So. Back to square one, eh?
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It's either depressed or emotionless, sad or nothing at all, and I still don't know which one is worse.

What happened?

I feel like no-one I know really cares about me.
My mother stalks me (everywhere except WB) and is an absolute control freak. My father is convinced my mother has a new boyfriend, and constantly tries to use me as a messenger pigeon and tries to get me to stalk my mum. My youngest sister is constantly throwing tantrums which I have to sort out, and my other sister is seriously violent - I have to del wih her too.
I literally run any kind of birthdays or events in my household - my mum seems to have forgotten that my sisters still believe in Santa, and I need to remind her every day that we need a tree and need to get the presents, because Christmas will never be peaceful if there aren't presents and a tree to decorate to occupy my sisters. My parents are currently only letting me do one club (Aikido) as they constantly forget to sign my up. I know it's not a lack of money, because my sisters do at least one club every day, and it really wouldn't kill them to focus on their homework a bit more and cut back their clubs so I can at least keep another one.
My mum seems to forget I need money to buy food at school, so I often have to go through her purse to find loose change, or will use my own pocket money.
I feel suffocated and like I'm the only responsible person in my family. I honestly thought that my mum would perhaps be nicer after the bullying in school, but she now just ignores me, only speaking to me to insult me or order me to look after my sisters.
School isn't much better - my 'friends' are still basically ignoring me and he few real friends I have I almost never see. The school still hasn't done anything about the bullying incidents, and I just generally feel alone. My grades are dropping fast, which lowers my self-esteem, and I find it difficult to get even a few hours sleep at night. The rest I do get is very light and not very relaxing or restful.

This year, I'm trying out for a chorus role in my school play. I really want to be a part of it, but I can't sing, and I've neither danced nor acted before. It's just a middle school play, and auditions are in a month, but I really don't want to screw this up.

/hugs I'm really sorry you have to deal with all that…
We care about you, though. Others do, too.
Would a counsellor help with that at all?
As for your self esteem… you're bloody awesome. I mean, come on, you like Doctor Who and Sherlock—how could you not be awesome? (:
Good luck! :D
Dancing's hell. At least for me.
Luckily I didn't have to audition. :D

As much as I hate to say it, I don't know any of you in real life. I appreciate the thought, but right now I need caring face-to-face. *bitter laugh* Others? What others?
I hate counsellors. I always get the overly sympathetic ones, and that REALLY annoys me, because they will never understand what I am going through. No matter how much I explain it. I already had services from one of the best mental health and psychology hospitals in the world, but I hated the person assigned to me. She had no idea what it was like for me, and that frustrated me.
Thanks. *shaky grin*

This thread actually depresses me to see what all these people are going through. Why does life have to be so hard? Well, even through the bad times, there is always good. :D I sound like some philosopher.. :D
Well, this is completely and totally random, but how do you make a sig here? (Like on WB)

Ah, health and psychology help. Guidance counselors? Please. I never thought that I would sink to to the depths that I'm in right now. I was so happy. But what I had no idea was going to happen was cutting. I just sometimes threaten myself. Hopefully it won't get worse.

You'll be fine! How could you not be? You're Mary Elizabeth!
Acting's easy - as long as you think of it as your real life, instead of a play. You're a writer, so easy.
Dancing as well, if you have a good sense of timing.
Singing - just getting the right notes.
Not too hard in the end, right?