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Old 12-30-2016, 11:02 PM
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feeling lonely and melancholy but also not wanting to be around people
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Old 12-31-2016, 07:25 AM
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you don't have to like being tall
no one can make you like being tall
so first off don't feel bad because you can't just stfu and "like" it. that's not your fault.

also, teachers and parents and friends don't always understand what you're going through and ik you've tried telling them to stop but in the end they might just continue being assholes. those jokes are not funny and you don't deserve to feel like crap because of them. it is awful. i know there's a limit to how much I can help, but pls keep in mind that you. do. not. deserve this. also when you're out of adolescence, a) you will have gotten more confident in your own body and b) adults will stop looking down on u bc teenager they can pick on and c) other teenagers will be looking up to YOU not giving u shit bc of ur height.

please hang in there <3
thank so much <3 I've just had a bad week or so mental-health wise so thanks for putting up with my rantings lol
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Old 12-31-2016, 07:31 AM
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ugh so first of all swallow you are the best and they are all wrong and i would support you more but i'm literally crying at midnight rn and ughhh

tw for body issues and weight stuff and i'm putting this just because i love you guys and i don't want any of you to feel like you're less then you really are because you are all so great and wonderful and beautiful


ok so i have body issues. i don't like my cheeks because they are too big and i don't like my shoulders because they are huge and i don't like my tummy because it puffs out a little bit and my family has pictures of me on their instagrams and my face looks like it is in a fatsuit except nope that's just me and i can't do anything about it i just have big fucking cheeks. and i can't tell them to take it down because then it'll trigger THEM because my oldest sister had anorexia and was so, so thin for a year or two and i don't want them to think that's happening to me. it's not. i still eat like i always have but i just wish i didn't look the way i do.

i know, I KNOW i am a horrible person who is going straight to hell for what i'm about to say, but i think these issues come from my sister. i love her and my family so much but i think it started then. in like 5th grade. i don't and never have read fashion magazines with the skinny models like my sister or paid much attention to body types or whatever. i don't even want to be skinny. i just don't want my shoulders and my cheeks to be so freaking BIG and for my face to not look so stupid. anyway so my sister was so scarily thin so every night she'd have a milkshake w/ protein powder to try and get herself to a healthy weight and to support her, my parents had me drink it with her. and then she said she was fat because of the milkshakes, that i too had every night.

she said she was fat even when we had the same exact diet and i know and i knew that it wasn't her talking it was this disease in her brain that was telling her this but she said she was fat, and we ate the same things, did the same exercise, so boom, 5th grade = body issues.

i don't even know why i'm saying this. i've just thought about it a lot and i know none of you will have any solutions because there ARE no solutions: i have big cheeks, big shoulders, a puffy stomach, an ugly face. i don't know what to do, because i eat really well and i play basketball 4 days a week but nothing changes. i'm still ugly. and my cheeks are still big.

this is going to set back the feminist movement by 30 years, but it's the truth: it hurts that no one has ever liked me. it does. it hurts that no one (my age and with the standard of my generation) finds me interesting or pretty. that's another thing: i'm pretty sure i'm not interesting. also desperate.
I'm sorry that I can't really help with the whole situation with your sister more since I don't know much about that sort of thing. but I know that you are not awful or horrible for having some self-esteem issues because of that. it doesn't mean you hate her or totally blame her and that's ok. also the thing with your cheeks? I'm fourteen and really skinny and I still have pretty big cheeks that get super puffy when I smile so I don't smile much. it's normal and your cheeks are really cute I'm sure but you've still got baby fat and that will go away eventually.
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Old 12-31-2016, 02:19 PM
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you know that feel where you're just like "maybe I'm just a straight cisgirl who wants to feel like a special snowflake"? That.
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Old 12-31-2016, 04:17 PM
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you know that feel where you're just like "maybe I'm just a straight cisgirl who wants to feel like a special snowflake"? That.
God I relate so much
Whatever you decide, you're still special no matter what (I realize that's a hard statement to take seriously lmao) and sexuality/gender is totally fluid!!! Like I am so into girls some days and some days I'm just not as much and that's totally fine.

Whatever the case is, you're always going to be a special snowflake. Just to let h know.
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Old 12-31-2016, 06:45 PM
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you know that feel where you're just like "maybe I'm just a straight cisgirl who wants to feel like a special snowflake"? That.
^^^^ this omg it just makes figuring it all at even harder
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Old 12-31-2016, 10:00 PM
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you know that feel where you're just like "maybe I'm just a straight cisgirl who wants to feel like a special snowflake"? That.
It's a difficult feeling. I hope you figure it out.
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Old 01-02-2017, 06:13 PM
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hey wow I'm totally unprepared to go back to school Saturday. I know it's far away still but I'm already worried. because homework and also room change is soon and I don't know anyone who wants to room with me yet. I'm sure it'll all work out but my anxious self is freaking out already even though I don't even have any homework over break.
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Old 01-02-2017, 09:24 PM
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hey wow I'm totally unprepared to go back to school Saturday. I know it's far away still but I'm already worried. because homework and also room change is soon and I don't know anyone who wants to room with me yet. I'm sure it'll all work out but my anxious self is freaking out already even though I don't even have any homework over break.
Ugh, I start tomorrow and I'm having a mental breakdown. I don't even know why.


Anyway, I hope it all works out.
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