| HeatherB |
07-12-2013 07:26 AM |
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Originally Posted by Sandy
(Post 479840)
Does anyone else ever feel... below human?
Like... not low as a human, but just... not human? Not deserving human treatment?
I dunno, the more I think about what should and should not be mentally "normal" in today's psychological world, I feel more and more undeserving of the life I have.
God, I just feel...
absolutely nuts.
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yeah, all the time. like i'm gonna go absolutely insane. two nights ago i had to stalk out of the kitchen because my dad was chewing food and i couldn't actually stand the sound that i've heard nearly every frikkin' night of my life. and it felt like i was going to explode or something if i didn't get away from the sound. and i felt/feel like i was/am going crazy.
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Originally Posted by pluzzle
(Post 479900)
WOAH WOAH WOAH. BACK THE FLIP UP YEAH
*dan reference without the swearing*
you like...
dan and phil
*dies*
be my bff
nao
XDD i love them. i wrote some phanfiction a while ago that was okay
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YESSS DAN AND PHIL ARE MY BBS
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Originally Posted by camikat
(Post 479750)
Sometimes I can't help but think that people just talk to me out of pity. I mean, sure, they seem happy enough, but it isn't the same with other people. With me, there are awkward silences and strained laughs. With me, I'm silently wishing someone else will join the conversation to save me from the awkwardness. I just don't think I'm a very likeable person. I used to be okay with that, confident in myself, but now...I don't know.
>.<
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this is why i avoid people i know like the plague. and when i do talk to them, it's online so they can't see my awkward expression as i try to figure out what to write to them and make sure it's not too weird and makes sure it won't offend them too much.
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Originally Posted by Stephiey
(Post 479776)
There was this girl from my Algebra class who died last night in a car wreck. I wasn’t close to her; she was a year ahead of me and one of the “popular” girls. But I remember how she used to talk and laugh with her friends and how she was in Student Council with me and ran for president and IT MAKES ME SO SAD. I don’t even know why. I didn’t know her. I guess it just freaks me out thinking that she was so young and pretty and had her whole life in front of her and now it’s all gone. I just… ugh.
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*hugs* i'm sorry. death is a shitty thing, and life is way too fragile.
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Originally Posted by Confuzzled
(Post 479695)
Mah rant about depression on the NSP.
Okaysies. So... as we all know (if you don't you're about to find out) this week has been a very depressing week for KP. Everyone kind of had their moments, and we were all there to comfort them. So kudos to all of those who are helping eachother out.
Then I started thinking about it, and something dawned on me. Actually, more like a few things did.
1. Not all of us are actually that depressed: What I mean by this is attention. We all want people to care for us, right? We might be sad, but we are overexaggerating and making it a deep, horrible depression. I'm not saying that is you, but think about it. When I thought about my little spout yesterday, I think I made it a little worse than it actually was. And that's because I wanted people to care, I thought no one would. (Turns out I was wrong) But if you really aren't that sad and just want attention, please don't post things like that. It gets peeps worried about you, and then the whole KP site goes crazy.
2. KP isn't meant to be a venting site: Now this is where I lose peoples. KidPub was made for kids to post their stories, books, poems, etc. Not to fill it up with depressing things. But, sometimes we all have to vent, ya know? That is what the WB is for. If you are feeling down, post on a WB thread. Let's not fill the NSP up with depressing things that make people all depressed because you wrote them. Take me as an example. I was feeling really down, and I kind of spammed the NSP (I don't really know what to call it) but in reality, I could've gone to a thread or the AN. Technically, I would first go to the WB instead of the AN so you don't depress peoples there, but you know, sometimes you have to. So please, let's not fill the NSP with sadness and depression. I'm not saying you can't post anything, but let's just keep it down to a minumum for KP's sake.
3. Stop saying you aren't worth it: To those peoples who are depressed, stop not listening to those who are trying to help! I know what bugs me out of my system is when people keep saying, I'm not worth it. No offense, but why do you want people to help you if you aren't even listening to them? You gotta try guys. It's in you somewhere.
4. Help people out: Most of us do this, so that's good. What I am saying is if you see someone post on the WB that they're feeling down, help them! Just ask what's wrong and try to comfort them. Like I said before, most of us are already doing this so I don't think this is a big problemo.
See? We have a compromise to those who really need to vent. No no on the NSP, but the AN and WB are open. Do you guys get what I mean? KP is a writing site, not a venting site. Let's help others out, and help ourselves out by listening to those who are helping us.
What else do I have to rant about...
Errmm...
So guys, let's all make a really big effort to stay happy. For everyone's sake. Let's change our usernames to bright ones,let's post happy stories. Okaysies? We don't want newbies coming all excited onto this site, and then they realize all it is is depression.
OH! A contract.
You don't have to do this, but you can if you.. umm.. feel strongly about this. :)
I (insert main username here) promise to not vent what isn't true, and if I need to vent post it on the WB or in extreme cases the AN. I also promise to listen to those who help me, and try to lift myself up.(by changing username or maybe posting things happy) Lastly, I promise to help all those who are feeling depressed and try to make them feel better about themselves.
I, Confuzzled, promise to not vent what isn't true, and if I need to vent post it on the WB or in extreme cases the AN. I also promise to listen to those who help me, and try to lift myself up. (by changing username or maybe posting things happy) Lastly, I promise to help all those who are feeling depressed and try to make them feel better about themselves.
Thanks for listening guys! And please, no fights in comments. :)
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okay, in regards to 1) i'm pretty sure all of us, at one point or another, have exaggerated our lives to get attention. there's nothing necessarily wrong with wanting attention, just the means you use to achieve it. so long as you're not doing any harm to anyone or to yourself, it's fine. however, you should keep in mind that there ARE people on kp that have serious issues--depression or otherwise. there are people everywhere with serious issues. it's not a good thing, but it's not going to be stopped if we stop venting about our problems. venting is a good thing. sometimes when i don't vent for a while it's because i know i don't deserve to feel good and better like i do after i've vented. no one even needs to respond to my vents (for me, personally), because just the act of venting is enough for me.
2) i was not aware that people were posting vents and such on the nsp (mainly cuz i never go on there anymore). please, guys, don't do this. it's for stories. for stuff that you've written for other people or your own entertainment. it's a different way of making yourself feel better.
3) for me, at least, this is because of the aforementioned thing where i don't vent for other people to respond. it's fine with me if they do respond, but just venting itself is relaxing for me. also, if you're seriously depressed, you ARE inclined to think that you aren't worth it. it's kind of a thing that goes with depression. and it's not that we don't appreciate you guys' help and sympathy, honestly. but it's hard to accept your help if we think we're not worth it-- acceptance and appreciation are different things, and we can want to let others respond to our vents even if we don't fully accept what they're saying because their reply lets us know that they CARE. even if we don't think what they're saying is completely right, it's still nice to have people reply and realize that your problems are cared about.
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