Originally Posted by MaryElizabeth (Post 452852)

Yes. I don't know a whole lot about it, but I know the main part of it. You draw a butterfly on your arm for the days that you're clean, right?

Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 452741)

omfg.
i don't know if i should hope, hoping's never turned out well before.
but, if things do pretty much work out, i'll be relieved, yeah. but i don't think i'll let myself be very happy, and i certainly won't forgive myself.
but still omfg.

Originally Posted by pluzzle (Post 452412)

yeah they just asdfghjkl. :P nice spelling XD

do as much as you can to get a different therapist, she doesn't know what she's doing, obviously.. :(

Originally Posted by HeatherB (Post 452866)

if you can't forgive yourself, at least let it ebb away to the point where you can forget the need to forgive.
i should probably write that in better english, but i think you get the point.
*hugs*

thank you *bows*

yeah. she basically told me that i wasn't REALLY depressed and started reading the symptoms of depression out of af UCKING THERAPY BOOK to me and she's like "if you don't have these ALL THE TIME then you are not really depressed" and it's just,w ell, even if it's not all the time it's still THERE, lurking and waiting for me to fall down so it can kick me again and again and again and i still haven't told her about becca and monica and hedge ;ahgdssa;gh. apparently i still can't talk about this without wanting to rip off someone's face, but you get the point.
direct quote: "well, honey, maybe you're not depressed. maybe you're just sad."
and she goes on to say, "what are you sad about? hmmmm? i know you know." and of course, i can't tell her that i'm just depressed, because she won't fucking believe me. so i say "i'm sad because i don't know what's making me sad" at least not anymore i don't because i am apparently not fucking depressed according to her and she goes "no you do you just won't tell me *sigh*"
okay can i just punch soething now

Originally Posted by HeatherB (Post 452868)

Originally Posted by HeatherB (Post 452866)

if you can't forgive yourself, at least let it ebb away to the point where you can forget the need to forgive.
i should probably write that in better english, but i think you get the point.
*hugs*

thank you *bows*

yeah. she basically told me that i wasn't REALLY depressed and started reading the symptoms of depression out of af UCKING THERAPY BOOK to me and she's like "if you don't have these ALL THE TIME then you are not really depressed" and it's just,w ell, even if it's not all the time it's still THERE, lurking and waiting for me to fall down so it can kick me again and again and again and i still haven't told her about becca and monica and hedge ;ahgdssa;gh. apparently i still can't talk about this without wanting to rip off someone's face, but you get the point.
direct quote: "well, honey, maybe you're not depressed. maybe you're just sad."
and she goes on to say, "what are you sad about? hmmmm? i know you know." and of course, i can't tell her that i'm just depressed, because she won't fucking believe me. so i say "i'm sad because i don't know what's making me sad" at least not anymore i don't because i am apparently not fucking depressed according to her and she goes "no you do you just won't tell me *sigh*"
okay can i just punch soething now

Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 452870)

ugh she sounds like a complete fucking bitch and a shitty therapist. like srsly she should at least be better than young teenagers on the internet ugh. *hugs*

you're not a fuckup.
You are, however, really fucking awesome.

Originally Posted by BearWithAStrawberry (Post 452872)

MY CATERpillars DieD TOday
(i don't draw butterflies)
DIED TODAY.
leTS Hold a FUNEral!