I want to smile

57. Dance

58. That's it. Dance

59. This is getting personnal

60. I don't mind it

61. After all, nobody knows me

62. Not on KidPub

63. I have a pen-name

64. My pen-name is Viylet Twyle

65. It represents the girl I will never be

66. If you haven't figured it out already, I hate text talk

67. I feed on the thesaurus

68. People make fun of me

69. I'M THE GIRL WHO STILL CARES WHAT PEOPLE THINK ABOUT ME

70. I put that in caps

71. It's true

72. I still care

73. I wish I didn't

74. I have a memory board

75. It doesn't have a single picture of me on it

76. Only pictures of other people

77. I have a dream jar

78. It is by my bedside

79. I write my wishes in them

80. Will they ever come true?

81. I don't know

82. I have spelling errors

83. I wish I didn't

84. I am weak

85. I am fragile

86. I have a very sensitive side

87. I am afraid to show it

88. I wish I could hold my head high all the time

89. I dislike all the stories I have written

90. They are boring and plainative

91. I have to get shots every week

92. My arm now has a bump where I get the shots

93. I am getting older

94. I still make wishes

95. I make wishes on dandelions

96. And on shooting stars

97. I have much to wish for

98. I hold a lot of things in

99. I wish I was a strong person

100. I still care


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