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Originally Posted by BlueMi (Post 397515)

The thread is easier, but if you want to email, my email is _____.Tell me when you've seen it so I can take it down. xD
Yeah, I don't do any sports except circus, but classes are expensive, so I only do it once a week, and that doesn't do me much good in the long run. My thighs are huge, but it's not muscle, I'm telling you. xD
Yay for you. *high fives* I was so happy the other day because my friend and I dressed like each other (it was a Spirit Week thing), so we traded clothes, and I borrowed her favorite pair of jeans. I expected them to not fit because she is really skinny, but they did! Even though they're big on her and tight on me. THEY STILL FIT. :D

Okay, I saw it. :) I took it down up there for ya. ^^ I think doing circus would be fun. When it was soccer season and we were conditioning, we had to run about three miles everyday. It killed me, but it was worth it because now I got firm thighs. :D And yay! I'm happy for you. It's always an accomplishment when we can fit into our skinny friend's clothing, eh? You looked skinny in your pics on Instagram, though! My email is cmeeks143@gmail.com

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Originally Posted by Caleigh (Post 397524)

Alright, thanks! It totally is. You should just totally move here and take classes with me, that totally won't be inconvenient for you or anything. xD During the summer, my circus teacher would make us do the "burn" which was a five-ten minute intense work out, and it... well, burned. xD But it was worth it. And haha, yes, definitely. I did? Well, I'm good at positioning myself for the camera, heehee. When I take pictures of myself, I have to take it from twenty different angles to make sure I only have one chin. :P And okay, I added you to my contacts. ^_^

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Originally Posted by BlueMi (Post 397545)

XD I would if I could! Somehow I have a feeling my parents wouldn't agree, though. I usually take a lot of pictures just because when I look at them again, they usually look horrible. xD And then when I find a decent one, I have to find an effect. And then I upload it and go cry in the corner. Jussst kidding. I just had a low-fat strawberry yogurt with granola, so I need to go do some crunches so I can still fit in that shirt tomorrow. XD I'll put a pic of me in it on Instagram tomorrow when I wear it to school. :D

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Originally Posted by Caleigh (Post 397564)

Haha, just a weird feeling that for some reason your parents won't want you to. Haha, me too. The other day, I was in the dining room and my dad was in the living room, and I took like fifty pictures of myself with my iPod, and it makes the camera noise when you take a picture, so he heard me take all those pictures and he kept looking over at me like I was insane. xD
After trapeze today, I went to this sandwich place for lunch and had a sub, and I was like GAMMIT I JUST LOST ALL THIS WEIGHT ON TRAPEZE AND THEN I ATE TWICE OF WHAT I LOST IN SANDWICH. xD

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Originally Posted by BlueMi (Post 397588)

That happens to me ALL the time. D: After conditioning, I would go to Subway and get my usual: a 6 inch white, turkey bacon melt with american cheese, toasted, with lettuce and a TON of mayo. Not the healthiest thing. XD "Nothing tastes as good as skinny feels." Oh, on the contrary, I can name a TON a things that taste better. Coconut pie, strawberries dipped in chocolate, bacon, double cheeseburger from McDonalds, etc. XDDD
Here are the reasons why I'm fat:
1) I eat when I'm bored
2) I'm bored all the time

^^Story of my life. :'D

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Originally Posted by Caleigh (Post 397598)

I like the reasons. I'm gonna remember that.

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Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 397442)

Wednesday, Wednesday, Wednesday...how I hate thee. x_x *sits down in a corner* *curls up into a ball* I just want to disappear on Wednesdays...

:^B Care to share or email?

Geez, Mom, I'm just trying to be honest, and you laugh at me.
how incredibly freaking NICE of you
Also I can't WAIT for the day I move out of here, don't you dare chain me to the house.

Wow okay.
I hate how I'm jealous of my friends for having a good-ish life... like I should be happy for them and I am but I'm also jealous. Take L, she's got a cool dad who's letting her dye her hair and get a nose ring and supports gays and is just cool, despite some of his anger issues. And she's got a sister that she shares everything with. E's family has a bit more money than other families and she has a great life, despite her bad past.
And then there's me. I've got a bad childhood and I can't really remember any good times. The most I can recall is my dad hitting me and shoving me around and I guess you could say beating. And I used to have a great relationship with my brother, but now I'm just disconnected from my family. I hate myself every single day. It's 90% my fault when things go wrong.
I'm kind of jealous of how nice their lives seem.
And not just jealous, but I feel alone. L gets her electronics taken away every day at 6 pm, sometimes a lot earlier. So I don't ever get to tell her how I feel because all of these feelings come after 6. And not just that, she's such a happy person that I don't want to rain on her parade. With E, I don't know... I don't want to remind her of her own bad childhood that she used to have, since she has a good one right now.
A few weeks ago, L found one of my posts on here. When she pestered me about it I said, "I can't tell you." and she said, "Oh, so you can't tell me, but you can tell a bunch of people online? You shouldn't tell online people how you feel and your secrets."
But then, I'd have no one else to talk to.
I don't know.

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Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 398038)

*massive hugs*
I get jealous of other people sometimes too. You're not alone in that. It's natural.
I wish you didn't have to wait so long to get away from your family…
I really doubt it's 90% your fault when things go wrong.
maybe you could ask her if you could email her, while she's off her electronics, if you need to? That might help with her being pissed about you posting on here…
Don't hate yourself. To be completely honest, I don't think it will make anything better, at least not much. I have a lot of experience with self-hate, and, yeah, none of these arguments would help me. But I really think that, though you make mistakes, you're still a good person and you don't deserve to be hated. By you or anyone else.