Hey, back off. Just trying to help:mad:

But she's right.
AA's just being realistic. You mean ideal friends, not the friends in reality. My real life friends don't understand my self-harm. None of them I can trust. I can't talk to them about anything.

Steph: Well, we're here if you need to vent. My contact tab is always open. And I understand getting hit/beat. It sucks D: I've been dealing with it since I was little. It's not always just as easy as telling an authority, but if it gets really bad, then maybe you should.

Shall try. :) Thank you. But I have a feeling I left it in my locker at school... If so, I shall be very happy tomorrow morning. xD

If you have friends like that, I congratulate you. Most people don't, however. It's only true.

I got the amazing idea to write dance quotes on little index cards and make them all pretty and stash them all over the house in obvious places I know my parents will find them. ^___^ I want to be on the dance team soooo bad and I've worked soooo hard for it.

This is my Mom and my conversation before church:

Me: Soooo...did you guys get my letter?
Mom: Yes, and it was quite convincing. I'm just scared you're not gonna be comfortable doing some of the moves because a couple of them are a bit provocative (she's talking about the ones where we move our butts XD). So get some of your friends to go through the dances and make sure you're gonna be okay with it. It's not a "no", I just don't know if I want you out there doing that.
Me: Okay. Thanks, Mom.


There aren't really any provocative moves, though. I don't know how to show her that part. Soccer conditioning started today...and it's only a matter of time until Mom finds out. Last year she made me go and she promised I wouldn't have to play soccer again after last year (because of the bullying), so I guess I'll see if she keeps her promise or not. :/

How the hell do you even find friends like those he mentioned that don't live in different states or countries? The only friends I have that I can trust are online friends.

I have no idea. Most of my friends regard me as an oddity that is slightly below them, and spend most of their pleasurable time with me making fun of my tastes in music or literature and/or manipulating me.

Let me feel like a jerk commence...

I guess you are right. I am sorry for snapping so quickly and over reacting.

My friends are like this:

Litzy: Has the same music tastes as me but she seems to act like I'm annoying and she says things like, "Just don't cut." or "Just don't be sad." so I don't trust her a lot.
E: is peppy and has never self harmed, doesn't really want to hear about me self harming.
Abby: ^^^
Izzy: we're not that close
other minor-ish friends: don't want to hear about my problems, think I'm really strange, and consider me lower.

The only friends that I can really trust are LST, DragonRider, and Cheezemziez. And then I trust LaurenM and Heather also, but those Isaackle, DR, and Cheeze are the ones I go to the most.