tbh I don't listen to ppl who say grades are really important so lemme tell you a story.
(i was told this story by my homeroom teacher)

There was a girl in Year 12 here, final year, was doing her QCS (QLD core skills) test and she got her results back (OP, overall placement, 1-25. 1 being best, 25 being the worst), bam, 25. Yeah, she was upset, her parents were too. SHe was never traditionally 'smart' - she was always average. She was amazing at art though. She got her portfolio done, went down to the capital city (where all the good uni's are) and applied to, like, 5 different universities. She got an offer for all of them, they didn't look at her OP or her grades. She now designs different objects, like cars and stuff, and is quite well paid and happily married.

yes, grades do matter if you want to study something like english or law or whatever but they are not what defines you as a person, they don't shape your personality, they aren't who you are.

Yay, story time! I know this is serious, but I hear "grades are super important" a lot, but then other times people are like "grades are so unimportant I don't know why they exist" and I don't quite agree with either one, so I'd like to see some other opinions. ouo That and I like it when people tell (me) stories.

EDIT: Wow, I read the story now. ART. That's all I can really say right now because that's pretty similar to a situation here at my house.

hehehe.
ART! Same goes with music. Patrick Stump didn't do v well in school except music and look at him now he's cute too wow!!!!

Aw Lena
I don't know what to say but
I know you're a friking amazing person and you don't deserve to feel like this. I'm 'weird' as well, everyone is, sort of. You know, you only have to learn to live with it.
Life's a bitch, I know, but everyone is.
You shouldn't be feeling like this, trust me.
You have the most amazing voice and you should have totally gotten the part, but life has its twists and turns. You may not like it, but you can't change it either. Just get used to it, use the oranges it gave you instead of the lemons you were expecting, and make lemonade anyways.
You're an amazing girl with a lot of potential, an amazing singing voice (who should totally record an album) and captivating, brilliant writing skills. Don't feel bad, and don't give up, cause I certainly haven't given up on you. <3
I'm here for you Lena. (*hugs for eternity*)

I just need to show this to my parents, but they probably won't believe you. :( They didn't even believe my comm arts and science teachers who said, in front of the class, "Grades don't matter much." Literally.

Stop treating me like a fucking champion, because I'm not, okay?
Stop lying to me, would you?
Stop. Don't congratulate me. I don't deserve it.
Is it pity, because I "tried my hardest" while injured?
First, I don't want your pity.
I hate pity. So much.
Second, I seriously doubt I did. Therefore, I don't deserve anything.
Third, no one else directly injured me, so it's no one's fault but my own.
I hate it.
I hate seeing everyone else with their medals, bragging or no.
Oh, look, envy again. That little shit just won't go away.
I feel utterly humiliated, whether others cared or not.
I'm ashamed of myself for failing.
Oh look, perfectionist tendencies.
If I don't win, I failed.
I'd rather be reprimanded for being a weakling than receive "congratulations".

A mixture of pride, wrath, and envy, because I definitely need more of those things.

Also, I disagree with all of you.

these past few weeks have been really rough. but last night after my psychiatrist appointment my mom actually noticed how awful i was feeling mentally and emotionally and gave me permission to skip school and have a mental health day today, which was amazing of her. she doesn't normally absorb the fact that i have trustworthy emotions at all, and my dad even less so, but she convinced him so i've been at home all day catching up on homework and sleep and trying to get in a better state of mind. i think i'll be ok for now, but i've been suicidal consistently over the last two weeks and it really scared me because normally those episodes don't even last thirty minutes so to have it last around fifteen days was terrifying. but like i said, i think it'll be better now. thanks for your concern ^-^
i needed this today. thank you.

just for the record, colleges don't look at middle school grades. when i entered high school, literally the first thing the teachers told everyone was that everything you have accomplished and achieved up until now doesn't matter. what you do in high school matters, they say. that's what will get you into college--and that's true. in terms of college, middle school is completely and utterly irrelevant. but teachers in high school like to say "everything you learned in middle school is useless!" and then berate you when you don't know the answer to a 'simple' question because "didn't you learn this in middle school?" as long as you try your best, honestly, and at least attempt to somewhat retain information to the best of your ability, there's nothing more that can be asked of you. you will try, and you will fail, and you will err. it's ok. grades do matter if you want to be received well academically. but they do not by any means define you as a whole human being. your grade at life is not a b+. it is not in terms of letters or numbers or percentages. it is in terms of how well you live, and how well you feel. your mental health comes before everything else, and this is important. because your mental health affects how you handle everything else, and therefore should be the most primary concern in your life. concentrate on taking care of your mental state of mind and then do the rest.
sorry that got sort of rambly. but i hope you at least find some semblance of interest in this.