good
i am glad
i don't want to be at my school anymore
my school sucks
i just need to get away from everyone
namely
those who care about me
so i can just let myself drown
i'm not making my yearbook page
'cause i don't want people to look back
if they recognize my obituary in the paper
and say "oh there was that weird girl
she used to be outgoing
then she kept to herself all of a sudden
now she's committed suicide
pity"
when really
it's not a pity
and remembering
will just make
it hurt
more

i knew it
i knew that was why
don't please don't commit suicide
everyone cares about you even if you don't care
are you willing to drag everyone else down
are you
do you feel anything anymore
want me to tell you a story?

once upon a time there were two girls. one was an amazing person, one was a follower. one day, the follower was scared, and the amazing girl helped her. one day the amazing girl fell and broke her ankle. she could walk, but it wasn't easy. two months later, she sprained her ankle again. the follower comforted her, but the amazing girl needed ro be left alone. on the last day of school, the amazing girl fell into a pit. the follower tried to help, but the amazing girl pleaded with her to go on, that she didn't matter, nobody cared. but the follower cared. the follower cared.

was that a nice story
i think it was
because it was shit
and nowadays
shit is a nicer feeling
please heather
please
please
i'm crying
i'm crying
and i know that since what happened with the teacher
you don't want to talk
but you need to
please
if you do what you say
i can't promise you that i won't do the same

hey btw i figured out your problem
you refer to yourself as 'the follower'
which is no offense correct
but
you're trying to follow
a follower
i'm not a leader
i never have been
i never will be
you should just choose a new friend while you're at it
we're already getting split for high school
so like
just get a friend who's not me
who's actually a leader
who can actually help you
because you need help, too
it's not just me
you know that
and you need, you deserve a better friend
than i am
and than i will ever be
(there was one option but she opted out i think so yeah idk idk)

Oh gawd.
No.
Don;t you leave.

;______________________;

No one seems to be okay. I'm not. I messed something important up yesterday. At school. I got into a lot of trouble. Now I don't know what to do, and my parents have banned me. But you know, advantages of being up early.

Who hates you? D:

Shunned? WAT?

Aw D: it can get a bit fast sometimes.

I had an argument with a teacher, okay? Over homework. I'm in isolation today. Probably. It's a lot of fun.