Cry For Help/My Deepest Apology
Posted July 16th, 2017 by EmilyMc
July 16th, 2017
I see you falling
I feel your pain
yet still I know I don't understand every bit, because I don't know why you won't try harder to win your own self approval
it kills inside
just to think about your lonely life, and how I set myself apart from you
after all, we're more simmilar than you think.
I just keep all the junk stored in my head, and act stronger than I feel.
When you saw my scars- the look in your eyes when you realized all my help that I had given you-I needed someone to help me to.
I can't look at you
not even pictures
because you're too much like the worst part of me, and it scares me to imagine letting that inner person become who people see.
But I'm not going to loose my own fight.
I'm leaving your side
and I apologise, because I know you don't have enoughth strength on your own
I honestly can hardly beleive I might be getting better, but being around you drags out my pain
and I have to let go.
Keep in mind we're not friends because I care about you.
I know it's hard and confusing, but even if you knew more you would never understand.
No one understands the tears I shed when I turn around because they can't see it.
I try to hint I'm hurt by telling them just a little thing here and there, but seeing is beleiving.
No one understands.
All they can see that's a mess is you because you speak your thoughts, but I have two different people in my body.
One on the outside, and one in my brain.
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